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Posted by Partlycloudy on December 19, 2008, at 9:54:21
I haven't stopped crying for 3 days. Guess the antidepressant is not working. Sleep quality has been getting worse, not better (down to about 4 hours with taking Ambien CR and 2 Klonopin). Anxiety is 24 hours.
And then this thing with me falling on my face, losing a tooth, giving myself a black eye, and getting carpet burn to boot. All because I was triggered by something really inappropriate my chiropractor said to me earlier this week.
It's official - I'm a huge mess.
I see the pdoc Monday. My T is seeing me at 4 this afternoon. I'll be the one wearing the big Jackie O sunglasses in the waiting room (this after my husband took one look at me this morning and said, "um, maybe you shouldn't go out today"). What a honeybunch.
Where is the fast forward button to all this? Not loving what is right now. Have had a lot of negative self talk going on, and I totally believe every word of it. It's all true.
I wish I could take a nap, but my face hurts too much.
What a whiner.
Posted by rskontos on December 19, 2008, at 10:16:28
In reply to T is calling my pdoc for me today, posted by Partlycloudy on December 19, 2008, at 9:54:21
Glad you are seeing T (and he is calling p-doc). Sorry you fell and you are NOT a whiner.
rsk
Posted by llurpsienoodle on December 19, 2008, at 10:55:55
In reply to T is calling my pdoc for me today, posted by Partlycloudy on December 19, 2008, at 9:54:21
Huge mess, or no,
you are still partly cloudy. Maybe your clouds are kind of dark grey and scrambled.I'm so sorry that the chemistry is not treating you well, but it's glad that your T and pdoc are working together as a team.
Your boo boo's would be traumatic enough to me to make me want to hide in a dark place indefinitely. You have a LOT of courage to make it out of the house today. Brava to you for helping yourself, sticking up for yourself.
I like scrambled, personally. As far as good eggs go.
But I don't envy the egg,
-Ll
Posted by B2chica on December 19, 2008, at 12:10:02
In reply to T is calling my pdoc for me today, posted by Partlycloudy on December 19, 2008, at 9:54:21
Hey PC. Really glad you're going to get in to see pdoc. AD are certainly not working. and crying for days is Exhausting, i've been there and am Really sorry you are there now.
and you sound in good spirits for such a terrible accident, i think i would have been cowering by now. you are one Great Cloud!
when i heard you say "im a huge mess" i just wanted to hug you and say "ya but your OUR huge mess" and we love you just the same!
am also glad to hear you are seeing T this afternoon, maybe that will help you a bit till you get some different meds.
and btw i'd LOVE to see you in those shades!>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>>
there's that FF button! i found it, i got it for you. you'll now trudge through all the cr@p and reach happily at denial and the illusion of happiness where i am!
congrats.
ok, it seems thats the only place my remote can go, sorry ;^)and maybe if you can't take a nap would a hot bath or shower help relax you some? maybe a nice chocolate shake with whipcream and a cherry on top for being so NOT a whiner.
Believe me, all you're going through...you are Certainly NOT whining!plese take care of yourself...no more falls/k?
b2c.
Posted by Phillipa on December 19, 2008, at 13:05:09
In reply to Re: T is calling my pdoc for me today » Partlycloudy, posted by B2chica on December 19, 2008, at 12:10:02
Bet your're home now how did it go? How do you cry when on meds I can't but wish I could I get numb. I'm truly sorry. Change in meds? Love Phillipa and I mean it.
Posted by Nadezda on December 19, 2008, at 15:22:55
In reply to T is calling my pdoc for me today, posted by Partlycloudy on December 19, 2008, at 9:54:21
PC,
"It" is not all true. It's a bad story about yourself that makes itself felt sometimes and that you're vulnerable to right now. That's really a sad and unfair thing, but it doesn't make you a mess. You're not a mess. Like Llurpsie said, you're PartlyCloudy, and that's not a mess, that's a very valuable person, whom we've come to know and care about.
It sounds like you really had a bad fall-- and that itself can cause anyone to feel upset and like they've lost control. It can be a really scary thing at times, when you hurt yourself out of the blue-- but you're okay. That's the important thing.
Don't you have any pain meds you can take? You definitely need rest. No wonder you feel awful-- lack of sleep is enough to rupture my mood all by itself. and it makes it possible for all sorts of other bad thoughts and feeling to gain a foothold-- So maybe your pdoc or regular doctor can call in something for pain.
Remember, PC, lack of sleep, hurting yourself, having your face hurt-- all those things alone can really tear away your sense of security. But you'll get to a better frame of mind. Even when the winds are roaring in the background-- feeling better isn't as far away as it seems.
Nadezda
Posted by Poet on December 19, 2008, at 15:37:17
In reply to T is calling my pdoc for me today, posted by Partlycloudy on December 19, 2008, at 9:54:21
Hi PC,
Try hard to push out those negative thoughts, I know how hard that is as mine go round and round and darker and darker when I'm depressed. I'm sorry to hear about your fall, I hope you can take something for the pain. I like the idea of big Jackie O sunglasses, you'll be the mystery woman, like a secret agent.
Take care.
Poet
Posted by Kath on December 19, 2008, at 20:33:09
In reply to T is calling my pdoc for me today, posted by Partlycloudy on December 19, 2008, at 9:54:21
> I haven't stopped crying for 3 days.
~ ~ (((((((you))))))))
> And then this thing with me falling on my face, losing a tooth, giving myself a black eye, and getting carpet burn to boot. All because I was triggered by something really inappropriate my chiropractor said to me earlier this week.
~ ~ Aw PC - I am so sorry! You don't need this on top of how you're feeling. I'm really pissed at your chiro!
> Not loving what is right now.~ ~ I haven't got the 'loving what is' yet. Someone sent me the CD's (I think you're referring to Byron Katie? Maybe not; if not, sorry). Just listened to a bit of the first CD & my Inner Child is shrieking "She's MEAN!!!". Had to turn it off at that point!!)
> Have had a lot of negative self talk going on, and I totally believe every word of it. It's all true.~ ~ ~ Poopy - It's probably NOT true...so there! (more hugs). Please consider writing down the negative stuff & ripping it up & throwing it in the garbage or something. And if you canNOT get yourself to disbelieve it, please try to preface each statement with the words "Right now"...or add them at the end.
> I wish I could take a nap, but my face hurts too much.
>
> What a whiner.~ ~ You deserve to whine. Whine away s'il-vous-plait.
This will pass PC. Everything does hunnee. (You have my permission to quote me on that when I need to hear it).
I am sorry in my heart, that you are suffering so much.
Sorry I can't do a darn thing about it. My Mrs Fix-It is chomping at the bit.
luv you, Kath
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