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Posted by Dinah on August 5, 2010, at 15:44:29
I'm not usually an irritable person. I get angry sometimes, but at specific things, and it passes.
I'm irritable today.
I've got a good two solid weeks of medical tests and doctors appointments outstanding for me and for my family. I'm anxious about the outcome of some of them.
I've got an endoscopy Tuesday and a colonoscopy Thursday with a day of fasting between. I've been reading the pre-test and post-test information and I'm just not sure it's worth it. There are so many layers of this that hit all sorts of panic issues with me.
I can't seem to focus well enough to work effectively. Yet I have to. I'm having some self harm urges, but no worries that I'll act on them. There won't be an inch of my body that will be private in the upcoming week.
I alternate between sleepiness and feeling so much pressure that the top of my head will explode. I'm trying to master it, but it's coming out as irritability.
Posted by sigismund on August 5, 2010, at 16:24:33
In reply to Uncharacteristically irritable - Trigger?, posted by Dinah on August 5, 2010, at 15:44:29
>I've got an endoscopy Tuesday and a colonoscopy Thursday with a day of fasting between. I've been reading the pre-test and post-test information and I'm just not sure it's worth it. There are so many layers of this that hit all sorts of panic issues with me.
I haven't had this procedure, but I will one day. I would feel exactly the same.
I remember when I had my vasectomy. The doctor gave me a local and not even any nitrous or anything else. Something was cut and this awful soft sickly pain went to my right shoulder. He had said 'Bring some leather to bite on'. When I said that I wasn't enjoying it he said 'You aren't here for fun'. Next time, I thought, I would organise some pain relief to help me lie still for it (beforehand!). 30mg morphine by mouth would do it.
I sympathise.
Posted by Phillipa on August 6, 2010, at 0:41:11
In reply to Re: Uncharacteristically irritable - Trigger?, posted by sigismund on August 5, 2010, at 16:24:33
I've had a colonoscopy was given IV versed and Demerol IV which they snuck in the IV tubing as was supposed to be a sigmoidoscopy and they tricked me but it felt so relaxing and good I accused the doc of lying and doing the colonoscopy but he did and I fell asleep when got home sitting up. Dinah I know the older we get and test after test. And I surely don't want an endoscopy. Now I refuse to go to the gyno been three years. Well can't get pregnant so I'm not going so there!!!! Phillipa
Posted by Dinah on August 6, 2010, at 12:54:58
In reply to Uncharacteristically irritable - Trigger?, posted by Dinah on August 5, 2010, at 15:44:29
I suppose it is normal to feel the way I do. My therapist said so all session.
I cancelled all my future scheduled appointments. Normal reactions don't need therapy.
Posted by Dinah on August 6, 2010, at 13:41:24
In reply to Thanks Sigi + Phillipa, posted by Dinah on August 6, 2010, at 12:54:58
My therapist called back and did a rephrase to understandable instead of normal. A small word change, but it means something completely different to me. He said he ought to know by now that normalizing is not helpful to me.
I'm sorry guys. I'm obviously not fit for man nor beast, babbler nor therapist. I'll go slink off to a cave somewhere.
Posted by fayeroe on August 7, 2010, at 0:13:15
In reply to Uncharacteristically irritable - Trigger?, posted by Dinah on August 5, 2010, at 15:44:29
> I'm not usually an irritable person. I get angry sometimes, but at specific things, and it passes.
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> I'm irritable today.
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> I've got a good two solid weeks of medical tests and doctors appointments outstanding for me and for my family. I'm anxious about the outcome of some of them.
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> I've got an endoscopy Tuesday and a colonoscopy Thursday with a day of fasting between. I've been reading the pre-test and post-test information and I'm just not sure it's worth it. There are so many layers of this that hit all sorts of panic issues with me.
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> I can't seem to focus well enough to work effectively. Yet I have to. I'm having some self harm urges, but no worries that I'll act on them. There won't be an inch of my body that will be private in the upcoming week.
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> I alternate between sleepiness and feeling so much pressure that the top of my head will explode. I'm trying to master it, but it's coming out as irritability.I have to have a colonoscopy, a special mammogram and some sort of intricate blood work and I feel your pain. I will not sleep for about 3 nights before the tests. I backed out last year and doctor is not happy with me. I'll dread it with you.
Posted by Dinah on August 7, 2010, at 8:52:18
In reply to Re: Uncharacteristically irritable - Trigger? » Dinah, posted by fayeroe on August 7, 2010, at 0:13:15
Deal.
Although I'm thinking seriously about backing out. I've been doing better lately.
I'm feeling better about some of the family health problems. I spoke to a couple of acquaintances who happened to have some experience with it. They're going to find out some things for me. It made me feel a hundred times better. The internet can be a scary place.
Posted by Dinah on August 7, 2010, at 8:53:51
In reply to Re: Uncharacteristically irritable - Trigger? » Dinah, posted by fayeroe on August 7, 2010, at 0:13:15
I've also been on Risperdal for a couple of days now. I think that's probably helping as well.
Posted by fayeroe on August 7, 2010, at 9:58:54
In reply to Re: Uncharacteristically irritable - Trigger?, posted by Dinah on August 7, 2010, at 8:53:51
My colonoscopy and mamogram have to be done. So I will make the appointments this week. The hospital is 40 miles so I'll have to arrange for a driver. Maybe my oldest can come.
My meds seem to be working pretty good right now. If I could only remember to take the Buspar as often as I should. If I take it any time after 5 p.m. I have dreadful dreams about my ex. He is the last thing/person that I w ant to dream about.
I'm glad the risperdal is working.
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