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Posted by ghost on June 29, 2004, at 15:09:37
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » ghost, posted by partlycloudy on June 24, 2004, at 10:33:00
hello from indiana!
wisconsin was... eventful. we went to a phish concert. my friend's car broke down on our way out of the concert (we could literally SEE the exit, after waiting for 2.5 hrs to get out). we spent the night calling AAA, restarting the car, cancelling AAA, and finally getting towed at 5am to a garage that opened at 8. No sleep! Eventually it turned out to be a problem that couldn't be fixed right away, so we caught a ride from his parents (2.5 hrs away), eventually making it back to his parents' house at 6pm. I'm still catching up from sleep from that night!
Sunday night, I stayed in a hotel after going to Chicago to eat at this famous mashed potato restaurant-- only to find out that that place has become the Coyote Ugly Saloon. very sad.
Anyhow, so I made it to Indiana, where I'm staying with old friends. I have a history with these people, so it's slightly stressful, but I'm thinking I can handle it. And if i can't, I'll just leave early. I'm thinking I'll be here for another few days. Then it's off to Ohio.
I'm glad you guys are following me. It's like having an on-the-road support group :)
ghost
Posted by partlycloudy on June 29, 2004, at 17:46:31
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 29, 2004, at 15:09:37
Indiana is another place I've never been. I've only ever heard of Goshen and Gary (from The Music Man). Tell us all about it!
Posted by ghost on June 30, 2004, at 9:55:37
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » ghost, posted by partlycloudy on June 29, 2004, at 17:46:31
Indiana is very flat. Heh. But the thunderstorms are INCREDIBLE. Truly amazing.
> Indiana is another place I've never been. I've only ever heard of Goshen and Gary (from The Music Man). Tell us all about it!
Posted by TexasChic on June 30, 2004, at 14:37:13
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 29, 2004, at 15:09:37
It sounds like you're having fun! I would love to see more of the country. I haven't even seen New Mexico or Louisiana, which are the states on either side of me!
Posted by lonelygirl on June 30, 2004, at 16:33:47
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 29, 2004, at 15:09:37
What part of Ohio are you going to be passing through? Are you stopping there?
Posted by ghost on July 1, 2004, at 7:35:04
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » ghost, posted by lonelygirl on June 30, 2004, at 16:33:47
columbus, OH (a suburb), on I-70? i'll be staying there for a night or two, but my schedule's very flexible.
Posted by gardenergirl on July 1, 2004, at 23:44:59
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004 » lonelygirl, posted by ghost on July 1, 2004, at 7:35:04
Give a shout to the south as you get into Ohio. I'm in the southwest part.
And your impression of Indiana matches mine! LOL.
Be safe and enjoy.
gg
Posted by lonelygirl on July 1, 2004, at 23:49:38
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by gardenergirl on July 1, 2004, at 23:44:59
And I am in the opposite part as where gardenergirl is.
Posted by ghost on July 4, 2004, at 12:28:29
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on June 30, 2004, at 9:55:37
greetings from indiana. i made it here okay. the stress levels were up at first (i have a history with the folks i'm staying with that maybe i'll go into another time), but things are going much better, and i'm having fun. today we're going to their neice's 2nd birthday party.
it's relatively fun also because they have three kids who take naps, so i get daily naps myself :)
we also went to the Fort Wayne Zoo, which was a great time.
i leave here tomorrow and head towards ohio. i'm sorry to go, but i know it's time. so that feels good.
i've also sent out resumes to a few jobs since i havent heard anything from my "big lead" from before yet. i have to feel like i'm doing SOMETHING. and i've decided to get a low-stress job at someplace like a movie theatre when i get to NH instead of worrying too much. that way i'll pay the bills i have to pay (i hope) and not lose sleep over not working at my "dream job."
Posted by partlycloudy on July 4, 2004, at 13:19:56
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 4, 2004, at 12:28:29
Bye, bye Indiana. I like your idea about getting a job while you're waiting for one you want. Enjoy your naps! What a treat!
Posted by ghost on July 6, 2004, at 0:29:04
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 4, 2004, at 12:28:29
greetings from ohio! i made it here just fine, and had a great dinner out with my friend. we ate way too much fried food. :) insomnia has hit me yet again, but she gave me one of her trazodones so hopefully i'll get a good night's sleep (i had to take some xanax too to turn off my mind). i feel pretty good, though-- this girl's a lot of fun and totally understands my situation (mental health and stuff), and it's nice to be a step closer to my destination.
she showed me a scrapbook-like photoalbum she made her friend, and it gave me TONS of ideas for the one i want to make when i get to new hampshire. i'm really excited. i hope i have enough cash left over to buy scrapbooking things. :)
yay, ohio!
Posted by gardenergirl on July 6, 2004, at 7:27:31
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 6, 2004, at 0:29:04
Welcome to Ohio. I get to Columbus about once a month for school/business stuff. It's a great city.
Thanks for keeping us updated. It's nice to travel vicariously.
Take care,
gg
Posted by partlycloudy on July 6, 2004, at 8:41:27
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 6, 2004, at 0:29:04
Wow, you are zipping along! I have tried to do scrapbooking (my older, smarter, more talented sister gave me all the stuff to start) and I couldn't get the hang of it. So now I stick post-its on photos as soon as I get them developed so I don't forget where I was and who WAS that person?
Posted by ghost on July 8, 2004, at 11:33:19
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 6, 2004, at 0:29:04
greetings from northern VA/DC! i made it. i slept a LOT in ohio, so i feel a lot better. i'm staying with a family friend here in NoVa, one i haven't seen in a long time, so it's nice. she's doing an internship down here but is from my home state of CT.
right now i'm at a panera bread co. with a cookie and iced tea and on my laptop :)
Posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 12:04:28
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 8, 2004, at 11:33:19
greetings from new haven connecticut. i posted photos from a fun day at the NYC museum of natural history at http://www.autoneurotic.net/gallery/AMNH (i'm not sure if posting photos of yourself is a no-no here or not, but i think i'll just not care... they're funny photos, and i want to post them so i'm gonna). i'm killing time in new haven until the afternoon when i'm going to go out to dinner with some family friends, and then I should be in NH by the evening-- my next post should be me at home, safe and sound!
hugs to you sweet folks following me...
ghost
Posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 12:22:10
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 8, 2004, at 11:33:19
it's interesting how having so much "fun," one can still feel out of place and lonely. i've seen a lot of people but related to almost none of them, and even the one person i could relate to, it was hard to open up and i didn't spend nearly enough time with her to open up anyway. oddly, when i read about and infer everyone's friendships here on babble, it makes me feel sad-- i still feel like an outsider sometimes. it's funny how my feelings and thoughts flipflip from fun and happy to sad and lonely. it just goes to show that we're never cured... our symptoms are only controlled (somteimes). i'm sure it doesnt help that i'm currently sitting in a coffeeshop in a city where i spent the four years of my life prior to the one i spent in lincoln-- where i left an exgf of nearly 4 years, an undergraduate education that burned me out, among other things. i'm surrounded by sad memories.
i'm supposed to meet with some family friends for dinner. one is home, but i don't feel very close to him (sometimes he creeps me out anyway), so i don't want to be there alone with him... so i'm killing time until the woman i do know well enough gets home from work. few more hours. a few more hours, and i don't think i'll come back here.
i called my exgf because i forgot i had a birthday present for her (i'm a sucker, but she sends me stuff too), but no answer. might be for the best. i'll mail it to her when i get to nh. that might be for the best. not sure i could handle seeing too many people from my past... it's my past that put me in this state. (on the other hand, it's made me who i am...)
maybe i just needed to ramble and get this out. maybe i shouldn't have ruined the upbeat thread of the roadtrip with this post. but i guess this is my thread and i can do what i want with it. and like most things in my life, there seems to be a sad undertone to it. i'm having fun, but it's all on the surface. deep down, i'm still me. sad and alone. you can change the background, but the big picture is still the same.
Posted by partlycloudy on July 12, 2004, at 12:57:19
In reply to feeling lonely, posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 12:22:10
((((ghost)))) I know what you mean about being with people and still being alone. My husband is visiting his daughter in Boston, and every call and photo just isolates me more.
Revisiting old haunts (ghost - get it??) makes for a lonely time too. Home is very close... you're almost there!
My faviourite picture from your gallery is the mammoth with the curly tusks. I've always had a thing for elephant-type animals.
Posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 13:12:28
In reply to Re: feeling lonely » ghost, posted by partlycloudy on July 12, 2004, at 12:57:19
heh. you made a pun-- haunts! i love bad puns. so thanks.
it's nice to know i'm not alone. i guess that's all i'm looking for-- reassurance that i'm not alone in my weird feelings.
thanks for looking at my pictures! i like that one too-- i might make it black and white and add it to my portfolio. (i'm gonna pretend i'm a real artist and make a portfolio.)
Posted by gardenergirl on July 12, 2004, at 13:19:19
In reply to Re: feeling lonely » ghost, posted by partlycloudy on July 12, 2004, at 12:57:19
I like the pics with the dinosaurs. I visited a museum in Chicago (blanking on the name, although I really should be able to remember...definitely a natural history museum) where they had a full dinosaur skeleton named Sue. The head alone weighed so much that they could not include it in the full body display. Instead they made a lighter mock up of it and put the head in a display case upstairs. But very cool.
I can relate with you and partly cloudy that it's common to feel lonely even around people, even people you know. Having a mental illness, in my case atypical depression is kind of like a secret. It's usually not very visible except to someone who is trained or who knows you really well. And even if someone knows, they often do not know what it is like inside.
I think isolation happens in some ways as a protective measure. Because if we let it all hang out all the time, we would get hurt by all those who don't understand.
But we understand, at least as much as we are able and more than the average Joe.
Glad your trip is going well. You know I spend a lot of time sleeping in Ohio, too! ;)
Take care,
gg
Posted by karen_kay on July 12, 2004, at 15:21:36
In reply to feeling lonely, posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 12:22:10
i know how you feel about really opening up sometimes. it's strange. sometimes people know everything there is to know about me, and other times it takes the jaws of life to pry how i'm really doing out of me (and even then i lie). but, i'm odd like that. perhaps it just takes the right person? hmmm, i'd like to ponder that one, but i don't have years you know...
about friendships on babble.... hmmmm.... again, i'd like to ponder that one too (i like the word ponder, i think it makes me sound smart, but anyway...).. but, i recall, you once asked me to marry you!!! that got my attention (and if you know anything about me, you would know that i have a VERY faulty memory and forget everything about everything.. but, i do remember that YOU asked ME to marry you!!!! (without me asking you first!!!!!) that almost never happens!!!! usually i ask everyone here (and their brother as well) to marry me!!! i was impressed by that!!! (honestly! could it be? someone like me?).... that being said, ghost, you'll always have a special place in my heart dear!
but again, about being lonely... the good thing about it (is there really a such thing????) is that it gives you time to sort things out. it gives you tiem to think aobut things you should be thinking aobut. it gives you much needed alone time. also, remember that you're on this trip and though you're having fun, you're also having much needed alone time too. you're running into many people from your past. but, instead of thinking about your past, why not just enjoy how your past has shaped you into the wonderful person you are today. enjoy the fun time you are having. enjoy the trip. enjoy the journey. enjoy the down time you have in between dear. then, when you get to the up time, you'll enjoy that even more! (did i contradict myself somewhere between the beginning and the end of this post? i'm anything but consistent, you know, and i don't bother to be!!!!)
take care ghost, and enjoy this road trip!!!! it's the getting there that's the funnest part!!!! (you know, i used to be scared of flying, and soemtiems when the plane takes off i still am a bit afraid, but, i always meet such wonderful people on the plane and in the airports. so, even though i can't wait to get to my destination, i've learned to love travelling as well!!! you never know who'll you'll meet! why not talk to a stranger in the cafe while you're there? or jsut relax and enjoy your coffee (are you drinking coffee?)? enjoy the fact that you are with your best company and the greatest peron on earth right now, YOU!!!!!
enjoy the rest of your trip dear!
(((((((((ghost)))))))
Posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 22:59:35
In reply to i'm sorry you feel lonely...., posted by karen_kay on July 12, 2004, at 15:21:36
a google times. thanks.
and yes. i most certainly did ask you to marry me. i'm still waiting on my answer...
*mwah*
ghost
Posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 23:02:17
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004, posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 12:04:28
home, sweet home.
i made it safe and sound.
i had dinner at a casino and was given $5 to play the slots... i won $5, so i broke even and called it done. it was fun. i sat in an incredible massaging chair and my aching hips felt much better for a little while. i did meet up with my exgf and it was a nice visit after all.
but it's nice to be back. over 2200 miles under my belt in the last few weeks, lots of photos, and some good stories (when i think of them)... overall, i think it was a success. but i'm glad to be done.
thanks for staying tuned...
ghost
Posted by gardenergirl on July 13, 2004, at 11:11:30
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004: the end., posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 23:02:17
Posted by TexasChic on July 13, 2004, at 13:17:33
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004: the end., posted by ghost on July 12, 2004, at 23:02:17
I'm glad you made it home safe and sound. Now try to rest up a bit, all that driving can be so draining!
I also know what you mean about feeling alone when you're in the midst of people. I guess its because in reality we really are trapped in our own heads. But like Karen or somebody said, sometimes it good to have some alone time. I'm doing that myself right now.
Oh, and I enjoyed your pics! Dinasours are so fascinating. It sounds like you had a pretty fun trip. I hope you enjoyed it.
Posted by Angel Girl on July 15, 2004, at 23:53:41
In reply to Re: ghost's road trip 2004: the end., posted by TexasChic on July 13, 2004, at 13:17:33
> I'm glad you made it home safe and sound. Now try to rest up a bit, all that driving can be so draining!
> I also know what you mean about feeling alone when you're in the midst of people. I guess its because in reality we really are trapped in our own heads. But like Karen or somebody said, sometimes it good to have some alone time. I'm doing that myself right now.
> Oh, and I enjoyed your pics! Dinasours are so fascinating. It sounds like you had a pretty fun trip. I hope you enjoyed it.ghost
Congratulations for completing your trip safely and having fun and meeting up with old friends along the way. I also know what it's like to feel alone amongst a crowd. Like TC, I'm lying low right now, I really don't feel much like talking with anybody at all. I'm in one of my *very* quiet phases. The thing is no matter where we go, we're always with ourselves, so nothings going to change unless we change within. I really hope you enjoy where your living now and can get back on your feet again. I really enjoyed looking at your photos. Thanks for sharing them with us.
AG
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