![[dr. bob]](/dr-bob-sm.gif)
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.orgShown: posts 1 to 23 of 23. This is the beginning of the thread.
Posted by slinky on July 25, 2003, at 19:53:11
beating myself up.
in the trapped void.
depression nah, that word doesn't describe this self torture.
well at leat i'm getting angry--that's a good sign.
Civil though eh?
I awoke today in a panic attack..been crying all day.
I wanted out into nothingness..I'm chicken scared that there's life after death just like the nightmares I want the nothing..my feeble energy digested back into the vast universe.
Life is supposed to be hard but I'm as weak as a chair made from string.
Posted by Dinah on July 25, 2003, at 20:04:36
In reply to boxing gloves n cat o' nine tail, posted by slinky on July 25, 2003, at 19:53:11
Oh, Fudge!!!!
Wish I could help, dearest Slinky.
Posted by slinky on July 25, 2003, at 20:17:21
In reply to Re: :( » slinky, posted by Dinah on July 25, 2003, at 20:04:36
I think it would help if someone who was going through the same pain to talk to we'd probably whine--but that's ok--but i need it to be real -live-not through this web.
Feeling alone , misunderstood. Need to feel to take life not too seriously but it's so hard to peep over the edge.
Knowing it passes doesn't help..cause I' not getting much of a break from this zone anymore.
I get tolerence so quickly to meds...even my vitamins..I've started to get bad PMT..don't know why.
Sorry I'm moaning being self indulgent in this state.
Posted by Dinah on July 25, 2003, at 20:19:15
In reply to Re: :( » Dinah, posted by slinky on July 25, 2003, at 20:17:21
Posted by slinky on July 25, 2003, at 20:31:19
In reply to Re: Please be self indulgent, if it helps (nm) » slinky, posted by Dinah on July 25, 2003, at 20:19:15
Seems there are no answers no quick fix.
Just have to sit through it.
I called someone but it's conformation that things are crappy .
I'm sleeping most of the time I can't hold a conversation cause i'm brain dead.
Last night i was fine..watched tv without it freaking me..programme about quantum physics.
Sleep does something to me..my dreams mess me up..i'm tired after, then sleep again and it's a viscious cycle.
i'm not comfy in my body.
Posted by fallsfall on July 25, 2003, at 21:04:23
In reply to Re: Please be self indulgent, if it helps, posted by slinky on July 25, 2003, at 20:31:19
Can you look for a depression support group nearby? That way you would have real live people to talk to. I know that my group doesn't expect everyone to talk in complete sentances. Ask your pdoc, therapist, local hospital, newspaper if there is group nearby.
I wish you could feel better
Posted by gabbix2 on July 25, 2003, at 21:47:54
In reply to Re: Please be self indulgent, if it helps » slinky, posted by fallsfall on July 25, 2003, at 21:04:23
Hey, Slinky,
I'm sorry the phone call confirmed that things are crappy, I think thats the lonliest feeling in the world, especially if its about a romantic relationship and you're hoping the rejection you're sensing might be in your head. You finally can't stand the anxiety and call, only to find out that it wasn't just in your head.Awww Crap.
I remember when I used to enjoy things other than being in love, but I can't seem to find anything
interesting anymore. Right now I'm watching
Debbie Travis ruin a perfectly beautiful old house, with kind of a morbid curiosity.I'm really sorry Slinky, I guess you got your alloted happy hours all used up the other day.
I got mine in March :(
Posted by gabbix2 on July 25, 2003, at 21:51:05
In reply to Re: Please be self indulgent, if it helps, posted by gabbix2 on July 25, 2003, at 21:47:54
the last part of that post sounded so flippant,
about your happy hours being used up. It wasn't meant to, it was sort of an 'I'm resigned to this" kind of comment. It sounded really harsh when I read it again though.Will you marry me slinky? you have the Cat o nine Tails and I have the ring ;)
Posted by noa on July 26, 2003, at 9:49:25
In reply to Re: Please be self indulgent, if it helps, posted by slinky on July 25, 2003, at 20:31:19
Slinky, sorry you are in such distress. I have been in similar straits--it felt intolerable, I remember.
Hold on. And indulge all you want--your writing is beautiful.
Posted by slinky on July 26, 2003, at 10:59:42
In reply to P.Slinky, posted by gabbix2 on July 25, 2003, at 21:51:05
I didn't think it flippant..actually i'm so brain dead I don't get things.
the relationship is helpful in other ways but i don't blame someone not getting involved with me..because of my misery mmoods...can't even stroke my cat. No pleasure just feel like being spaced out and thoughtless.
i 've got no interest in things i haven't been out socially in years and don't miss it.I just go the stores if i feel like it.I'd have to complete my sex change to marry you :-)
Posted by slinky on July 26, 2003, at 11:05:19
In reply to Re: Please be self indulgent, if it helps » slinky, posted by fallsfall on July 25, 2003, at 21:04:23
I did go to a day centre once..everyone was silent...or not on this planet.
It's the british thing i think to be withdrawn and not talk. dunno.
i feel like hiding
Posted by slinky on July 26, 2003, at 11:09:51
In reply to Re: Please be self indulgent, if it helps » slinky, posted by noa on July 26, 2003, at 9:49:25
there's a wars in my head and it's an effort to carry my body.
Just want to lie down.and melt into nothing.
Posted by gabbix2 on July 26, 2003, at 15:30:39
In reply to Re: P.Slinky » gabbix2, posted by slinky on July 26, 2003, at 10:59:42
But slinky's are fun for girls AND boys.
Oh I'm sorry, maybe that Ad for slinky toys
only aired in north america. Now I sound really weird.
It was a slinky a wonderful magical toy,
a slinky a slinky is fun for girls and boys..
"chorus"
everyone loves a slinky..That was until they inevitibly got tangled into a mess of steel rings that you couldn't untangle.
they were cool though. I think they still make them.
Everyone loves a slinky even when she's sad.
(in a perfect world they would)
Posted by slinky on July 26, 2003, at 17:15:36
In reply to Re: P.Slinky » slinky, posted by gabbix2 on July 26, 2003, at 15:30:39
..love me from your head and heart..love me like a child..
laa laa laa laa twang twing pom pom twang..
[[[[[[[slinky[[[[[[[__________________________
valium ,that little helper.
Posted by noa on July 26, 2003, at 18:51:37
In reply to Re: Plonky » gabbix2, posted by slinky on July 26, 2003, at 17:15:36
Slinky,
Your lack of energy makes me wonder if something in addition to depression is going on. It reminds me of how I was before my hypothyroidism was diagnosed.
Posted by gabbix2 on July 26, 2003, at 19:45:54
In reply to Re: Plonky » gabbix2, posted by slinky on July 26, 2003, at 17:15:36
I would love you like a child, with soft blankets
and cuddles for days and kisses on the forehead
and saying "shhhhhh" its gonna be okay.
Posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 20:31:54
In reply to Re: Plonky » slinky, posted by gabbix2 on July 26, 2003, at 19:45:54
Posted by fallsfall on July 26, 2003, at 23:21:42
In reply to Re: Plonky » slinky, posted by gabbix2 on July 26, 2003, at 19:45:54
Are you looking to adopt another?? Please???
Posted by slinky on July 27, 2003, at 0:24:48
In reply to Re: Plonky » slinky, posted by noa on July 26, 2003, at 18:51:37
Noa..
It has been suggested I take a hormone, forgot the name but doc said it would give energy.
I had thyroid checked ages ago it was normal but doc suggested I had another test.
Posted by slinky on July 27, 2003, at 0:29:14
In reply to Re: Plonky » slinky, posted by gabbix2 on July 26, 2003, at 19:45:54
Posted by noa on July 27, 2003, at 11:57:54
In reply to Re: Plonky » noa, posted by slinky on July 27, 2003, at 0:24:48
Yep, teh doc's suggestion to get retested is a good one. With thyroid, it can change, first of all.
And, the idea of "normal" is controversial--what many docs and labs consider normal is not really normal for everyone. Besides, just last year, they changed the standard for what is considered normal TSH (the most common test).
For more info, see:
http://thyroid.about.com/library/weekly/aa111097.htm
http://thyroid.about.com/library/howto/htthyroid-test.htm
http://thyroid.about.com/library/weekly/bltest-values.htm
Take care.
Posted by gabbix2 on July 27, 2003, at 15:51:36
In reply to Re: Plonky » gabbix2, posted by fallsfall on July 26, 2003, at 23:21:42
Of course sweetie,
Its so sad, that its such a small thing, but we all seem to be missing out on it.
Posted by slinky on July 27, 2003, at 22:52:53
In reply to Re: Plonky » slinky, posted by noa on July 27, 2003, at 11:57:54
This is the end of the thread.
Psycho-Babble Social | Extras | FAQ
Dr. Bob is Robert Hsiung, MD,
bob@dr-bob.org
Script revised: February 4, 2008
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/cgi-bin/pb/mget.pl
Copyright 2006-17 Robert Hsiung.
Owned and operated by Dr. Bob LLC and not the University of Chicago.