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Posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 5:28:49
Terrific therapy session, and more importantly, a really nice time with my son this evening.
I was playful and happy.
So here I am in the wee early hours again for the first time in a long time, waiting for the Klonopin to set in. Convinced of my basic wretchedness and evil as a human being. Mostly OCD thoughts, I know. And I know how to separate the wheat of the thoughts from the chaff. I've gotten pretty good at the OCD stuff.
But is there a baseline for happy? Is the OCD and anxiety attack in the middle of the night an equalizer for being so happy earlier? Or maybe it's just because I'm ridiculously annoying when happy, and my husband's reaction reminded me of that, and set up the train of thought that led to the OCD attack.
I dunno. But I'd like to be giddy happy for once without having to pay for it later.
Stomp, stomp, stomp. (I'm stomping my less than dainty feet.)
Rant over.
Posted by Phil on July 26, 2003, at 7:24:46
In reply to I felt fabulous earlier...., posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 5:28:49
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Posted by noa on July 26, 2003, at 9:54:31
In reply to Re: I felt fabulous earlier.... » Dinah, posted by Phil on July 26, 2003, at 7:24:46
Posted by noa on July 26, 2003, at 9:55:32
In reply to I felt fabulous earlier...., posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 5:28:49
Sorry, Dinah. Maybe later you'll get to take a nap? Naps seem to be helpful for you. Besides, you must be exhausted.
Posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 10:17:55
In reply to Re: I felt fabulous earlier.... » Dinah, posted by Phil on July 26, 2003, at 7:24:46
Posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 10:20:19
In reply to Re: I felt fabulous earlier.... » Dinah, posted by noa on July 26, 2003, at 9:55:32
The OCD I have pretty much under control and it's more of an annoyance tahn anything, really.
Just an early hour rant on the vast unfairness of the universe. :)
Posted by fallsfall on July 26, 2003, at 10:54:09
In reply to Re: I felt fabulous earlier.... » noa, posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 10:20:19
Well, I think that it is unfair that you could be feeling so good and have that cut so short. There should be a law that feeling good should last for a minimum of 24 hours.
You did feel fabulous earlier. Remember what that felt like. It will come again.
Posted by Tabitha on July 26, 2003, at 13:06:15
In reply to I felt fabulous earlier...., posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 5:28:49
so unfair, isn't it? especially the late night crazies, they're so hard to fight.
Posted by tina on July 26, 2003, at 13:37:05
In reply to I felt fabulous earlier...., posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 5:28:49
Stomp stomp stomp. That's me stomping FOR you Dinah. It does seem that when we have our ups, something happens to bring us back to earth.
It's not at all fair. *stomp stomp stomp*
Posted by lostsailor on July 27, 2003, at 7:05:42
In reply to Re: I felt fabulous earlier.... » Dinah, posted by tina on July 26, 2003, at 13:37:05
Posted by KimberlyDi on July 29, 2003, at 13:43:13
In reply to I felt fabulous earlier...., posted by Dinah on July 26, 2003, at 5:28:49
Dinah,
Is bi-polar the one with the manic ups & severe downs? Every once in a while I feel like I have mini-bi-polar experience. I'll be ridiculously happy with life and anyone, laughing & playful. Then reality comes crashing in, and I'm disillusioned and angry or depressed. I've come to recognize the manic ups, and try to control them. I have no way to measure if that has decreased the downs. Maybe I should just enjoy the ups, and pay the price later, like you mentioned.Beyond that, I feel like I have symptoms of several disorders, like ADHD & OCD, without any being *full blown*, except alcoholism. It's like my mind is an equal opportunity employer for part-time disorders. I take Effexor, that helps with my anxiety and stress at work, yet it seems to agitate the ADHD & OCD symptoms. <sigh> I never expected much from life, but it would be nice to not have to struggle so much to be normal.
Good Luck!
KDi in Texas> Terrific therapy session, and more importantly, a really nice time with my son this evening.
>
> I was playful and happy.
>
> So here I am in the wee early hours again for the first time in a long time, waiting for the Klonopin to set in. Convinced of my basic wretchedness and evil as a human being. Mostly OCD thoughts, I know. And I know how to separate the wheat of the thoughts from the chaff. I've gotten pretty good at the OCD stuff.
>
> But is there a baseline for happy? Is the OCD and anxiety attack in the middle of the night an equalizer for being so happy earlier? Or maybe it's just because I'm ridiculously annoying when happy, and my husband's reaction reminded me of that, and set up the train of thought that led to the OCD attack.
>
> I dunno. But I'd like to be giddy happy for once without having to pay for it later.
>
> Stomp, stomp, stomp. (I'm stomping my less than dainty feet.)
>
> Rant over.
Posted by KimberlyDi on July 29, 2003, at 13:46:00
In reply to Re: I felt fabulous earlier.... » Dinah, posted by Phil on July 26, 2003, at 7:24:46
Posted by Dinah on July 29, 2003, at 21:30:48
In reply to Re: I felt fabulous earlier.... » Dinah, posted by KimberlyDi on July 29, 2003, at 13:43:13
Hi Kimberly Di. Forgive me if my post is incoherent. I'm wallowing in self pity with a stupid cold.
Yes, bipolar has highs and lows. I've been diagnosed with cyclothymia, which is towards the mild end of the bipolar spectrum. My moods don't change all that quickly, measured more in weeks than hours. And my giddy happy was purely natural this time. I had spent a terrific evening with my darling son, and I guess we both got a bit silly. :)
But my main problem is anxiety disorders. I've been diagnosed with OCD too, but have it mainly under control with cognitive behavior therapy. Have you tried cognitive behavior therapy for the OCD?
Posted by KimberlyDi on July 31, 2003, at 9:50:29
In reply to Re: I felt fabulous earlier.... » KimberlyDi, posted by Dinah on July 29, 2003, at 21:30:48
Dinah,
Thanks for replying and your post wasn't incoherent, I don't think. Unless my thinking is incoherent and that's why it seemed ok to me. I love to goof around with my son, also. Isn't it sad that we self-analyze so much that simple happiness has to be viewed with suspicion. Am I manic? Is this a Side Effect of Meds?I don't know for sure if I have OCD. I've been learning so much from this website. You can be sure I'll start research on OCD now. I have this thing about symmetry on my body & other things. If i snap my left big toe, I have to snap my right also, with the same degree of success or I'll keep snapping them until I feel an equal degree of.. sameness? I'm always worrying about things I have to do before going to work, and I'll recheck over & over (curling iron off, thermostat changed <up or down>, dogs & cats fed, etc). I'm a creature of habit and I'm lost if my routine is altered. With jewelry, I have to be balanced. Ring on left hand, ring on right, watch on left wrist, bracelet on right. Maybe I'm just wierd. :)
KDi in Texas> Hi Kimberly Di. Forgive me if my post is incoherent. I'm wallowing in self pity with a stupid cold.
>
> Yes, bipolar has highs and lows. I've been diagnosed with cyclothymia, which is towards the mild end of the bipolar spectrum. My moods don't change all that quickly, measured more in weeks than hours. And my giddy happy was purely natural this time. I had spent a terrific evening with my darling son, and I guess we both got a bit silly. :)
>
> But my main problem is anxiety disorders. I've been diagnosed with OCD too, but have it mainly under control with cognitive behavior therapy. Have you tried cognitive behavior therapy for the OCD?
>
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