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Posted by Maxime on November 2, 2009, at 20:12:22
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » metafunj, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 2, 2009, at 12:36:49
I am curious to know what this pdoc is like. Is he happy? Does he smile? Is he serious? What's he like?
I don't like him!
Posted by metafunj on November 2, 2009, at 23:34:23
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » metafunj, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 2, 2009, at 12:36:49
It does sound slightly hypomanic but not manic. I think it probably is easier for him if you stay on this med and accept things rather than striving for happiness. There used to be this quaint saying about pursuing happiness being a right. I don't know I think I read it somewhere... anyway.
I think you have built a tolerance to Parnate. The way you sound seems similar to someone who has built a tolerance to a drug of abuse and feels tired and flat without increasingly higher dosages.
Also it sounds like you have crashed from the hyperactivity. The pendulum swings both ways and perhaps your body is asking for some rest. Maybe when you feel exhausted the best thing to do is sleep and let your brain restore is balance. I read that parnate totally fragments sleep.
Posted by creepy on November 3, 2009, at 13:28:01
In reply to Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help please., posted by Girlnterrupted78 on October 29, 2009, at 1:14:33
Either youre not at a high enough dose or youre chasing a hypomanic effect. Id say its the prior and that you may want to raise the dose.
Someone else wrote about blood testing MAO levels to get them close to zero with the medication. might be a way to measure whether you are at the right dose or not.
Posted by Phillipa on November 3, 2009, at 18:51:39
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help please., posted by creepy on November 3, 2009, at 13:28:01
Blood levels of Maoi's didn't know you could test them. Phillipa
Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 4, 2009, at 5:51:28
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » Girlnterrupted78, posted by Maxime on November 2, 2009, at 20:12:22
Other than this comment he recently made, he's actually a very nice person. This is probably the first time I am seriously upset over something he said. He's more the serious type, but he does smile and he seemed happy when he first learned of the positive results I was having.
It was until now that there was a negative change, that he began to say that "before you were too good" which makes no sense, considering he was very pleased with the results. I don't know if it's a way to show control over the situation--he does seem to be a little sensitive about showing his expertise, since he's been in the research field for 20+ years.
So I don't know, I am actually seeing him today and I will definitely ask him to clarify his comments, because to me, he makes it sound like being 'too good' is actually a bad thing, so it sounds like he's looking for mediocre results rather than great results.
> I am curious to know what this pdoc is like. Is he happy? Does he smile? Is he serious? What's he like?
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> I don't like him!
Posted by SLS on November 4, 2009, at 6:15:56
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » Maxime, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 4, 2009, at 5:51:28
I don't know if this was already suggested, but perhaps your doctor was worried about hypomania.
- Scott
Posted by floatingbridge on November 4, 2009, at 17:40:50
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » Girlnterrupted78, posted by SLS on November 4, 2009, at 6:15:56
> I don't know if this was already suggested, but perhaps your doctor was worried about hypomania.
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> - ScottYes, I think when I said manic earlier, hypomanic was more appropriate. (You have never 'sounded' manic imho.) Please let us know how it goes with your doctor, if you would.
best regards, (and fellow sufferer of social anxiety!),
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Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 5, 2009, at 18:38:21
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help please., posted by creepy on November 3, 2009, at 13:28:01
I don't understand when you say I'm chasing a hypomanic effect. Feeling subdued, quiet and uncomfortable, and wanting to be more social and confident, equals in your view: "chasing a hypomanic effect"? Didn't know about that.
My dose is 80mgs. And I had the best effects at 60mgs. Check my post on September 14:
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20090912/msgs/917009.htmlI had no idea those levels could be tested. Would a doctor suggest this? Is it common practice?
Thanks.
> Either youre not at a high enough dose or youre chasing a hypomanic effect. Id say its the prior and that you may want to raise the dose.
> Someone else wrote about blood testing MAO levels to get them close to zero with the medication. might be a way to measure whether you are at the right dose or not.
Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 5, 2009, at 19:41:18
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » Girlnterrupted78, posted by metafunj on November 2, 2009, at 23:34:23
> It does sound slightly hypomanic but not manic.
I never thought that could be hypomanic! So many normal people without depression act this way. It just seemed to me that the depression was removed completely and I was able to be myself, my normal self. Or like my doctor, maybe you think I had it "too good". Anyway, this is what I wrote in the very first post when my medication began to work:
On September 14 I wrote:
*Parnate 60mgs helping with social anxiety, finally* --- (http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/20090912/msgs/917009.html)
"Just wanted to let you know the improvement I've had so far with Parnate.
This is just my 1st month on Parnate, and last week was my first week on 60mgs, in addition to 10mgs of Adderall--which were added just a week earlier.
My depression began to improve gradually within the first two weeks. All the ruminations, gut wrenching guilt, chronic emotional distress, etc, began to slowly become less and less intense to the point I was able to feel some peace again.This past week I was finally allowed to raise my dose to 60mgs, and by the 2nd day on it I finally began to feel comfortable socially.
I don't feel anxious or awkward anymore. I can chat with people, I can laugh and joke. I'm not a social animal by any means; I'm not there yet, but I did get a comment from a friend, who said: "You definitely seem more chatty and engaged than 3 weeks ago." This week I was able to smoothly and easily handle certain people I was incredibly uncomfortable with just 2 weeks earlier.
I'm also able to smile without forcing it and communicate difficult feelings without terrible emotional distress, guilt, or visible internal struggle.
I also had a phone conversation with one of my siblings, one who usually dominates the conversation. I dominated this time, and surprisingly, my vocabulary is returning to my memory. It's been gone for a long time, more than 2 years probably, ever since my dreadful encounter with Nardil. Seems to be back now, I feel so more fluent.
So I'm feeling good, feeling good. Parnate is doing a great job. I feel more confident, more social and more assertive.
The only strange side effect I began to experience upon raising the dose to 60mgs is that about 1-2 hours after each dose, especially the 2nd dose (each dose is 30mgs Parnate+ 5mgs Adderall) my head begins to feel very hot, my face begins to blush, I begin to feel very sleepy and my eyes start to close and I feel very tired and heavy. Not a bad or painful feeling at all, just a bit strange. Something I can live with, but I was just curious if anyone knows what that might be. Thanks"Most definitely hypomania, right? I was "too good" and should have just been maybe a little more subdued and more uncomfortable to ensure I didn't reach that dreadful hypomanic state of feeling comfortable and confident. You and my doctor would probably be best friends.
> I think you have built a tolerance to Parnate. The way you sound seems similar to someone who has built a tolerance to a drug of abuse and feels tired and flat without increasingly higher dosages.
Could you build tolerance to a medication in just 1 month? That's so little time..
> Also it sounds like you have crashed from the hyperactivity. The pendulum swings both ways and perhaps your body is asking for some rest. Maybe when you feel exhausted the best thing to do is sleep and let your brain restore is balance. I read that parnate totally fragments sleep.
No, I don't think I crashed. I've read that exhaustion is a side effect of Parnate. But hell, yeah, that horrible hypomania I had for a month must be causing this crash now.
Posted by Phillipa on November 5, 2009, at 20:48:02
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » metafunj, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 5, 2009, at 19:41:18
To me if that is your personality it's neighter hypomania or mania just you. Phillipa
Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 8, 2009, at 19:21:35
In reply to Re: Parnate losing effectiveness. Why?? Help pleas » SLS, posted by floatingbridge on November 4, 2009, at 17:40:50
So I spoke to my doctor and asked him about all this nonsense regarding the feeling 'too good', etc. And yes, like some people guessed, he now claims he thinks I was rather hypomanic, and seems to discredit the initial positive effects of Parnate. This I find infuriating, but more so because I suspect he does it out of frustration and because of an ego problem, and not because he truly believes I was hypomanic.
Last week, when he said I had been 'too good' when Parnate was working better, he backed up his claim by saying, "talking to strangers on the street? C'mon, that's just 'too good'.."
Why would that be 'too good'? There's tons of normal people out there who talk to strangers, for god's sake!!! What if that's my personality when I'm not depressed? This is ridiculous.
I told him I had become very pleasant to people, including strangers--people who happened to be in my way for whatever reason. I explained this to him in order to show my improvement over the irritable, angry person I used to be, and how relieved I felt now. Before, I used to just hate everyone and I viewed every single person as an angry, horrible New Yorker with an attitude. Now I realize that was not a reality but just the view I held because of my depression. There's some really nice people out there, and it was ME who had some bad experiences with a few angry New Yorkers and decided that everyone was a jerk. I was thrilled to be able to be one of the nice ones in the city. So anyway, my "talking to strangers" was "too good" and a sign of "hypomania." I found this absolutely RIDICULOUS.
But anyway, this week he changed things around and no longer claimed that my friendliness was hypomanic.
In our last session, I was more direct and asked him "so what exactly do you mean I was "too good"? And I put some examples. "When I came into your office and you said I seemed more alive, more talkative and engaged.... that was hypomania???" He obviously said no to that one.
His response this time was that certain things I was doing seemed not normal. He said that the fact that I stayed up all night and yet I could keep going the next day, and could do it again a second night in a row, was a sign of hypomania. And the fact that I had these compulsions where I'd go and buy clothes instead of doing the things I wanted to do, which we spoke about some weeks ago, was also a sign of hypomania. But of course, he ignored my explanations. We spoke about the reason this was happening and I made it VERY clear at the time it was nothing like mania. He even asked me if I was spending more money than I had, and I said NO, so he said, "ok, so it seems things are ok then.." Yet, NOW he suddenly changes his mind and makes a new claim about something we had already spoken about and dismissed as normal. In the end, he really made a fool of himself and I will show why:
1. His new "claim" for hypomania was that I was staying up all night and sometimes 2 nights in a row and still going forward. Well, surprise, surprise! I've had treatment resistant insomnia for 10+ years now and he KNOWS this. I began to see this doctor while participating in a research study where I tested an experimental drug. During this period, he gave me Ambien because he KNEW I did not sleep at night. This was several weeks BEFORE we even considered Parnate. But now, this insomnia is BECAUSE Parnate is making me hypomanic? Give me a break!
In addition, isn't Parnate known for being a stimulating drug, which would obviously make my insomnia even worse? I told him that I've always had insomnia, but that while on Parnate, I felt less tired the next day. This is because Parnate is a stimulant drug. Or don't tell me that any person who feels more stimulated on Parnate is hypomanic?
(parenthesis: My doctor never claimed I was hypomanic while Parnate was actually working great. He only claims that NOW that the med stopped working. He claims it was all "too good", most likely because he's angry at himself or at the the fact that his treatment somehow failed. I get the feeling of a big ego in there.)
2. Compulsions: During my therapy with this doctor, it came out that I have problems with compulsion and procrastination--once again, a problem I have battled for YEARS. For years I have been ignoring some of the things I set myself to do (I have 3 books I want to read, but somehow I can't finish them) and instead I spend my time going out, checking out stores, buying clothes, etc. Very unusual female behavior, right?
I explained to my doctor that I've always been this way, and it's true. However, recently I began doing it a lot more often, and I explained him why.
Right during the time I started Parnate, (this was really a coincidence) I discovered how great the low carb diets work for me. So I stayed on a low carb diet for about 2 months and suddenly I'm 20 lbs lighter. I reached a point where I couldn't stop losing and people started to tell me to STOP losing weight or I'd look anorexic. Anyway, I was just very happy with my new weight and felt I could finally wear things I wouldn't have worn before. I haven't been this thin in years; actually I don't think I'd been this thin EVER. So what woman would NOT be thrilled and go and try all the clothes that didn't fit before?? In addition to that, I made a new friend in a depression group, who introduced me to a bunch of amazing thrift stores in NYC. So I did explain to my doctor: This whole thing just happened at the wrong time: I lost 20 lbs, and discovered thrift stores with amazing, cheap clothes. I need clothes for my new weight, so who would NOT go crazy at a time like this? His answer is that I'm hypomanic because I'm going out and buying clothes instead of reading my books and cleaning my apartment, even though I told him I've always been a procrastinator and compulsive. I am infuriated that he is incapable of listening to me when I explain the reasons and the situation.My doctor only listens to what he wants to listen, and while he saw my point at the time this was taking place (he understood and did not make any claims of hypomania) now he's decided to change his mind and claim that I was "too good" and that this is yet another sign of hypomania.
I just wonder why do I waste my time talking to him if he's going to ignore everything I say anyway?But here's the good part and the reason I say he made a fool of himself:
I began to feel great on Parnate when I went on 60mgs. This whole thing about buying clothes and staying up all night began to take place during the time the med was working ok. Even though we discussed this at the time, my doctor NEVER said I was hypomanic during the time the med was working. He never said "You seem 'too good'".
It was only once the medication began losing effectiveness that my doctor began to repeatedly say that it all had been 'too good', and this is what makes me suspect it's all an ego thing for him; he's either angry or frustrated over the fact that his treatment is not being effective for me.
And here's the reason I say he made a fool of himself:
When a patient is developing hypomania, what would be the course of action for the pdoc to follow? I myself don't know, but here's what my doctor did: When I was at 60mgs and the medication started working very well, I told my doctor that I wanted to try to go higher because I knew hadn't reached my full potential. Guess what he did? He allowed me to increase the dose, not just to 70mgs, but later to 80mgs.
If he thought I was hypomanic, is that the way to go? Increase the dose? I thought he'd have to give me a mood stabilizer rather than increase the dose... am I wrong on this?
And I'm also surprised that he NEVER, not even ONCE, during the time the med did work, did he claim I was "too good."
He never EVER said the dreaded "too good" while Parnate was working at its highest. He only began to claim things had been "too good" once the medication stopped working. WHY???? Because he's angry and frustrated that his treatment failed?
I would not even blame HIM over this. Medications work differently for people, and I know I am treatment resistant. The last person I'd blame is him. But I think he blames himself. But why take it out on me?? I am not accusing him or acting differently. I just want things to work out. I don't get what his problem is, but it's just causing me a lot of anger and grief.
Posted by Phillipa on November 8, 2009, at 19:58:01
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL. » floatingbridge, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 8, 2009, at 19:21:35
Oh boy I hear you and to me it's getting complicated. I say that as from what I've read parnate is both sedating and stimulating. Is procrastination kind of starting something and not finishing it and doing something else right away. And the up all night and not tired? Also weight loss yes understand why you would want to buy new clothes. I forget are you bipolar? As my exfatherin law was and this is kind of what he'd do. But he was never on a stimulating med. And yes I think a mood stabalizer would have been in order and sleep med as well. Shows signs maybe of bipolar three med induced? Since I've never taken Parnate I sure hope a parnate user or ex user answers this important set of questions for you. I must bow out as I simply don't know. Love Phillipa
Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 8, 2009, at 21:55:26
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL. » Girlnterrupted78, posted by Phillipa on November 8, 2009, at 19:58:01
Thanks for your response, Philipa, but I'm looking for a response on the doctor's behavior rather than the effects of Parnate, which I am now familiar with.
I would like to get comments on the doctor's behavior. The fact that he keeps telling me the initial effect of Parnate was "too good" as in, hypomanic. Even though he did not seem to think the same way WHILE the effects were taking place. In fact, as my post says, he even took me higher, to 70mgs, and later 80mgs of Parnate. So if he thought it was "too good", he was ok with it being "super good".
Now that it lost some of its power, now he is claiming it was all "too good" and not what we want. The fact that he's in such a contradiction is what I find shocking and upsetting. I don't need a doctor to tell me that the single 2 times in my life I've felt truly happy have been "too good" and that I should be happy with "flat" or "halfway good", while at the same time contradicting himself in his behavior and actions--by increasing the dose despite his thinking it's too good. This doesn't make any sense and it's just infuriating me and causing me tons of emotional distress.
Thanks
Posted by SLS on November 9, 2009, at 5:50:39
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL. » floatingbridge, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 8, 2009, at 19:21:35
> He only began to claim things had been "too good" once the medication stopped working. WHY???? Because he's angry and frustrated that his treatment failed?
I do think your doctor was looking for an explanation as to why you would report feeling great one day and not feeling great susbsequently. My first doctors made the clinical error of interpreting this presentation as being a manifestation of a psychological pathology rather than a biological one. Perhaps your doctor hasn't seen enough treatment-resistant people to understand that you are more likely than others to exhibit tachyphylaxis (early poop-out), and that he might have to add adjunctive drugs on top of the Parnate; something he might be uncomfortable doing.
Has your doctor offered a plan to treat you if your response to Parnate remains inadequate?
- Scott
Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 9, 2009, at 7:33:28
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL. » Girlnterrupted78, posted by SLS on November 9, 2009, at 5:50:39
> I do think your doctor was looking for an explanation as to why you would report feeling great one day and not feeling great susbsequently.
And the explanation is that when the depressive feelings were under control, I was "too good", and now that they're back, I'm better off? That doesnt' sound like a very professional explanation to me, especially considering my doctor is a treatment resistant specialist with 20+ years experience at Columbia U. Psychiatric Institute.
"Perhaps your doctor hasn't seen enough treatment-resistant people to understand that you are more likely than others to exhibit tachyphylaxis (early poop-out), and that he might have to add adjunctive drugs on top of the Parnate; something he might be uncomfortable doing."
Actually, when we met, he told me he's been doing this his whole life, so I believe he has more than plenty of experience, which is what I find all the more shocking.
> Has your doctor offered a plan to treat you if your response to Parnate remains inadequate?
So far he only asked me to raise the adderall and add 5mgs. I was taking 5 mgs with every dose, a total of 15mgs. Now I'm raising to 20mgs. That, and we're at 80mgs of Parnate. Other than that, I don't know if he has any other plan. The only thing that seems to be his new motto is that when I was on remission and all my symptoms were under control, I was "too good", so he might be trying to brainwash me into believing I will never reach that "too good" state again, so I can agree to remain somewhat depressed for the rest of my life, with the false belief that the real remission was "too good" and not what I should be aiming for.
Thanks for your input.
Posted by SLS on November 9, 2009, at 8:03:41
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL. » SLS, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 9, 2009, at 7:33:28
Doctors at Columbia / NY Psychiatric should be familiar with combining Parnate and nortriptyline. In 1983, they had me on a combination of Nardil and amitriptyline. Unfortunately, at the time, they were uncomfortable giving me a full therapeutic dose of Nardil. They only went up to 45mg. You might want to lobby your doctor to use nortriptyline of desipramine when the time is right.
- Scott
Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 9, 2009, at 9:55:34
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL. » Girlnterrupted78, posted by SLS on November 9, 2009, at 8:03:41
Hmmm.. possibly, but it might be too late now. I am so angry at him now that I think I won't be able to continue seeing him. And this morning I sent him an email about it, so I guess I can say my treatment with him is over. Excessive anger is one of my worst depressive symptoms, and of course, now it's back even though it was fully gone for at least a month. I'm just afraid he'd come up with the same bs and tell me that when I wasn't angry, I was just "too good".
Thanks for the info. I had already thought about nortriptyline, but everything poops out on me, I fear it will just give me another taste of life and then take it away.
> Doctors at Columbia / NY Psychiatric should be familiar with combining Parnate and nortriptyline. In 1983, they had me on a combination of Nardil and amitriptyline. Unfortunately, at the time, they were uncomfortable giving me a full therapeutic dose of Nardil. They only went up to 45mg. You might want to lobby your doctor to use nortriptyline of desipramine when the time is right.
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> - Scott
Posted by metafunj on November 9, 2009, at 10:06:50
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL. » SLS, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 9, 2009, at 9:55:34
I wonder if some D2 antagonism would help to keep parnate effective? Maybe a low dose antipsychotic.
Posted by PC_Load_Letter on November 11, 2009, at 20:31:09
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL., posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 8, 2009, at 21:55:26
IMHO, your analysis of your doctor's words and actions is spot on, and your anger at his absurd reasoning is also completely understandable. His attempts to move the goalposts after the fact is beyond pathetic.
None of the behavior you described sounds remotely like hypomania. It sounds like someone finally able to enjoy life after an extended period of time trapped in the prison of depression.
Only an undeniably complete remission should be the goal. Happiness is not hypomania - it's how most people feel most of the time, and all of us stuck in the hellhole of depression deserve to feel that way too.
I've been encountering similarly insulting behavior from my pdoc lately, and it's extremely disappointing and frustrating.
I hope you're able to find someone more skilled and compassionate than this ninny. If you're in New York, you definitely have more options than those of us in flyover land. Best wishes.
> Thanks for your response, Philipa, but I'm looking for a response on the doctor's behavior rather than the effects of Parnate, which I am now familiar with.
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> I would like to get comments on the doctor's behavior. The fact that he keeps telling me the initial effect of Parnate was "too good" as in, hypomanic. Even though he did not seem to think the same way WHILE the effects were taking place. In fact, as my post says, he even took me higher, to 70mgs, and later 80mgs of Parnate. So if he thought it was "too good", he was ok with it being "super good".
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> Now that it lost some of its power, now he is claiming it was all "too good" and not what we want. The fact that he's in such a contradiction is what I find shocking and upsetting. I don't need a doctor to tell me that the single 2 times in my life I've felt truly happy have been "too good" and that I should be happy with "flat" or "halfway good", while at the same time contradicting himself in his behavior and actions--by increasing the dose despite his thinking it's too good. This doesn't make any sense and it's just infuriating me and causing me tons of emotional distress.
>
> Thanks
Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 14, 2009, at 7:06:31
In reply to you're right - your pdoc is a jackass, posted by PC_Load_Letter on November 11, 2009, at 20:31:09
Thanks so much for the support and understanding of my situation.
Unfortunately I cannot afford a different doctor. I have seen others in NYC, and this is by far the best. He's seeing me for free because I participated in a study at Columbia U/NY Psychiatric Institute, and part of the remuneration was 6 months of free treatment--so he's supposed to be very good at what he does, and he's getting grants in the millions to continue to do research on treatment-resistant depression, so just go figure.
And so far he was good enough to get me out of depression after 7 years of trying with other doctors, he put me on Parnate after another doctor (a really bad one at that) had refused to, because he said "If Nardil failed, Parnate will too.."
So he's supposed to be good. I just don't get his sudden change. I mean, why??? If he never said I was "too good" while I was on remission (or very close to remission) why then is he saying it now that the effects diminished and the symptoms are returning?
I have no choice but to stick with him.. I just hope he won't drop me for dumping all the anger I have inside on him. I sent him two honest yet angry emails already, and he's responding professionally and telling me we will discuss this next time we meet.
Thanks again
> IMHO, your analysis of your doctor's words and actions is spot on, and your anger at his absurd reasoning is also completely understandable. His attempts to move the goalposts after the fact is beyond pathetic.
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> None of the behavior you described sounds remotely like hypomania. It sounds like someone finally able to enjoy life after an extended period of time trapped in the prison of depression.
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> Only an undeniably complete remission should be the goal. Happiness is not hypomania - it's how most people feel most of the time, and all of us stuck in the hellhole of depression deserve to feel that way too.
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> I've been encountering similarly insulting behavior from my pdoc lately, and it's extremely disappointing and frustrating.
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> I hope you're able to find someone more skilled and compassionate than this ninny. If you're in New York, you definitely have more options than those of us in flyover land. Best wishes.
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> > Thanks for your response, Philipa, but I'm looking for a response on the doctor's behavior rather than the effects of Parnate, which I am now familiar with.
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> > I would like to get comments on the doctor's behavior. The fact that he keeps telling me the initial effect of Parnate was "too good" as in, hypomanic. Even though he did not seem to think the same way WHILE the effects were taking place. In fact, as my post says, he even took me higher, to 70mgs, and later 80mgs of Parnate. So if he thought it was "too good", he was ok with it being "super good".
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> > Now that it lost some of its power, now he is claiming it was all "too good" and not what we want. The fact that he's in such a contradiction is what I find shocking and upsetting. I don't need a doctor to tell me that the single 2 times in my life I've felt truly happy have been "too good" and that I should be happy with "flat" or "halfway good", while at the same time contradicting himself in his behavior and actions--by increasing the dose despite his thinking it's too good. This doesn't make any sense and it's just infuriating me and causing me tons of emotional distress.
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Posted by Nadezda on November 16, 2009, at 17:12:50
In reply to Re: you're right - your pdoc is a jackass » PC_Load_Letter, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 14, 2009, at 7:06:31
When do you meet with him next?
Nadezda
Posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 17, 2009, at 7:51:05
In reply to Re: you're right - your pdoc is a jackass, posted by Nadezda on November 16, 2009, at 17:12:50
Wednesday morning---tomorrow.
> When do you meet with him next?
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> Nadezda
Posted by Nadezda on November 19, 2009, at 7:56:33
In reply to Re: you're right - your pdoc is a jackass » Nadezda, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 17, 2009, at 7:51:05
How did it go? Were you able to somewhat clarify what he meant by the statements that concerned you?
Nadezda
Posted by stargazer2 on November 22, 2009, at 7:52:47
In reply to Re: Talked to pdoc. He makes no sense AT ALL. » floatingbridge, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 8, 2009, at 19:21:35
GI,
Hi, I used to follow Babble fairly closely but not in awhile as things are back to some sort of normalcy (NOT) right now.
I just happened upon your post and read briefly between the lines and had some thoughts that I wanted to share, if not for anything else, for general comments.
I have had TRD for a long time(30yrs) and I believe we had similar courses of meds, symptoms, etc. I'm on Nardil and have been on stimulants too.
JUst a brief comment and again, I did not have the time to read every post and word in each post.
When I have had shades of being hypomanic, I was unable to discern what was normal, non depressed and what was leaning towards hypermanic. I really believe the person who is hypomanic will be unable to really know for sure and describe all of the symptoms they have at the time to another person. It is almost impossible to know for sure as they are really on a continuum from normal to manic and I think everyone has this from time to time.
Feeling better is great and shades of hypomanic are fine, unless they progress and turn into something else.
I did have a sense that there may be some hypomanic symptoms in some of your posts, but I know from being in this situation myself, it would be very hard to see. Sometimes the only way I can explain it would be, you (one who may be hypomanic) have the ability to describe a situation in so much detail, that it comes across in a hypomanic way. This is only to suggest, others that are not hypomanic could not analyze something to this degree or even care to, as it takes up so much energy, the "normal" person would not use energy in that wasy. I'm not sure I'm explaining this correctly, but it is how I see it, be it right, wrong, or really just my observations.
I know that for myself, when I might be a tad hypomanic, I would get overly focused on the details and the average, perhaps normal person, couldn't care less about my insight, as it is too much, or unimportant, for them to follow. MY husband may say stop talking about something when I don't shutup and am obsessing about something, that I should "let go"
Just remember you are one of probably many persons your psychiatrist will see in a day with all of their stories and symptoms and he probably doesn't have the energy, time, whatever it may be to always be where you want him to be at all times.
I think persons with our conditions can be quite a handful for anymone to manage. Although some of the best docs are empathetic, they are only human and can't be right about every situation all the time. Being human has a lot of frailities and we have to understand this, even when dealings with so-called experts. They are not always right, and are only going by the situation as you describe it to them, so some of this is based on our own anaylysis of a situation, which may perceived incorrectly, when we are depressed, hypomanic, etc.
What I now see on this site is many very intelligent persons in the midst of choas and suffering and the time and effort many spend here is exhausting, to be able to follow when you just jump in every few days or weeks. That is not something that others will ever understand unless you are experiencing it yourself.
Be well and hope my comments are not taken in any other ways than observational, as they certainly are not meant to be critical of anyone that is in the middle of treatment to find answers for their conditions. NO two people here are coming from the exact same place.
Stargazer
Posted by mtdewcmu on November 22, 2009, at 23:19:52
In reply to Re: you're right - your pdoc is a jackass » PC_Load_Letter, posted by Girlnterrupted78 on November 14, 2009, at 7:06:31
> Thanks so much for the support and understanding of my situation.
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> Unfortunately I cannot afford a different doctor. I have seen others in NYC, and this is by far the best. He's seeing me for free because I participated in a study at Columbia U/NY Psychiatric Institute, and part of the remuneration was 6 months of free treatment--so he's supposed to be very good at what he does, and he's getting grants in the millions to continue to do research on treatment-resistant depression, so just go figure.
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> And so far he was good enough to get me out of depression after 7 years of trying with other doctors, he put me on Parnate after another doctor (a really bad one at that) had refused to, because he said "If Nardil failed, Parnate will too.."
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> So he's supposed to be good. I just don't get his sudden change. I mean, why??? If he never said I was "too good" while I was on remission (or very close to remission) why then is he saying it now that the effects diminished and the symptoms are returning?
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> I have no choice but to stick with him.. I just hope he won't drop me for dumping all the anger I have inside on him. I sent him two honest yet angry emails already, and he's responding professionally and telling me we will discuss this next time we meet.
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> Thanks again
>I think you are probably right when you guessed that he said you were "too good" in order to lower your expectations. My pdoc likes to say "the perfect is the enemy of the good" when I tell him about side effects that I am having, as if I am just being too picky and difficult. Well, I have finally found a combination that is working quite well, and I feel good. So it turns out I was not being too difficult after all. I can't wait to tell him.
I don't know that much about your situation and what meds you've tried, but I gather that you are on Parnate and Adderall, at least. It seems like there are plenty of options for how you could modify that regimen. First, have you tried skipping your Adderall for a while? Drugs are funny in that many of them can cause the exact opposite of their typical effect. So, whereas Adderall makes a lot of people feel euphoric, it can also make you feel dysphoric. So why not see if that one is working against you? Secondly, have you tried adding some Abilify? Abilify was fairly recently approved as an adjunctive treatment for depression that is resistant to typical antidepressants. Also, what about Remeron? I started Remeron a few days ago, in addition to my other meds (Zoloft, Abilify, Wellbutrin), and I have been feeling good since. Unless you have tried everything else, there is no need to resort to tricyclics, much less give up hope.
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