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Posted by ghost on August 11, 2004, at 19:38:07
last night i had an episode i hadn't had in awhile.
my thoughts were jumbled, i couldn't string together coherent ideas, i was downright confused and i felt like my sanity was slipping away. i messaged a friend something about zombies eating my brains, and didn't really comprehend it until several hours after the fact when i was scrolling through the history of our conversation. i was antsy and agitated and just overall really confused. i wasn't sure how i got to the hotel (on my househunting trip, presently) or why.
i ran out of my anti-psychotic a few days ago and when pondering taking some xanax to try to calm me down, i found one of my pills. i usually only take half, but i had no way to break it so i took the whole thing. an hour later, i was better. (but embarassed-- that one friend wasn't the only one to get confused and twisted messages from me last night). right now i'm okay, but i'm really afraid that when it leaves my system tomorrow, i'll get confused again.
it is interesting, however. because it must mean that my meds are working. i was starting to slip into the "they're just sugar pills" mode again and thinking they weren't actually doing anything.
i'm not really sure what to do, because i need to be focused and on-task this week in order to find a place to live. i'm alone and not sure where to go for help. i really don't want to go to a hospital if i get like this again (I had half a mind to call 911 last night because i was so confused i didn't know what was going on)-- i mean, if i know enough to think about 911, i can't be that bad, right?
are there ways to combat this confusion? do i have to start carrying notes as reminders? i feel so silly doing that. are there meditations out there? i wonder if i could calm myself to do such things. but it's worth a shot to be armed tomorrow in case anything goes wrong. i just hope it doesn't happen when i'm with a real estate agent. how embarassing.
Posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 11, 2004, at 19:59:10
In reply to insanity, lack of meds, and confusion., posted by ghost on August 11, 2004, at 19:38:07
Did you get your meds, Ghost? I haven't ever been off of mine, but I have wondered. Then, I think, "Oh, I would feel even worse than now."
I hope you got your meds and start to feeling better.
Posted by ghost on August 11, 2004, at 20:12:44
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion., posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 11, 2004, at 19:59:10
i have no way to get this med that i'm out of right now.
Posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 11, 2004, at 20:32:33
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion., posted by ghost on August 11, 2004, at 20:12:44
I sure hope it will not be a long time frame. Be safe until then.
Posted by ghost on August 11, 2004, at 20:42:19
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion., posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 11, 2004, at 20:32:33
Posted by gardenergirl on August 11, 2004, at 21:25:46
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion., posted by Shadowplayers721 on August 11, 2004, at 20:32:33
Sounds like both a scary situation and a revelation in the same event. But being away from home and under pressure to find a place (I've done that...buy a house in a weekend--ack!) can leave you more vulnerable.
Do you get your meds from a chain pharmacy? If so, they can sometimes call in a small amount for you or even a refill to a local pharm. I had to do that while on vacation in Florida.
I wish you a smooth trip from here on out and peace of mind.
Take care,
gg
Posted by ghost on August 11, 2004, at 21:47:09
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion., posted by gardenergirl on August 11, 2004, at 21:25:46
i got my meds from the hospital pdoc, and hoped that i'd have a job with insurance and a new pdoc by now so that i didnt run out. but i don't. i have prescriptions for my meds (i dont have the Rx for the one i'm out of with me here, though) but the one i'm out of is too expensive for me to buy with cash anyway.
so i'm SOL, i guess.
buying a house in a weekend! ouch.
Posted by fallsfall on August 12, 2004, at 9:01:18
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion. » gardenergirl, posted by ghost on August 11, 2004, at 21:47:09
Your doctor (whoever prescribed the meds) can phone a prescription to whereever you are. Can you buy a week's supply? That way you don't have to find so much money. Are you in AAA? They have discounted meds, too.
Call the local emergency room and tell them your story and ask if they can help. Maybe they have samples - your doctor from elsewhere can confirm that you should have the med?? You are looking for a short term solution here.
P.S. It sounds like this med is not an "optional" med for you. This one doesn't make you feel "better" - it allows you to function.
Posted by ghost on August 12, 2004, at 20:24:43
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion. » ghost, posted by fallsfall on August 12, 2004, at 9:01:18
i didn't think to call the prescribing doc. he was working with me out of a special center for people with low incomes, it's tough to get a hold of him, but maybe tomorrow i'll make soem phone calls. i'll put it on my "to do" list. but even a week isn't going to solve the problem. i probably wont have insurance for a few weeks at least, at the rate things are going.
today wasn't a bad day, btw. i was pretty functional, i think. i got stuff done. i did spend some money i shouldn't have, but it won't break the bank.
Posted by TexasChic on August 13, 2004, at 11:48:24
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion. » fallsfall, posted by ghost on August 12, 2004, at 20:24:43
I'm so sorry you're having such a hard time. I know how bad it is to be without your meds. It sucks. I agree with the others that maybe you should try to get some at least for a week or so, whether through the ER, or you prescribing doc, or whatever. I would like to believe someone out there would have enough compassion to help you out. And maybe after the meds get to working, you'll be able to think of a longer term solution. I know I can't think when I'm off mine.
I hope everything is still going alright. Let us know how you're doing.
Posted by TexasChic on August 17, 2004, at 9:19:15
In reply to Re: insanity, lack of meds, and confusion., posted by TexasChic on August 13, 2004, at 11:48:24
Posted by ghost on August 17, 2004, at 9:27:21
In reply to How are you doing ghost? (nm), posted by TexasChic on August 17, 2004, at 9:19:15
thanks for checking up on me... i appreciate it. i'm doing a LOT better, actually. i was feeling a little nutty on sautrday afternoon so i left early to go to my gf&bf's house ( was gonna go sunday)... they keep me grounded. it's nice to be so close to them. i cant wait to move for real, then i can visit them whenever i get the chance.
i upped the dose of my other med (the pdoc said i could do it awhile ago) and still havent taken the anti-psychotic, but i'm doing a lot better.
*big hugs of thanks*
ghost
Posted by TexasChic on August 17, 2004, at 9:57:15
In reply to Re: How are you doing ghost? » TexasChic, posted by ghost on August 17, 2004, at 9:27:21
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