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Posted by Deneb on January 10, 2006, at 23:15:02
I was wondering about the whole increase in prolactin thing with Risperdal so I started searching around the web for info.
Somehow I found a breast cancer site. So then I thought I should check myself in the shower. I found this lump! Ahhhh! At first I thought it was my rib, but it was separate from my rib. It's hard and discrete and moves and about the size of a grape. Ahhhh!
I've never been to the doctor for women's issues. I've never really checked myself either. What are the chances that it's cancer? I'm 24 BTW and my parents and sister are all healthy. There's no history of cancer...only of strokes.
Should I still plan for my future?...OMG, I'm finally really going to die.
OK, I just check again and I can't find it anymore...all I feel are my ribs...just lots of ribs.
OK...I think it's time for a check-up.
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on January 10, 2006, at 23:21:50
In reply to Scared, found lump (or is it a rib?) in breast!, posted by Deneb on January 10, 2006, at 23:15:02
OMG, I found it again...it's definitely not a rib!
OK, don't panic...what's the worst thing that could happen?
I die!
OK, that's OK. Everyone dies....
Everyone dies...
Any one of us could die right this moment.
OK, just in case I don't die, I should still study tomorrow....
Deneb
Posted by Tabitha on January 10, 2006, at 23:48:43
In reply to Re: Scared, found lump (or is it a rib?) in breast!, posted by Deneb on January 10, 2006, at 23:21:50
It could be a fibroid (not cancer) but you should get it checked out. A lump in the breast isn't something to ignore.
Posted by Sarah T. on January 11, 2006, at 0:28:58
In reply to Re: Scared, found lump (or is it a rib?) in breast!, posted by Tabitha on January 10, 2006, at 23:48:43
Hello, Deneb,
Tabitha is right. You have to get the lump checked by a doctor (ANOTHER doctor's appointment for you!). I'm a lot older than you, and I've had several breast lumps in my life. I found the first one when I was a bit younger than you are now. It was the first time I'd ever done a breast self-examination. Back in those days, we didn't have the Internet for doing lots of research on breast lumps; in a way, that might have been better for me. Instead of reading about all the things it could possibly be, I told my Mom and my boyfriend, and the very next morning, I called the doctor and went for an appointment. That lump turned out to be a fibroadenoma, which is a benign lump. I've had a few more lumps over the years, and since I've had Internet access, the lumps have been much worse for me. By that, I mean that the Internet provides me with infinite opportunities to drive myself crazy reading about them BEFORE the doctor's appointment.
After lots of experience with breast lumps, I will tell you, there's only one thing to do, and that is to go to a doctor, preferably a gynecologist. Be sure to tell the receptionist that you've found a lump and want it checked immediately. I can't stress enough the importance of getting an appointment as soon as possible. That way, you'll have much less time to diagnose yourself with all the diseases you read about online. The doctor will have had lots of experience feeling breast lumps, and she or he will be able to get an idea from the way it feels about what to do next. They'll probably want to do some diagnostic imaging, such as a mammogram and/or sonogram. And there's a possibility they might want to sample some cells via a biopsy.
Deneb, the only thing you should do now is get an appointment with a good gynecologist. Do you have a doctor you can call for a referral? Perhaps your family doctor can steer you to a colleague. Don't think about it anymore. Just do it. You have to be almost like a robot. Just go through the motions of getting the appointment so that the doctor, who will have had lots of experience with this sort of thing, can put your mind at ease. Don't read any more about breast lumps until after your doctor's appointment.
Sarah
Posted by Phillipa on January 11, 2006, at 0:39:52
In reply to Re: Another doctor's appointment for Deneb. . ., posted by Sarah T. on January 11, 2006, at 0:28:58
Deneb there aren't a lot of women who don't have some form of fibrocystic breasts. They can cause lumpy feelings too. And last year I had an actual biopsy. And everything was fine it was benign calcification. But get it checked out don't think the worst. Fondly, Phillipa
Posted by JenStar on January 11, 2006, at 11:00:27
In reply to Scared, found lump (or is it a rib?) in breast!, posted by Deneb on January 10, 2006, at 23:15:02
Deneb,
it's a good idea to see a Dr. right away. However...there are other conditions that make breasts "lumpy" w/o being cancer. Sometimes breasts can get "lumpy" before a period; sometimes people have benign cysts; some people have fibrocycstic conditions that result in benign lumps.I'm saying that just to remind you that although you do NEED to get this checked out, there are plenty of non-cancer things out there.
It's very good to know that there is no history of cancer in the family, and your youth is on your side. Please see a Dr. and let us know what happens!
I think you're going to be OK. :)
JenStar
Posted by Racer on January 11, 2006, at 12:35:04
In reply to Scared, found lump (or is it a rib?) in breast!, posted by Deneb on January 10, 2006, at 23:15:02
The good news is that most lumps are nothing to worry about. If you are 24 and have no history of breast cancer in your family -- NB: history of BREAST cancer counts, other cancers are less predictive -- then it's pretty remote possibility that it's anything other than A Lump.
My own breasts, at the risk of an overshare, are so lumpy it's hard to tell what's in there -- there's no smooth tissue I can find. And I have had a couple of serious lumps, although so far it hasn't gone beyond mammogram and ultrasound.
That's the good news. The bad news, is that the plates of a mammogram machine are cold, and ultrasound requires a gel medium that's cold and slimy.
With that the only real downside to it, don't you feel better?
(Of course, it's still worth going to the doctor, if only to set your mind at ease, and to learn what to feel for. Healthy breast tissue will feel kinda like feeling broccoli through jello. The scary lumps are usually like frozen peas. That's a simplification, but your doctor will help you figure out what you're feeling.)
Posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 14:53:01
In reply to Good news/bad news » Deneb, posted by Racer on January 11, 2006, at 12:35:04
I was freaking out to the point of losing my mind last night. I couldn't sleep so I took 2mg of my Mom very old and probably expired Ativan. How there's only 1 pill left.
I was planning go waking up at 7 and going to the walk-in-clinic before class started.
But...my alarm didn't go on! The Ativan worked later during the night and I was just too sleepy to care. Argh, I ended up missing 2 of my classes.
I did go to the clinic. The doctor was able to find the lump. She said it was a cyst, but I have to go get an ultrasound of it now. My appointment is on Jan 26 to get the ultrasound. How do I not freak out until then??
That's it, I'm going to make an appointment with my regular family doc pronto. She's the really careful one who goes through all the tests to make sure it's nothing.
OK, I did it, I did it. I made an appointment with my family doctor for tomorrow. I know she'll actually spend some time with me.
It's weird how I don't get anxious when I talk about ending my own life, but super anxious when it's out of my control...
How the heck am I going to study? I need some Klonopin or something. No more caffeine for me.
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 15:03:42
In reply to Re: Another doctor's appointment for Deneb. . ., posted by Sarah T. on January 11, 2006, at 0:28:58
Where scared each time SarahT? It sure sounds scary to me. ((((((SarahT))))))))
> Deneb, the only thing you should do now is get an appointment with a good gynecologist. Do you have a doctor you can call for a referral? Perhaps your family doctor can steer you to a colleague. Don't think about it anymore. Just do it. You have to be almost like a robot. Just go through the motions of getting the appointment so that the doctor, who will have had lots of experience with this sort of thing, can put your mind at ease. Don't read any more about breast lumps until after your doctor's appointment.
>OK Sarah...I'll try not to read any more about breast lumps. Today I saw a walk-in-clinic doctor who spent all of 5 mins examining me and told me that it was a cyst, half a centimeter in diameter. I made an appointment for an ultrasound.
I also have an appointment with my family doctor for tomorrow.
Right now, anxiety is through the roof. I just want to be calm again.
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 15:07:47
In reply to Good news/bad news » Deneb, posted by Racer on January 11, 2006, at 12:35:04
> That's the good news. The bad news, is that the plates of a mammogram machine are cold, and ultrasound requires a gel medium that's cold and slimy.
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> With that the only real downside to it, don't you feel better?Yes, much better. Thanks Racer.
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> (Of course, it's still worth going to the doctor, if only to set your mind at ease, and to learn what to feel for. Healthy breast tissue will feel kinda like feeling broccoli through jello. The scary lumps are usually like frozen peas. That's a simplification, but your doctor will help you figure out what you're feeling.)It's be a good idea to learn how to do a breast self exam.
Maybe this is like a wake up call...to not ignore my health. I haven't had a physical in years, maybe it's time to get one. Yes, it's time to get one.
Deneb
Posted by TexasChic on January 11, 2006, at 18:07:14
In reply to Re: Good news/bad news » Racer, posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 15:07:47
If it helps any, I've had two separate friends who found lumps that ended up being nothing.
I've freaked myself out before too, and it was just naturally lumpy breast tissue I felt. I read somewhere its supposed to feel like a cluster of grapes. Once I read that, I realized that's exactly how it felt. I think the main thing is to learn how they feel, and watch for any changes.
Strangely enough, I had a well women exam today and the doctor said I should have a mamogram since I'm 35. If nothing is wrong, then I don't have to have another one until I'm 40. I'm scared to death about the actual procedure. I hope it doesn't hurt too much!
Let us know how everything works out for you.
-T
Posted by lynn971 on January 11, 2006, at 19:46:16
In reply to Re: Scared, found lump (or is it a rib?) in breast!, posted by Tabitha on January 10, 2006, at 23:48:43
I have done this so many times. My doctor finally agreed that I should not do self breast checks. I felt breast so many times one time that I made a bruise. The breast is filled with all kinds of lumps. If you don't know what you are feeling, it can be scarry.
Once I felt something so I ran to the doctor. He sent me to do an ultrasound. Well the radiologist told me that it was some tissue that was holding up my breast and because it was over the rib, it felt hard. Deneb, I have done what you have done about 5 times. My doc said that I could go to him every six months instead of every year to rest my mind.
Get your mom to check it and schedule an appt with the doc asap so that you can be at ease. Not that I think there is something, but because until a doc tells you that you are fine you will be filled with anxiety. Once you see that you are fine, please do not do anymore self checks.Other people might not panic, we panic.
((((Deneb))))
Posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 19:51:31
In reply to Re: Good news/bad news, posted by TexasChic on January 11, 2006, at 18:07:14
I found out that apparently, women who are 20 are supposed to get a breast exam then and then every 3 years later.
Last night was the first time I ever really examined myself. I don't know how long that lump has been there.
I've also never been to a women's doctor before. Actually I hasn't been in for any sort of check ups.
Jan 26 seems like a long time from now. It seems like a long time to wait to see if I'm OK.
What do I do in the meantime?
I don't know how to cope with something like this. I'm afraid I'll go back to my usual ways of coping...
...like why should I study when I'm just gonna die anyways?
Deneb
Posted by lynn971 on January 11, 2006, at 19:55:03
In reply to Re: Scared, found lump (or is it a rib?) in breast!, posted by lynn971 on January 11, 2006, at 19:46:16
The post I put up was written before I finished reading the rest of the posts.
Telling someone not to do a self breast examination is probably not good advice. I guess I should have said to make sure you know how to check the breast before you check them.
I will be praying for you. Everything will be fine. If the doc knows how anxious you are, maybe s/he can make an ultrasound appt soon so that you do not have to wait.
((((Deneb))))
Posted by lynn971 on January 11, 2006, at 20:17:49
In reply to Re: oops, I just read further., posted by lynn971 on January 11, 2006, at 19:55:03
When I am nervous, I get into the Bible and meditate on healing scriptures and scriptures that build up my faith.
I dont know what else to tell you because that is the only thing that helps me.
One time the doc told me I had something on my thyroid. I did not meditate on scripture. Needless to say, I ended up in a pysch ward. When I got out (two days later) I meditated on scriptures.
Posted by Racer on January 11, 2006, at 20:18:31
In reply to Re: Good news/bad news *trigger*, posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 19:51:31
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> Jan 26 seems like a long time from now. It seems like a long time to wait to see if I'm OK.
>Deneb, you aren't going to be waiting until 26 Jan, but only until 12 Jan -- you have an appointment with your family doctor, don't you? THAT appointment is the one to think about, not some ultrasound you probably won't be doing anyway.
So use your brain for a second to calm your emotions: "Tomorrow I will see the family doctor, who is very careful and will pay attention to this. I can get through one night, no matter how frightening this is." Every time you find yourself starting to give in to those thoughts of how terrible it could be, remind yourself of this.
Why do I say you probably won't be going to that ultrasound? My experience has been that student health centers are trumped by regular doctors -- if your GP thinks there's anything to worry about, I'll bet she'll have you in for imaging studies much sooner.
Here's another reality check: most breast cancer is pretty slow growing. When I went through this, the mammogram and ultrasound showed nothing particularly worrisome -- but the surgeon found a lump he said he thought actually *was* breast cancer. And then told me that it didn't matter that it hadn't been imaged in the ultrasound, because next year or the year after would be time enough. And that was a specialist who thought that the lump was cancerous! You've already had one doctor tell you it's a cyst. Most of us have fibrous cysts in our breasts. It's part of being a woman.
Welcome to the real world of being a woman, Deneb. You will survive this, just like most of the rest of us.
Posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 20:26:47
In reply to Re: oops, I just read further., posted by lynn971 on January 11, 2006, at 19:55:03
> I will be praying for you. Everything will be fine. If the doc knows how anxious you are, maybe s/he can make an ultrasound appt soon so that you do not have to wait.
I can't tell you how much it mean for you to pray for me Lynn. I have a feeling prayers work.
I think this might be a good time to believe in God.
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 20:38:04
In reply to This is where your thinking skills come in » Deneb, posted by Racer on January 11, 2006, at 20:18:31
> Deneb, you aren't going to be waiting until 26 Jan, but only until 12 Jan -- you have an appointment with your family doctor, don't you? THAT appointment is the one to think about, not some ultrasound you probably won't be doing anyway.
OK Racer. I will get through tonight, I will get through tonight.
> Why do I say you probably won't be going to that ultrasound? My experience has been that student health centers are trumped by regular doctors -- if your GP thinks there's anything to worry about, I'll bet she'll have you in for imaging studies much sooner.
I didn't go to the student health centre today. I went to a nearby walk-in-clinic because I knew it would be a long long wait at the student health centre. The doctor didn't seem to make a big deal out of finding the lump. It must have taken all of 5 mins to see her and leave.
I want to talk to my regular family doctor, the one who once spent an hour with me talking about my mental problems. I know she really cares about me.
I just told my Mom just a few minutes ago. My Mom is being calm about it. She wants to go with me to the appointment tomorrow.
Right now I have to think that even if it is the worse possible diagnosis, that there are treatment options. It doesn't mean a death sentence.
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> Here's another reality check: most breast cancer is pretty slow growing.That's a really good thing to know Racer.
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> Welcome to the real world of being a woman, Deneb. You will survive this, just like most of the rest of us.Men have their problems too, but this whole women's thing really sucks.
I'm going to survive, I'm going to survive...
Next...
I'm going to study, I'm going to study...LOL
Thanks Racer
Deneb
Posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 21:27:14
In reply to Re: This is where your thinking skills come in » Racer, posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 20:38:04
Sigh, I just did some research and it seems the statistics don't look good for young people with breast cancer. Young people have more aggressive forms of breast cancer and fewer survive.
If I have cancer, I should be prepared to die. It's not so bad I guess, I think I always knew that I would die young. I always though it would be by my own hand, but whatever.
I want some good drugs before I die. My hamsters died. Sophie died young. I hope they didn't suffer. I don't want to suffer.
Maybe I'll have some fun times before I die. Maybe there really is a heaven. Dying won't be so bad then, if I go to heaven.
Deneb
Finding it very difficult to study right now
Posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 23:32:00
In reply to This is where your thinking skills come in » Deneb, posted by Racer on January 11, 2006, at 20:18:31
I re-read all your messages and I feel slightly better now.
I have to do that more often...re-read what people have already written to me instead of waiting for new posts to help me.
It was very helpful to re-read those posts.
thanks guys, you're the best! :-)
Maybe this scare will be good in the long run. I'm certainly going to pay more attention to my body after this and make sure I see the doctor to get physicals.
deneb
Posted by holymama on January 12, 2006, at 3:14:19
In reply to I re-read all your messages, posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 23:32:00
Deneb,
Hi! I found a lump in my breast in my mid twenties. It scared the bejeezus out of me until I saw a specialist.
What I learned from him is that I just have lumpy breasts!! The lump that I had sounds like yours, small and firm and moved under my skin. He said the kind of lump that moves is not usually anything to worry about. It's the kind that seem attached and don't move around that are more worrisome. Sorry, not very scientific terminology, but those are words to remember for both of us.
Good luck, Deneb, with keeping your anxiety down. Remember there is a reason for everything and perhaps you will gain something positive from a little health scare.
~Autumn~
Posted by JenStar on January 12, 2006, at 10:16:10
In reply to I re-read all your messages, posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 23:32:00
Deneb, you're going to be OK. It's VERY low possibility of cancer, OK? You're going to be FINE. :) Keep in mind your youth, your health history, your family's absence of breast cancer, and the fact that there are many other reasons for lumpy breasts. Even if it were cancer, you're finding it early and there are great treatments. But I don't think it is cancer, OK? (I mean, I know I'm not a doctor, and I'm not psychic, but I really think you're going to be OK.)
Please try not to stress. I know it's hard, but you ARE going to be OK. Take it easy on yourself!
JenStar
Posted by Racer on January 12, 2006, at 13:22:58
In reply to Re: This is where your thinking skills *Trigger*, posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 21:27:14
> Sigh, I just did some research and it seems the statistics don't look good
Why on earth would you do that, Deneb? You do know that that's just torturing yourself, right? You don't need to do that -- why buy trouble when you can get so much for free?
Again: use your thinking apparatus. You've seen a doctor, who said it was a benign cyst. You've made an appointment to see a doctor you trust. You've calmed yourself down using some skills you're trying to learn, and they've worked.
So why are you going back to read more and freak yourself out more? You do know that you're going to freak out by reading those things, so why do it when the idea is to calm down and get through until the next appointment?
> I think I always knew that I would die young.
Here's a reality check, Deneb: it's a heck of a lot more likely that you WON'T die young, so you better figure out a way to work through these things now, so that you're not still living crisis to crisis when you're 40. Trust me, that ain't what you want.
It's very easy to say, "well, it doesn't matter, because I'm going to die young." But you know what? That's a very immature attitude to take. It's much better to make an effort to improve your ability to cope, so that you can be happier for all those years when you look in the mirror and say, "How the [expletive deleted] did I ever manage to get SO OLD?" I do that many mornings.
And Deneb? If you read back through the archives, about two years ago, I was told that "the radiologist says that the tumors in your liver look malignant. That means cancer." There's no question, it is frightening, it will freak you out, and that's normal. But once a doctor who has examined you tells you that the lump you found is a normal lump, it's time to move on. You're doing the right things, getting an appointment with your own doctor, etc. Now move on.
Posted by Racer on January 12, 2006, at 14:44:14
In reply to I re-read all your messages, posted by Deneb on January 11, 2006, at 23:32:00
I forgot to ask, when I posted earlier, how it went with your family doctor?
Here's the thing, Deneb: even if it may seem as if I'm hard on you, I do care what happens to you. I want to see you doing well, and I know that it's possible for you to do well. Some days I'm doing badly myself, and other days I want to shake you so that you can hear what I'm trying to say. But on any of those days, I still care what happens to you.
So, how did it go? What did your doctor say? Did she show you how to do a self-exam? Did she describe what different sorts of lumps feel like? (A lot of doctors have a practice breast, that has a lot of normal lumps, and some cancerous lumps, for you to feel. Those can be helpful, in teaching you to distinguish between them.)
Posted by Deneb on January 12, 2006, at 16:44:59
In reply to STOP IT! » Deneb, posted by Racer on January 12, 2006, at 13:22:58
> Why on earth would you do that, Deneb? You do know that that's just torturing yourself, right?
Yes, I know that know. I won't do any more research on this. I need to think of other things, more productive things...like on my studies.
> > I think I always knew that I would die young.
>
> Here's a reality check, Deneb: it's a heck of a lot more likely that you WON'T die young, so you better figure out a way to work through these things now, so that you're not still living crisis to crisis when you're 40. Trust me, that ain't what you want.Yes you're right again. It's more likely that I won't die and if I choose to "check-out" now, I'll really mess up my future. That's one of the reasons why my grades are below what I want them to be right now...because at times I give up on life. I trust you on that one Racer.
> But once a doctor who has examined you tells you that the lump you found is a normal lump, it's time to move on. You're doing the right things, getting an appointment with your own doctor, etc. Now move on.
It's just hard to move on sometimes. I feel like I'm always going to be afraid of this lump now, no matter if the ultrasound says it's nothing. I have to learn to not be so obsessive and anxious.
Deneb
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