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Posted by thewrite1 on March 13, 2005, at 12:29:35
It's been a trying week for me. Sometimes I wish I could be the person I am during the week when I go into therapy. I don't think my T gets what's going on with me because I can't force myself to be in that place with her.
I took in some stuff I wrote and read a poem to her. She thought it was about her, and I was a little embarrassed for her, but I pushed forward with it's meaning as quickly as I could so as to not leave her in that place that we all hate so much. Her assumption distracted me a little. I couldn't help but wonder what part of it she thought was about her. For that reason, I didn't get everything out about it that I wanted to say. It's okay, though. I don't feel it's a problem.
She also suggested that we talk in the midddle of the week. I told her I was uneasy about taking more of her time and also about the expense. She offered a 15-20 minute conversation at a small fee because she's concerned about my "suicidal ideation." I agreed to try it for a week, though I'm torn between feeling like I must be really screwed up to need that and feeling good that she cares so much for me.
My husband usually isn't home on Wed. but his schedule is different this week. So I had to tell him that she'd be calling. He wanted to know why. I told him she was concerned about me. He asked if he should be concerned. I didn't know what to say. I just said, "not today," 'cause truthfully I felt like I was in a good place yesterday. I don't want to say anything that's going to cause him concern, but I don't know how to work around that either.
Posted by thewrite1 on March 13, 2005, at 12:30:20
In reply to My sesion, posted by thewrite1 on March 13, 2005, at 12:29:35
Posted by daisym on March 13, 2005, at 17:54:00
In reply to My sesion, posted by thewrite1 on March 13, 2005, at 12:29:35
First, I think Dr. Bob needs spell check...but no worries.
It sounds like you are pushing yourself to be as honest as you can with your therapist. Especially about the suicidal thoughts. She's worried but this is appropriate.
I'm glad you told your husband. But I understand the need to be careful about how much you actually say -- because it is so hard to explain in a way that they get it.
I'm glad you are going to get a little extra support. We are here too...
Daisy
Posted by thewrite1 on March 14, 2005, at 11:45:10
In reply to Re: My sesion » thewrite1, posted by daisym on March 13, 2005, at 17:54:00
Posted by mair on March 14, 2005, at 16:35:37
In reply to My sesion, posted by thewrite1 on March 13, 2005, at 12:29:35
It sounds like your T is appropriately concerned and helpful.
Most of the time my husband has no clue how well I'm doing. On one occasion when things were particularly bad, he told my T he thought things were really better.
And for the most part, I don't want him to know how suicidal I feel sometimes - first because I don't want to concern him or overburden him, and secondly because I'm afraid he'd be really angry.
On 2 occasions that I can think of, he's been aware that my T has had a much higher level of concern. You may have a far more open relationship with your husband. My husband has reacted with concern, but as long as I'm functioning for all appearances, and not sprouting horns, he goes back pretty easily and quickly to acting as if everything is fine.
Mair
Posted by thewrite1 on March 14, 2005, at 17:41:40
In reply to Re: My sesion » thewrite1, posted by mair on March 14, 2005, at 16:35:37
No, my husband is much the same way. I wouldn't have even told him she'd be calling if he wasn't going to be home. He says to me all the time, "You seem perfectly fine to me." I'm not even sure if it's that he doesn't notice that bothers me or if I just don't want him that involved in therapy matters.
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