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Posted by Dinah on May 9, 2005, at 19:50:10
I've been thinking of you.
Posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 8:42:39
In reply to Partlycloudy, How'd it go?, posted by Dinah on May 9, 2005, at 19:50:10
What a l-o-n-g day it was yesterday. I gave my 2 weeks' notice to my boss and her boss (the "real" one) and the relief on their faces upset me a bit, but I decided not to take it personally.
Then the rest of the day was intermittent tears and drying up as I told some of my co-workers what I'd done. It seems that people just have to reveal a flash of sympathy towards me and I'm set off again. I have the same reaction if anyone is ever mean to me, too. Just a cry baby, really.I offered to work beyond the 2 week period to help train my replacement as I'm able and available, and they seemed satisfied with that.
It's funny. I don't feel the sense of failure that I was anticipating when I decided to throw in the towel at work. Instead, I'm just very sad. It's a good, relatively easy job, except for the being "on" for the duration of the day. There has never been any room there for having a bad day, and that's been my struggle. The people I work with to a person are lovely - thoughtful, caring, and polite. The accommodations my employer made for all my appointments and absences; the 2 month sick leave that apparently wasn't enough; they took it all with great understanding and sensitivity.
Underneath it, I sense that the real reason for my departure - my mental illness - is something that no one here is prepared to hear about or understand. It's enough for me to say that I'm leaving for "personal health reasons", as I put it, and the smile I'm looking at becomes a bit fixed, and the eyes glaze over somewhat. Could be that I'm hypersensitive (could very well be that), but I know that I have done the right thing for me, and for my employer.
Meanwhile, I am anticipating a trip home. To see my mum, my brothers, and to meet, for the first time, justyourlaugh, in person. The last item is something I've been wanting to do for over a year and the visit to Canada just never happened.
So I have lots to look forward to.
I see my therapist this week. I don't think she'll be the least bit surprised, and instead will be pleased with what I've done. She thought that I went back to work too quickly in the first place.I'm still very tired. Very depressed. And relieved.
pc
Posted by Dinah on May 10, 2005, at 8:46:19
In reply to Re: Partlycloudy, How'd it go? » Dinah, posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 8:42:39
That's to be expected, I think.
I also think it's good that you're keeping busy.
Meeting JYL in person! How exciting. You've met another Babbler too, haven't you? I'm always afraid it wouldn't be the same without a keyboard.
Posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 10:05:49
In reply to Re: Partlycloudy, How'd it go? » partlycloudy, posted by Dinah on May 10, 2005, at 8:46:19
This will be my third babbler! And I've been scared witless beforehand, for absolutely no reason except for fear of the unknown.
I've been priviledged to be able to meet both NikkiT2 and Racer, and feel that my world is just so much bigger and richer for it. To meet people who know us so well from here, and who understand and accept us without question; well, it is quite a gift.
Perhaps I'll be able to get to do a babble tour someday.
I'm reconsidering going to Chicago but I'm still too fragile at the moment to make a decision. Going "home" is very easy for me, whereas meeting up with *gulp!* Dr Bob - my goodness. The man is 12 feet tall in my head, you know?
Posted by Damos on May 10, 2005, at 17:00:40
In reply to Re: Partlycloudy, How'd it go? » Dinah, posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 8:42:39
Hey PC,
I so glad you've been able to do this. Hope so much that this is the start of better times for you.
Wow, meeting JYL in person that's huge. You'll always be welcome in Sydney though I think I'd be a big fraidy cat when it came right down to it.
Anyway just wanted to send you lots of love and hugs and wishes for happiness to come.
(((((((((PC))))))))))
Posted by anastasia56 on May 10, 2005, at 17:12:40
In reply to Re: Partlycloudy, How'd it go? » partlycloudy, posted by Damos on May 10, 2005, at 17:00:40
that took a lot of courage to do...something for you, to make your life better. No matter what the future holds that was a huge step towards personal growth.
ana
Posted by Dinah on May 10, 2005, at 19:55:45
In reply to Re: Partlycloudy, How'd it go? » Dinah, posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 10:05:49
I think I'd like to meet Dr. Bob. He's such a mystery to me, and meeting him might demystify him. Or maybe not. :)
I'd like to meet Babblers too, but I'm scared. I'm nothing like Dinah. :(
Posted by Racer on May 10, 2005, at 20:19:05
In reply to Re: Partlycloudy, How'd it go? » partlycloudy, posted by Dinah on May 10, 2005, at 8:46:19
> That's to be expected, I think.
>
> I also think it's good that you're keeping busy.
>
> Meeting JYL in person! How exciting. You've met another Babbler too, haven't you? I'm always afraid it wouldn't be the same without a keyboard.
When PC and I met, we brought our keyboards. We just typed our messages to one another and then read the responses... It was just the same as here. Really.You know I'd never tease about anything as important as that, right?
(And, for the record, it was my pleasure and privilege to be able to meet PC live and in person. My only complaint was that it wasn't nearly enough time together. We needed at least a week, and probably a sleep over with a bunch of books around to show each other. That meeting was one of those highlights that I can put in my treasure box.)
Posted by Dinah on May 10, 2005, at 20:25:49
In reply to Setting the record straight... » Dinah, posted by Racer on May 10, 2005, at 20:19:05
lol.
I've talked to some Babblers about meeting them. And we always joke about doing the same thing. Meeting at a cybercafe and chatting with each other as usual. :)
But there's a bit of truth behind that joking.
Posted by TamaraJ on May 13, 2005, at 14:39:57
In reply to Re: Partlycloudy, How'd it go? » Dinah, posted by partlycloudy on May 10, 2005, at 10:05:49
Well, if you are going to be in Canada and feel up to meeting another babbler, my door is always open to visitors. Nothing to fear from me - I am a quiet, friendly type who just likes everyone to feel at home and welcome.
Tamara
> This will be my third babbler! And I've been scared witless beforehand, for absolutely no reason except for fear of the unknown.
>
> I've been priviledged to be able to meet both NikkiT2 and Racer, and feel that my world is just so much bigger and richer for it. To meet people who know us so well from here, and who understand and accept us without question; well, it is quite a gift.
>
> Perhaps I'll be able to get to do a babble tour someday.
> I'm reconsidering going to Chicago but I'm still too fragile at the moment to make a decision. Going "home" is very easy for me, whereas meeting up with *gulp!* Dr Bob - my goodness. The man is 12 feet tall in my head, you know?
>
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