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Posted by Dinah on June 6, 2007, at 8:36:49
not to have been supportive.
I think I've been mildly hypomanic and starting a million projects I'll never complete again. Funny how it takes me so darn long to see that. You'd think the late hours and buzzy feeling would tip me off.
My therapist didn't notice it either, although I think he indirectly suggested I might possibly be being a little like "Happy Dinah" but I thought he meant I was being a bit flirtatious (in a nonsexual way). But on the other hand, I was, so that probably is what he meant.
Posted by DAisym on June 6, 2007, at 14:07:48
In reply to Sorry not to have been around, and, posted by Dinah on June 6, 2007, at 8:36:49
I don't think anyone is keeping score although we do worry when people just disappear. Perhaps you can channel some of that energy into one or two short projects so the chance of completion goes up?
What happens when you begin to recognize "happy Dinah" in the room? Does she immediately go away? Or can you sustain the mood? I guess I'm wondering if you begin to anticipate a crash. I heard a therapist say to her client (not me and not mine) - "enjoy the good feeling right now and just know it won't last but it will come back." I took issue with that because it seems to me we should be saying "I know it is hard right now but know it won't last." I didn't want her imposing "reality" on someone's energy and good mood. But what do I know? I haven't been in that fragile "good" place in awhile...
I'm glad you posted.
hugs,
Daisy
Posted by muffled on June 6, 2007, at 14:20:48
In reply to Re: Sorry not to have been around, and » Dinah, posted by DAisym on June 6, 2007, at 14:07:48
Posted by LadyBug on June 6, 2007, at 16:55:56
In reply to Re: Sorry not to have been around, and » Dinah, posted by DAisym on June 6, 2007, at 14:07:48
I was just thinking about you the other day. I'm glad you posted. I figure we post when we can and I always hope we post when we need our babble friends.
LadyBug
Posted by Dinah on June 7, 2007, at 9:20:04
In reply to Re:, posted by LadyBug on June 6, 2007, at 16:55:56
The worst part is when I wake up and realize how much I've spent.
Happy Dinah isn't so much a state of being happy as it is a state of being. I always said aliens took over my body in tenth and twelth grades, and that's more or less true. Every once in a while there's a brief invasion, and I love every moment of it.
:)
Posted by gardenergirl on June 7, 2007, at 17:13:14
In reply to Re: Sorry not to have been around, and » Dinah, posted by DAisym on June 6, 2007, at 14:07:48
Weird. All I get is a white screen.
Anyhow, I'm glad there's something positive or positive feeling going on right now. And glad you checked in.
Take care,
gg
Posted by annierose on June 7, 2007, at 20:44:17
In reply to :-), posted by Dinah on June 7, 2007, at 9:20:04
enjoy the moment and hold onto it ... maybe it will stick around for another year or two.
thanks for checking in, we do miss you around here.
love, annie
Posted by Dinah on June 11, 2007, at 18:24:21
In reply to Re: :-), posted by annierose on June 7, 2007, at 20:44:17
I came back from vacation and my computer promptly broke and needs to be sent in for fan repairs (which means they'll wipe the hard drive). I hadn't even had time to realize what was wrong when I came down with a dreadful cough and cold and I just feel so sick. We picked up the dogs today, and two of my sick ones are clearly much worse for being boarded for a week and I worry that I'll lose them very much sooner for leaving them.
Then to cap it off, I got a truly ridiculous call from my boss today. He wanted something on a totally impossible time table, and added to all the legitimate calls on my time, I broke into sobs ending in hacking coughs and have felt sick ever since. I hate to be melodramatic, but I see no way out of this except the obvious one. And of course I can't say so because I don't want to upset anyone. I don't even know if I'll tell my therapist because he's really part of the problem. I can't quit work because I'll lose him, but I can't keep working.
My husband says not to make any decisions while I'm sick and weak and upset. But the thing is that that is the only time I can make decisions. I usually just keep up the pretense that my life is do-able. And it's not.
Posted by Dinah on June 11, 2007, at 18:54:21
In reply to It never lasts long, posted by Dinah on June 11, 2007, at 18:24:21
isch. i'm just being silly.
Posted by TherapyGirl on June 11, 2007, at 19:20:50
In reply to Re: It never lasts long, posted by Dinah on June 11, 2007, at 18:54:21
You don't sound silly, Dinah. You sound sick and frustrated. And I don't blame you. Wish I could make it better for you.
((((((Dinah))))))))
Posted by muffled on June 11, 2007, at 22:18:37
In reply to Re: It never lasts long, posted by Dinah on June 11, 2007, at 18:54:21
Posted by DAisym on June 11, 2007, at 22:53:48
In reply to It never lasts long, posted by Dinah on June 11, 2007, at 18:24:21
I say quit. Take a couple of key clients and hang out your own shingle. You have put up with this long enough.
Then again, I'm in a definate, "I hate the world and it hates me funk." So maybe my advise isn't too great right now.
I'm sorry you feel lousy. Eat ice cream and take naps. Pet your puppies. It will be OK. It always is eventually.
Posted by Dinah on June 12, 2007, at 18:22:50
In reply to Re: It never lasts long, posted by DAisym on June 11, 2007, at 22:53:48
He thinks I'm mainly feeling this way because I'm sick and clearly feeling weak physically. It never really occurs to me to see a doctor about a virus, but he convinced me to make an appointment.
Sigh.
They'll make fun of me.
One thing I hate about my therapist is his strong work ethic. He clearly thinks that not only *can* I fulfill my work obligations, but I *should*. He doesn't really seem to understand that I'm not the person I was before I either got old or got diabetes. He doesn't really seem to understand how often I am unwell. And yes, I know that it's partly my responsibility for not eating well and exercising. But no one seems to understand that eating well and exercising requires time and energy that I just don't have while struggling to get through the next deadline, the next day, the next hour.
It's just a catch 22 situation, it seems. I can't do the things I need to do to be able to be well enough to work while I have to finish my work. I can't quit my work because I'll lose my therapist, yet without work I might not need my therapist. And so I go round and round and round and round and round...
Sigh. Actually I do know that other problems would remain if I quit work. I do like to spend. And my husband would keep a pretty strong hand on my time as well as my money if he felt like he was in effect employing me to be a housewife.
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