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Posted by susan47 on April 13, 2007, at 19:23:14
Today I came to you; yes, you, not your office, not your space, but I came to see You. In your soul-space. And I understood one thing, and one thing only; it was too large for words though, and when the time came to speak them, I couldn't utter a sound, so I didn't even dial your number, then. Not then. Some things are too large to utter, too big to speak; don't play with my heart, it's the same depth and quality as yours and it bleeds just as much.
My illusions kept me alive for so long. I loved them. I felt like I had a right to them, to feeling my quality, the depth, the things that could come pouring out of me .. good, and bad.
Did I have a right to pour out the bad?
Or even the good?
I don't know, do you? I know my internal obsession gave my life meaning and depth for a long time; my Crush on You. I'm glad you finally understood, or seem to, that is, that it had nothing to do with you.. and everything, too. Hey. You can't make something out of nothing .. you have to have yeast to make bread. I created a lot of the yeast yes, that's true, but so did you. Don't know if it's always been that way, with every xx pt. ... or how it helps them; but I hope it does and I hope I'm the worst experience you'll ever have; in the end I hope something good came out of it.
I can't believe I was, who I was.. and I hope I am who I think, who I believe and feel, I am.
Posted by susan47 on April 13, 2007, at 20:25:36
In reply to Dear Dr. Gorgeous, posted by susan47 on April 13, 2007, at 19:23:14
Well, and I just have to say also, that nothing good could ever have happened for me if I didn't - mostly - have the feeling that in spite of everything, in spite of all the doors you slammed on me psychically and therapeutically .. if I didn't trust that in the end you were a loving, accepting, Kind person, someone who himself had trust in knowing that the Best could co-exist and come out on top of the Worst in me, nothing good could ever have happened for me. My belief had to carry me through. I had to have the strength to believe in myself, irrespective of what you or anyone else ever thought of me. I had to see myself in the mirror every morning, like-it-or-not I was changing, am changing and will forever change. The outside is not just a surface; it really does reflect the inside. No doubt. Which is, hopefully, why you appeared so beautiful to me.
Posted by Scentedgarden on April 14, 2007, at 9:25:39
In reply to Dear Dr. Gorgeous, posted by susan47 on April 13, 2007, at 19:23:14
Susn..!!
This is beautiful.!!
Did you pen it yourself?
Its really is a special expression of ur therapy experience..!!!
thank you for sharing it here...Scentedgarden
Posted by susan47 on April 15, 2007, at 2:22:43
In reply to Re: Dear Dr. Gorgeous, posted by Scentedgarden on April 14, 2007, at 9:25:39
> Susn..!!
> This is beautiful.!!
> Did you pen it yourself?
> Its really is a special expression of ur therapy experience..!!!
> thank you for sharing it here...
>
> ScentedgardenIt's funny you would ask whether I wrote this myself .. and that it was beautiful .. a value judgement on this .. because to be honest and frank ... I wouldn't know if it was "beautiful" or not because it's just what happened .. I would think "confusing" would probably be a better term, because I can't imagine most people would understand what I'm talking about.
But I think on the whole that my experience is oft-repeated in many variations, degrees of difference large and small.
I think that what keeps voices silent, is hope. Misguided and unintended Hope .. but also Love. Real love. Love for yourself and love for your T.
I don't know what I'm talking about half the time, most of it, probably.
I do know that the only important thing in life is love, anyway. It's the only thing.
Posted by susan47 on April 15, 2007, at 16:27:45
In reply to Re: Dear Dr. Gorgeous » Scentedgarden, posted by susan47 on April 15, 2007, at 2:22:43
Anything, everything good is possible today. The sun is out the lawnmowers are going the birds are singing the kids are playing, the dog is Not sighing, the garden will be gorgeous ... everything wonderful is happening.
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