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Posted by Leo Brazil on August 21, 2008, at 10:28:09
For starters I have depression and Social Phobia, pretty bad. I mean I hate people because I think they want to take advantage of me or humiliate me.
Last night my sister's boyfriend, wich I hate, came to spend the night in my home. I couldn't sleep just because I knew he was in my apartment. That upset me all night long. That was the worst night I ever had.
This social phobia and depression is making my life impossible. I just want to die to end this pain. I've already tried medication but that didn't work. Antidepressants made me agitated and benzos made me depressed. All I can take is Neurontin wich doesn't help much.
On top of it all I love a girl who doesn't love me back. She says that she likes me as a friend. I think she doesn't wanna have a relationship with me beacause I don't have a job and I am not so friendly. I just don't see how I can get out of this situation right now.
These feelings of hopelessness and rage towards people are killing me.
This girl I love is my Pilates Instructor. Today I will see her. I want to have a nice relationship with her, but my hostility towards everybody, especially my loved ones, makes it impossible.
Sorry for the ranting, but I just needed to get it out. My faith in god is what keeps me going.
Posted by Phillipa on August 21, 2008, at 13:14:36
In reply to Too much anger, posted by Leo Brazil on August 21, 2008, at 10:28:09
Gee Leo can tell you are extremely distressed. Are you taking any meds or doing theraphy? Have you thought of posting on psychology or meds? Are you new don't see the green flag but welcome. Hopefully someone helpful will come along. So sorry. Phillipa
Posted by Nadezda on August 21, 2008, at 13:48:06
In reply to Too much anger, posted by Leo Brazil on August 21, 2008, at 10:28:09
That sounds extremely painful and frustrating-- to say the least, Leo.
Isn't there some way you can get yourself to try some other meds, or combination of meds? Sometimes it takes a lot of patience and time to find the right combination.
Have you tried therapy? It sounds like you need to work with someone to get an understanding and some perspective on these angry and hateful feelings. Even if you have a lot of anger at your T, there are Ts who can handle that. Most people IRL can't-- it's very hard, as I"m sure you know.
Try to cut yourself a little slack-- and maybe other people, too. I do think meds would help you feel less frightened and angry towards others-- and maybe that's really what you have to do-- even if it's hard to find, and not a perfect solution. Sometimes partial solutions can give you the opening to work toward better solutions over time.
I hope you see some parting of the clouds soon,
Nadezda
Posted by Leo Brazil on August 21, 2008, at 17:37:37
In reply to Re: Too much anger » Leo Brazil, posted by Nadezda on August 21, 2008, at 13:48:06
I think you are right. I just have to find the right combination of meds. About the therapy, I'm already doing it, but it doesn't help much. Maybe it's more of a biological problem that meds can solve.
Thanks
Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 21, 2008, at 20:26:04
In reply to Re: Too much anger » Nadezda, posted by Leo Brazil on August 21, 2008, at 17:37:37
Hi Leo:
Curious as to what meds you have tried? I ask because anger was (and still sometimes 'is'...it's impossible to erase a human quality completely..and I don't think you want to)
part of my diagnosis. Anger can show up in depression, anxiety, or in bipolar disorder. Benzos help 'a bit', but they can be a bit dangerous with anger, kind of like alcohol. They act as a dis-inhibitor. I was dx'd as Bipolar 2, after an episode where I was quite wound up on my first run of Zoloft, and I was taking about 5-6 mg of Xanax a day to try and control the anxiety and mania. I ended up phoning a co-worker and leaving a very hateful, nasty message on his answering machine. I didn't go to jail, but no wonder I was fired, after 8 years of good employment, a few days latter.I'd really suggest you talk with your doctor about this, and about the possible combination of a mood stabilizer and a small dose of an antidepressant. It may take a bit to figure out what works best. Also, other's may disagree, but a small dose of an atypical anti-psychotic combined with either both or one of those meds I just mentioned could prove to be effective. I'd caution to keep the dose low, especially to avoid nasty side effects, such as drastic weight gain.
If you are even just considering this stuff, I think you are on your way to feeling better. I know what it feels like to carry around a ton of anger, and it is not something I'd wish anybody to ever have to go through.
Let us know what you think, as we have a lot of people on here with many experiences with different medications.
Best,
Jay
Posted by rskontos on August 21, 2008, at 21:00:31
In reply to Too much anger, posted by Leo Brazil on August 21, 2008, at 10:28:09
Leo.
I too have social issues, I usually take a xanax just to go out in certain situations. I often have anger that a particular situation will not warrant. My dx I think is the reason for it. I just don't connect to my emotions correctly and I hold it within too long and then will I do finally go to the emotional side wham it is too much to control so I go off. My take on this not the professional lingo.
Anyway, I can relate. Sorry you are going thru this. Take care. I am in therapy too and sometimes it helps and sometimes it doesnt.
be kind to yourself.
rsk
Posted by WaterSapphire on August 22, 2008, at 1:10:44
In reply to Too much anger, posted by Leo Brazil on August 21, 2008, at 10:28:09
Leo...
HUGS...and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.
Posted by Leo Brazil on August 22, 2008, at 6:57:11
In reply to Re: Too much anger, posted by WaterSapphire on August 22, 2008, at 1:10:44
Thanks for the support everyone. I'm feeling better today.
This is just a bad phase of my life and, onde day, I'll be over this. I will get the job that I want and the girl that I love. I just have to persevere. Things are a little tough right now but I'm hanging on.
No matter how bad the situation is, there's always a way out.
Posted by Leo Brazil on August 22, 2008, at 11:08:17
In reply to Re: Too much anger » Leo Brazil, posted by rskontos on August 21, 2008, at 21:00:31
I talked to my therapist today and I'm going to try Effexor. I had no success with SSRI's like Paxil and Lexapro. They made me agitated. I felt like my head was going to explode. And Remeron made me irritable. Let's see if a low dose Effexor can help me.
Leo
Posted by rskontos on August 22, 2008, at 13:41:37
In reply to Re: Too much anger, posted by Leo Brazil on August 22, 2008, at 11:08:17
Goodluck with that Leo B. I hope it works for you!!!!
And someday you will get the girl and the job.. Believe and you shall receive.
rsk
Posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 22, 2008, at 20:43:02
In reply to Re: Too much anger, posted by Leo Brazil on August 22, 2008, at 11:08:17
> I talked to my therapist today and I'm going to try Effexor. I had no success with SSRI's like Paxil and Lexapro. They made me agitated. I felt like my head was going to explode. And Remeron made me irritable. Let's see if a low dose Effexor can help me.
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> LeoHey, that is great Leo...I wish you the best. But remember, as with any psychiatric med, if you feel bad or worse on it, you must tell your doctor right away. I honestly don't mean to be negative, just the usual with all medications. Have you told your therapist about your extreme anger? Best wishes...
Jay
Posted by Leo Brazil on August 23, 2008, at 12:50:45
In reply to Re: Too much anger » Leo Brazil, posted by Jay_Bravest_Face on August 22, 2008, at 20:43:02
You know what, I don't think I need that Effexor. My therapist is great and she knows how to make me feel better. She told me that I don't need to feel threatened by my sister's boyfriend because he can't take away my space in my family. Now that she told me this I'm becoming more relaxed and less depressed. That anger is gone now.
Good therapy is worth a lot more than medication.
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