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Posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 12:03:21
Hey all, I feel so small and insignificant. I started lexapro and still waiting for it to help. I am depressed and with all the stuff going on I feel hopeless. And weird. I would like to borrow a normal head for while for some peace. I have been reading posts but only answered a few because I felt unworthy to speak. Who am i kidding. I can't do anything. I am just not worth it anymore. oh sh*t. Now I cant see the screen. later...
Posted by B2chica on October 12, 2007, at 12:23:30
In reply to I feel so small, posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 12:03:21
i hate that you are feeling this badly...but sadly i am feeling similar these days. so i understand and forgive me if i cant be too encouraging.
its hard to mutter words that you're not quite believing yourself.when did you start the lex? hopefully you will be seeing some improvement soon...but be on the lookout if you feel even worse, you could be having a advirse reaction to the AD.
and although you feel it, you are NOT small and insignificant and you ARE worth it...
pot calling kettle black here...see, it IS much easier said than done :^).b2c
Posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 12:50:52
In reply to Re: I feel so small » rskontos, posted by B2chica on October 12, 2007, at 12:23:30
If nothing else, maybe if we keep saying it too each other we will start to believe it ourselves. Or we can have a bluesy party.....I am trying to find some humor but for once it escapes me.
We are both worth it. Maybe if we write it 500 times we will believe it. You are worth I can honestly say that.
I started the lex 5 days ago. I know it takes a few weeks to kick in. Maybe it will work. Maybe it wont. My T said she thought it was worth a try. And here is the pot right back at you! :)
Posted by B2chica on October 12, 2007, at 13:09:13
In reply to Re: I feel so small, posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 12:50:52
lets have a bluesy party...cept i dont' have any friends...no one would come anyway...
ok, its to hard to be funny.write...500? do you have any idea how much energy that would take? (laughing inside cuz outside too much work).
wow, i would think in 5 days you should start to feel something...do me a fav and if in a two more days (mon) you still don't feel (some) effects call doc., maybe it just needs tweeking, or alternate med would be better.
i'm off to another site now, i'll write on mon.
hope your weekend goes better than mine...
Posted by DAisym on October 12, 2007, at 13:53:50
In reply to I feel so small, posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 12:03:21
Sometimes when I feel like you are feeling, it helps to give in to the "smallness" and comfort yourself. I have a warm blanket, tea and often a cat or two on my lap. I find that just sitting sometimes gives way to tears and then I can get up and go on. Or sleep works, if I can get there.
When hurts are bigger than we can manage, it is important to try a distraction for a bit. I know that it is important to sit with these feelings, but not to the point where you are overwhelmed and suicidal. As hard as it is, get out and be with people. Or watch a comedy. You have to move yourself out of the emotional storm into a safe port.
And if you can't do that, call your therapist and just check in. It sometimes helps just to hear their voice and be reassured that you aren't alone. And we are here too. Perhaps we could all do a joint coloring session - at 3pm (west coast time) I'll get out my crayons and coloring books and think about you getting out yours. I think I'm going to pick my Flintstones book this time - do you have a favorite? If you don't have crayons, I'm giving you orders to go buy some. There is nothing like brand new crayons to delight the younger parts of you. Sounds crazy but coloring actually is calming - for kids and adults.
And don't forget to eat and drink fluids. You will feel better doing these things for yourself. Don't let yourself be insignificant to yourself. Self-care goes a long way.
Take care.
Posted by muffled on October 12, 2007, at 15:30:43
In reply to I feel so small, posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 12:03:21
Those guys said good things.
They are right.
(((((rskontos))))
hugs if ya want 'em.
M
Posted by Poet on October 12, 2007, at 17:05:48
In reply to I feel so small, posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 12:03:21
Hi Rskontos,
I'm on Lexapro, too, it might take a few weeks to kick in, I was on 10mg for about three months, then got it upped to 15mg. I hope it helps you, it has helped me.
It's hard to have self worth when you're feeling so low, but try to think about something you do well. It doesn't have to be big, no mountain climbing, just something like for me it's taking good care of my cats. Brushing them when I don't feel like even washing my own hair my tangled up hair.
Take care.
Poet
Posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 17:17:37
In reply to Re: I feel so small » rskontos, posted by Poet on October 12, 2007, at 17:05:48
thanks guys, i am feeling so bad and was just going to keep this all inside. I am glad I posted.. sigh you guys are the best. I will try to be kind to myself. Its hard since I always do the taking care of others and never me. It is like no one took care of me, I never did either so I don't really know how. I feel guilty if I just watch something for me, or sit with my dogs or just do nothing. I've always kept busy in the past to go over my hump and I can't do that so I feel wrong somehow. It doesnt make sense. I have to find new ways to make me feel better. Again thanks all the advice was great but most of all it was the support. At home I get the "your just making yourself depression" speech. so thanks for being there :)
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