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Posted by johnj on June 25, 2002, at 19:54:50
I had been stable for almost 10 years and have been fighting a battle since last September. I have been sleeping horrible even after upping my benzo tranzene from 7.5 mg to 22.5 mg. I am a zombie in the morning and just can't get to sleep or wake up early. I cannot excercise due to my mood creaping even lower(possible med problem?). I just want a nights sleep in peace.
My doctor says the insomnia is a symptom of my depression. I actually don't feel too depressed just exhausted and sleepy. I don't know what to do and at work today three of us talked to our supervisors boss since he has been harassing one the employees. It felt good to get it off my chest and stick up for someone while others just turn their heads. I handled the situation well, I just don't handle the anticipation to the confrontation well. I feel maybe I should quit my job, but that is not a smart option. In the past there was some situation that sent me feeling bad. Right now, I don't have too many pressures, but find myself sinking into the quicksand. I feel I must be getting crazier by the day, and will just pop one day and end up in the hospital. Sorry for the rant, but I am so spent. I am also afraid to try any new meds....I take 50mg of nortryptline, 600 mg lithobid and 15 to 22.5 mg of tranzene. Is this a disease that will truley get worse and there is no real recovery? Sometimes I wish I would sleep and wake up like the days before the panic attack and depression.
Posted by terra miller on June 25, 2002, at 21:14:16
In reply to Is it ever ok to give up?, posted by johnj on June 25, 2002, at 19:54:50
hi. gosh i'm so sorry. do you have a psychiatrist? i'm clueless about the meds that you listed. sorry to be of no help there. but i do know that it took me a while to get where i'm at. and i'm not always where i want to be, but i am most of the time ... and i'll take it. it just seems that someone should know how to tweak your meds to help you. i know when sleep doesn't come, then your whole everything gets so messed up. if you sleep, things come into perspective. so is it ok to give up? i think it's ok to want to or want to reallyreally badly. but i bet if you look deep you'll find some desire to fight even if you're too tired to actually fight. it's that desire to fight, even if you can't do a thing, that will eventually pull you through this. sometimes you have to look small to feel like you can cope.
you did say some things in your post that you might not have noticed. for example, you mentioned anxiety and depression- both of which i know well- and yet you also mentioned your situation at work. and it occurs to me how you have it together enough to actually have a job (that doesn't mean you have to like it or that it's a good one....) but i'm at a phase in my own life where i am stable on meds and handling my anx/dep well enough but i am not yet to where i can handle the responsibilities of a job. sometimes it helps, as much as i don't like comparing, when you see that you might be doing one step better than somebody else. sometimes that gives perspective to help. fwiw.
take care,
terra
Posted by judy1 on June 25, 2002, at 23:59:14
In reply to Is it ever ok to give up?, posted by johnj on June 25, 2002, at 19:54:50
Am I correct in reading your diagnosis as panic disorder and depression? Why was lithium prescribed (are you bipolar?) You just have a very unusual cocktail, and before I comment that the meds may be making you feel so bad, I just want to be sure what your diagnosis is. Take care, judy
Posted by omega man on June 27, 2002, at 17:57:19
In reply to Is it ever ok to give up?, posted by johnj on June 25, 2002, at 19:54:50
having given up on many things and life having gotten better as a result, I can say that the answer to a question like that really has to be from you..that you have to live with it..
Give the strength to know the things I can overcome and the things ..you know ..
took me a while to get the right drug combo..and it was preceded by Anxiety/depression..and like three panic attacks a day...
somehow the brain gets stronger the more panic attacks you get..after a while I had some fun with the attacks and looked at them as mini-trips where I could feel very excited..true !!..but this seems to be usefull only when alone..
lots of drugs..and lots of things to do while here on this planet..you have to re-adjust your living process to help your mental state....
my panic attacks preceded a three week hospitilization..better not to let it get that far..but looking back the whole breakdown process seems like it had to happen till anyone gives you a break.
you did'nt say what you want to give up..your job or living..
give up your job and you could be happier..giving up living will happen anyway..so you can let that option sit.
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