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Posted by susan C on August 20, 2001, at 13:19:05
I started out ok this am, but now am starting to windup...that confused, must do everything now brain. I stopped, got some juice, and am sitting here to talk to you. I have never really written in a journal. Maybe this is why people do it...When I was young, I got one with a little key. I wrote in it every day and carefully locked it and put it in a drawer. I stopped after I discovered my older sister had snuck in found it, jimmied the lock and read everything. ALL my secrets. I found out when she was teasing me about the boy I liked...'I read it in your diary...'well, ever since, I have carried a grudge and I have never written private thoughts...just notes, just up down, dizzy confused, angry...It is ironic that here, on the internet where anyone, everyone could read these, I am saying anything. Maybe it is because I don't know if I know you? Or perhaps, because you are a new aquantaince, someone who knows me because of these challenges we face together. Anyway, I have taken a rest. I am going to try to take one step for today. and say that is enough, that is enough to be satisfied.
Your wind-up mouse.
Posted by akc on August 20, 2001, at 15:01:55
In reply to oh oh, starting to wind up - Mouse, posted by susan C on August 20, 2001, at 13:19:05
Hate to get into one-up-manship, but I caught my mom reading my journals when I was a senior in high school. She has always refused to apolgize because she was justified because she was worried. Hah!
So I also have been hesitant to journal.
> I started out ok this am, but now am starting to windup...that confused, must do everything now brain. I stopped, got some juice, and am sitting here to talk to you. I have never really written in a journal. Maybe this is why people do it...When I was young, I got one with a little key. I wrote in it every day and carefully locked it and put it in a drawer. I stopped after I discovered my older sister had snuck in found it, jimmied the lock and read everything. ALL my secrets. I found out when she was teasing me about the boy I liked...'I read it in your diary...'well, ever since, I have carried a grudge and I have never written private thoughts...just notes, just up down, dizzy confused, angry...It is ironic that here, on the internet where anyone, everyone could read these, I am saying anything. Maybe it is because I don't know if I know you? Or perhaps, because you are a new aquantaince, someone who knows me because of these challenges we face together. Anyway, I have taken a rest. I am going to try to take one step for today. and say that is enough, that is enough to be satisfied.
>
> Your wind-up mouse.
Posted by Willow on August 20, 2001, at 15:59:05
In reply to Re: oh oh, starting to wind up - Mouse, posted by akc on August 20, 2001, at 15:01:55
Perhaps as we get older the need to share is greater and we notice that others feel the same way, that our thoughts are more common. Or perhaps nobody cares to read our journals anymore.
Seems like we are all starting to decompose. What is the cause??? Hmmm! Wonder if it is the weather, has anyone found any scientific studies of how drastic weather changes affect the mentally challenged? The sandman is standing on top of me and the weight is unbearable. SLEEP ...
Oh how sweet it would be to forget what normal was if we can't have a cure!
Weeping~Wilting Willow
Posted by Wendy B. on August 22, 2001, at 10:16:40
In reply to Personal journal ..., posted by Willow on August 20, 2001, at 15:59:05
Willow,
Yes, the heat has been unbearable, I went for a late-night walk last night to beat the heat, the skunks were out though, and I was a little scared... Makes me wish I had a pooch like you have... (I think you said this in a post on another thread, or am I just making this up? You were smelling wood-smoke... something like that...)
Journaling is great, and dreams can be incorporated, etc., so Sar, if you're reading this, give yourself an outlet. We can all use the time to focus on ourselves and whatever we want to write about. And now that we're adults, with our own houses or apartments, we can write without fearing our siblings or moms are going to read it and find out about our little dramas...
I like PSB and the gang here, because it is a lot like journaling. You can say whatever is on your mind, it's often a daily thing, logging on and reading and catching up with people, and you don't feel like you're being judged, unlike daily life with family and "real-life" friends. The people here know first-hand what you're going through, and don't give you that attitude, like "you're being self-indulgent" or "pick yourself up by your bootstraps" shit... So my "real-life" friends are more here than there...
I was the one who broke into my older sister's little pink, mini-locked diary when we were kids... Nothing earth-shattering. I felt terrible about it, though. She found out and beat me up. It's just those little locks, they make you *want* to break in, for some reason...
love to all,
your resident kleptomaniac,
W.> Perhaps as we get older the need to share is greater and we notice that others feel the same way, that our thoughts are more common. Or perhaps nobody cares to read our journals anymore.
>
> Seems like we are all starting to decompose. What is the cause??? Hmmm! Wonder if it is the weather, has anyone found any scientific studies of how drastic weather changes affect the mentally challenged? The sandman is standing on top of me and the weight is unbearable. SLEEP ...
>
> Oh how sweet it would be to forget what normal was if we can't have a cure!
>
> Weeping~Wilting Willow
Posted by Willow on August 22, 2001, at 13:19:54
In reply to Re: Personal journal ... » Willow, posted by Wendy B. on August 22, 2001, at 10:16:40
Wendy
You said, "I like PSB and the gang here, because it is a lot like journaling. You can say whatever is on your mind, it's often a daily thing, logging on and reading and catching up with people, and you don't feel like you're being judged, ..."
I never noticed this, but it is so true like an interactive journal with feedback.
Regarding the incident with your sister's journal, I wonder how it would have turned out if she forgave you and had shared parts of it with you. Where do we learn this secrecy?
Whispering Willow
ps i like to connect board members with people i have know to make it easier for myself to remember them. i had a brief friendship with a girl in grade 5, she had moved to our school and left the same year.
Posted by Wendy B. on August 22, 2001, at 14:39:37
In reply to Threads ... » Wendy B., posted by Willow on August 22, 2001, at 13:19:54
> Wendy
>
> You said, "I like PSB and the gang here, because it is a lot like journaling. You can say whatever is on your mind, it's often a daily thing, logging on and reading and catching up with people, and you don't feel like you're being judged, ..."
>
> I never noticed this, but it is so true like an interactive journal with feedback.
>
> Regarding the incident with your sister's journal, I wonder how it would have turned out if she forgave you and had shared parts of it with you. Where do we learn this secrecy?
>
> Whispering Willow
>
> ps i like to connect board members with people i have know to make it easier for myself to remember them. i had a brief friendship with a girl in grade 5, she had moved to our school and left the same year.Do I remind you of her?
W.
Posted by Willow on August 22, 2001, at 15:28:22
In reply to Re: Threads ... » Willow, posted by Wendy B. on August 22, 2001, at 14:39:37
Sorry, her name was Wendy. So it would be nice to think that you are like my lost childhood friend.
Posted by Wendy B. on August 22, 2001, at 17:01:45
In reply to Re: Threads ... » Wendy B., posted by Willow on August 22, 2001, at 15:28:22
> Sorry, her name was Wendy. So it would be nice to think that you are like my lost childhood friend.
That's very nice.... I'm touched...Speaking of friends and connections: I logged on the PsychoBabble chat room IM on Yahoo and my name on there is Wendybabble - I couldn't think of anything else...
I don't understand Yahoo chat at all... How can I read messages that were posted yesterday, for example? Or is that what they mean when they say Yahoo doesn't archive? ... I'm a dummy at this... Thanks for any tips...
Yer frend,
Wendy
Posted by Willow on August 22, 2001, at 18:04:41
In reply to Re: Threads friends » Willow, posted by Wendy B. on August 22, 2001, at 17:01:45
A few of us have been logging on in the evening about 8 to 10 pm est time. A few die hards remain past the witching hour. The chats are not saved like the message boards, but on the positive side you are getting feedback immediately. On the side of the board where you see your name with a star it will show other people who are in the room.
We would be more than happy to have you join in!
Yappy Willow
Posted by Wendy B. on August 23, 2001, at 10:54:21
In reply to Psycho Babble OPEN » Wendy B., posted by Willow on August 22, 2001, at 18:04:41
> A few of us have been logging on in the evening about 8 to 10 pm est time. A few die hards remain past the witching hour. The chats are not saved like the message boards, but on the positive side you are getting feedback immediately. On the side of the board where you see your name with a star it will show other people who are in the room.
>
> We would be more than happy to have you join in!
>
> Yappy Willow
Sorry I missed last night... A friend's cat died and I had to go out and bring him pesto and a bottle of white wine...
He is house-sitting for a friend, and one of the dogs (part pit-bull, natch), got to the 14-yr old kitty and broke her neck. My friend was inconsolable, but I just sat there with him...will try tonight!
W.
Posted by Willow on August 23, 2001, at 13:06:43
In reply to Re: Psycho Babble OPEN » Willow, posted by Wendy B. on August 23, 2001, at 10:54:21
Ouch, for the poor kitty! and your friend!
Hopefully we'll get a chance tonight ...
Posted by sar on August 23, 2001, at 18:11:53
In reply to Cats Dogs » Wendy B., posted by Willow on August 23, 2001, at 13:06:43
journals are great for most people. last year looking at a dozen of my teen journals upset me so much (writing style/lifestyle, etc) that i tore them to shreds and threw them in the garbage bin. filled a hefty cinch-sak!
now i like to write night dreams and fleeting thoughts--not much detail--no droning about how bad life is...
i want to chat! can i chat? i'm in the central time zone and computer illiterate. will it be difficult for me to log on, with my illiteracy & all?
thanks
sar
Posted by Willow on August 23, 2001, at 18:31:49
In reply to journalling, illiteracy, posted by sar on August 23, 2001, at 18:11:53
> i want to chat! can i chat? i'm in the central time zone and computer illiterate. will it be difficult for me to log on, with my illiteracy & all?
Sar
Once you get in it its easier than the message board. And we can help with the few features there are. First go to psycho babble open, there you will need to sign in. This can be frustrating, but here's a hint I could have used, you'll get an email with a code similar to here on babble. Once you sign it get it to remember your password and then the following times it'll take you directly there.
Looking forward to meeting you there ...
Posted by sar on August 24, 2001, at 21:32:15
In reply to Re: journalling, illiteracy » sar, posted by Willow on August 23, 2001, at 18:31:49
dear willow,
i tried last night to get on for 20 mins or so! had my password e-mailed to me etc, but could not gain entrance. i was drinking ipanemas at the time (drink i made up on accident, vodka + pink lemonade, there was no more cranberry) so maybe that had something to do with it (but i think i was still kinda sharp at the time)
a testament to my illiteracy. why is getting on this chatroom so difficult, esp when most of us are depressed (poor cognition) or on brain-numbing drugs? i sound whiny, sorry. this is a great message board, the chat thing just happens to be tres compliquee a mon avis.
any advice would be welcomed.
sar
Posted by Willow on August 24, 2001, at 22:17:08
In reply to testament to illiteracy » Willow, posted by sar on August 24, 2001, at 21:32:15
Sar
Just try again today! I know you have friends there that would love to see you ...Post any problems and the blind will try to lead you.
Willow
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