Psycho-Babble Social Thread 33125

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Has anyone heard from Medusa?

Posted by gabbix2 on December 9, 2002, at 17:24:47

I miss her posts.

 

Re: Or Penny? Or Terra Miller? (nm) » gabbix2

Posted by Dinah on December 9, 2002, at 18:15:58

In reply to Has anyone heard from Medusa?, posted by gabbix2 on December 9, 2002, at 17:24:47

 

Re: Or Janelle? (nm)

Posted by wendy b. on December 9, 2002, at 21:01:46

In reply to Has anyone heard from Medusa?, posted by gabbix2 on December 9, 2002, at 17:24:47

 

Re: Or Noa? (nm)

Posted by Dinah on December 10, 2002, at 8:25:44

In reply to Re: Or Penny? Or Terra Miller? (nm) » gabbix2 , posted by Dinah on December 9, 2002, at 18:15:58

 

I'm back » gabbix2

Posted by Medusa on December 11, 2002, at 4:09:30

In reply to Has anyone heard from Medusa?, posted by gabbix2 on December 9, 2002, at 17:24:47

So sweet of you to think of me. I stopped posting much after a banning I couldn't figure out at all. If I can't understand why someone else gets banned, what's to keep the same from happening to me?

But I've come back to look for information on ADD, and because I miss some of the boardies.

You have my e-mail, feel free ... I've wondered about you, too, and Tabitha, but have been afraid of intruding.

 

Re: I'm back » Medusa

Posted by Tabitha on December 11, 2002, at 13:32:35

In reply to I'm back » gabbix2 , posted by Medusa on December 11, 2002, at 4:09:30

Hi Medusa, I was wondering about you too. Glad to hear from you. Let's catch up on the board or in email.
T

 

Re: I'm afraid to say...

Posted by gabbix2 on December 11, 2002, at 14:14:47

In reply to Re: I'm back » Medusa, posted by Tabitha on December 11, 2002, at 13:32:35

Medusa I was not being nice or sweet a bit, I missed your posts, really quite selfish of me.

I do not have your e-mail, well I do, but it's not correct, so I don't have it I guess.

You could try me though.

 

full night ahead, thinking about meds

Posted by Medusa on December 16, 2002, at 12:21:39

In reply to Re: I'm afraid to say..., posted by gabbix2 on December 11, 2002, at 14:14:47

I'm helping my sister do her university apps, and tonight's another deadline. Six weeks ago I pulled a late night for one of these, kept drifting, couldn't keep things straight ... and our parents had hauled her off for a "family night" at a place with no phone, so I had to meet the on-line deadline without verifying a few things with her. Our parents are fighting her tooth and nail on this ... they "messed up" with me, which resulted in me attending an Ivy school, and they're paying all costs to avoid the same "mistake" with her.

This following paragraph is SOCIAL, not meds. Yes, it's about meds, but in a social kind of way. It's about how I *feel* about the meds.

I'm thinking about reaching for 5mg of Ritalin - it was Rx'd while I was in uni, and did wonders, night and day, for my concentration. It gave me fevers though, and for some reason I rarely took it.

I feel bad about self-medicating, but frankly, I don't do any worse than when "supervised" by the so-called professionals I've dealt with in the past. I don't seem to react to meds in an addictive way.

I'm getting over a cold, and am just plain tired. I have to call the uni in question and ask for another week for her transcript ... she was "anti-schooled", and the "transcript" she put together just doesn't give a clear picture.

So I'm rambling into the darkness here.

By the way, today sister-in-question rec'd acceptance to the school we did the app for 6 weeks ago ... strange to realise that an effort I made actually _helped_ and made a difference.

 

Re: full night ahead, thinking about meds » Medusa

Posted by Gabbix2 on December 17, 2002, at 14:44:42

In reply to full night ahead, thinking about meds, posted by Medusa on December 16, 2002, at 12:21:39

When I was prescribed Dex, I thought my Dr. was a pill pusher, esp because he said it would help with my anxiety. He warned me I'd get a lot of negative response from Pharmacists, other Dr's. Which I have. It worked, and its still working, I've never been tempted to up the dose over 7 years.
I fell into Benzo fear and took myself off Ativan it was pretty grueling.. I thought it was the source of all my problems. nope.
I felt just as crappy after I stopped it, for months afterward, i waited just in case.

Now its like pulling teeth to have it prescribed.
I've been having anti psychotics and increased doses of side effect laden anti-depressants
pushed at me, just to keep me from 3mgs of Ativan a day.

There is an interesting section in the book "Atlas of Depression" on self-medication.
It cites just how arbitrary the labels of addictive and legal and illegal are..
And mentioned that the author himself takes Dexedrine, "when he needs it" on a bad day.
Until then I thought I'd have terrible withdrawl if I missed a dose..judging from the horrified looks on some Dr's faces when I said I was on it anyway
I found out I don't need it every day either.

The author spoke of one woman who managed her
moods with Heroine. She never became addicted.
(NOTE of course this isn't advice) He was using it to illustrate that some people have a worse time with our Dr's ideas of 'good'

I don't know, this is hardly news to anyone here, its just frustrating to look for answers where it seems you have to be your own guinea pig.

UGGGHh.


Well GOLLY gee Medusa, after that rant, I'm glad you helped your sister out.
It is weird though, isn't it, when you are surprised something you did actually HELPED.
Depression,
it sucks.

 

thanks Gabbi

Posted by Medusa on December 19, 2002, at 4:35:35

In reply to Re: full night ahead, thinking about meds » Medusa, posted by Gabbix2 on December 17, 2002, at 14:44:42

> He warned me I'd get a lot of negative response from Pharmacists, other Dr's. Which I have.
>

Strangely, I found a lot more sympathy and understanding and caring from pharmacists than I did from pdocs or shrinks. I never expected pharmacists to treat me as a person, just to fill the Rx correctly and charge me or the insurance the right amount and give me the instruction pamphlet and explain any warnings I didn't understand. While some did this and just this, others enquired about when I'd last had the Rx filled, how I was doing, and kindly told me to take care of myself and to be patient until the blood levels got back up. A few pharmacists have brought me to tears. That human contact. That I didn't get from my docs. (I was pretty close to tears anyway ...)


> I fell into Benzo fear and took myself off Ativan

so I should look up ativan and dexedrine. my regular doc will prescribe what's legal and what I can justify trying. She had me see a pdoc, and he's also flexible.


> I've been having anti psychotics and increased doses of side effect laden anti-depressants
> pushed at me, just to keep me from 3mgs of Ativan a day.
>

dang hello, where do these people get their ideas?

> frustrating to look for answers where it seems you have to be your own guinea pig.
>

Exactly. Exactly. Exactly.


> Well GOLLY gee Medusa, after that rant

thanks for ranting. it really helps me, it really does.


> I'm glad you helped your sister out.

She's been pretty depressed. In september or so she e'd me to say she wasn't going to apply anywhere. I panicked at her being so down on herself, and pushed and prodded. She went ahead and took some more standardized tests, and for the writing one, wrote about what she was going through ... and got an 800, the maximum score. When her feelings are behind it, her writing is poignant and persuasive.

> It is weird though, isn't it, when you are surprised something you did actually HELPED.
>

yeah. I feel that way in my whole life. Like nothing I can do will make any difference at all.

crap.


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