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Posted by jammerlich on October 9, 2007, at 19:43:36
In reply to had a fight with h. **violence triggers**, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 9, 2007, at 19:19:02
I'm so sorry, Llurpsie. Those kinds of fights are really scary.
I can chat, if you feel like it, or you can call if you want.
Whatever you decide, I'm thinking about you.
Jammer
Posted by muffled on October 9, 2007, at 19:55:46
In reply to had a fight with h. **violence triggers**, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 9, 2007, at 19:19:02
Sh*t LL I'm so sorry, those intense emotions are scarey, but try to trust me that they DO pass.....
I will try to chat later too.
Goto feed kids and put them abed.
Its gonna be OK LL.
Truly, this WILL ease up, all this scareyness your feeling right now, it will ease up.
Keep safe.
I made curry with STINKY fish sauce....our house REEKS!!!!
Mistakeo!! I told kids the reek was the garbage!!!NOT theior supper!!!LOL!
Take good care for me OK?
M
Posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 9, 2007, at 23:09:52
In reply to had a fight with h. **violence triggers**, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 9, 2007, at 19:19:02
stoned on the benzos. decided to sleep on the porch. then h went to bed so i'm moving to the couch.
I don't want to live like this.
:'(
Posted by Phillipa on October 9, 2007, at 23:51:59
In reply to Re: had a fight with h. **violence triggers**, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 9, 2007, at 23:09:52
Okay what's the vacation argument maybe we can help you with the decision even though it is your husband's and yours. Night as I know you will sleep and wake up foggy headed probably. Phillipa
Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on October 10, 2007, at 7:57:39
In reply to Re: had a fight with h. **violence triggers**, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 9, 2007, at 23:09:52
I guess pdoc musta had me on low doses of benzos, because when I took 8x recommended dose I still woke up to hear the phone vibrating.
It was T. he was sorry he missed my call. we're going to try to bring my h to a session on friday. Correction: h is going, even if he has to call in sick and get dragged there kicking and screaming.
yay :(
thank you for your support. my skin is intact, even if my endogenous bzd receptors are going haywire. I think I go back to bed now. got a knit going, a mindless one.-ll
Posted by ClearSkies on October 10, 2007, at 8:13:52
In reply to woke up without incident *OD trigger*, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on October 10, 2007, at 7:57:39
Take care of yourself, LlurpsieNoodle. I'll be thinking calm and peaceful thoughts for you today. Fights of any kind are just awful to go through.
love,
ClearSkies
Posted by B2chica on October 10, 2007, at 8:18:34
In reply to woke up without incident *OD trigger*, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on October 10, 2007, at 7:57:39
LL....how terrifying for you.
its amazing how much people don't knw whats going on inside. there have been many times when people say similar things to me (about seeing something through) and my mind was on S. and how all i could think as a response was ...."you're right, maybe i should see certain things through"....they still didn't get it.but the others are right, this is scary and HARD, and that it WILL get better. in time.
no...you don't want to live like that. you wont. it is a hard time, it may take a little while it will get better.
honestly, right now i don't know who i'm trying to convince more...you ...or me.SO glad you had no bad effects on benzo....
MAN must have been somthing in the air last night. i did same thing...except it seems i did a bunch of stuff that i don't remember. and could hardly get up and drive to work this morning.Sooooooo glad your T called you back....mine hasn't :(
and it's nice to hear that your DH is going with you...
let us know how it goes...k?LOTS OF HUGS FOR LURPSIE ((((((((((((((((((((((LL))))))))))))))))))))))
b2c.
Posted by happyflower on October 10, 2007, at 10:19:35
In reply to had a fight with h. **violence triggers**, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 9, 2007, at 19:19:02
You will be okay Llurpise,
Marriage fights are hard but they are part of being with someone. I hope he can come to with you to therapy and maybe your T needs to talk to him alone too. Take care of yourself ((((llurpsie))))))))
Posted by rskontos on October 10, 2007, at 17:48:53
In reply to Re: had a fight with h. **violence triggers**, posted by happyflower on October 10, 2007, at 10:19:35
Llurpsie, My husband and I have been married for 20 years and some of it has been very rocky so I know. I am sorry for all you are going through. I am glad he is going to talk to the T. That should help. Mine has helped me tell my H things that has improved things for us. And he has listened. I hope for both of you yours goes and listens. YOu are going through enough without this too. I am feeling for you and let us know how it goes.....rs
((((((((llurpsie)))))))))))))
Posted by llurpsienoodle on October 10, 2007, at 22:28:38
In reply to Re: had a fight with h. **violence triggers**, posted by rskontos on October 10, 2007, at 17:48:53
because t is during work. funny. h called in sick to work today because of the fight "couldn't sleep"
and can't call in sick on friday to see T.
some kinda committment, huh.
If things don't feel right at bedtime, I'm gonna pack a bag and stay at a hotel. one perk of having my own income is spending my own income.
-Ll
personally I feel like I'm going to hurl. but i don't feel suicidal.
thank you all for your support. i wish it were easier. i wish i lived alone. i wish i weren't scared in my own house.
Posted by RealMe on October 10, 2007, at 23:19:33
In reply to h won't go see t., posted by llurpsienoodle on October 10, 2007, at 22:28:38
Sounds like your husband could not sleep because he was upset by his own behavior, and now he is too embarrassed for a T to hear about it all, especially if he has never acted like this before. I would say cut him some slack, but I would also have to say I am the last person in the world who would really feel okay about saying that. Too much anger flies around this house sometimes. Anyway what I first said is likely true as why else would he be unabel to sleep. He must be feeling really sh*tty about his behavior. Will he apologize? Maybe not; men seem to often have their own way of apologizing like not being able to sleep all night!!!
One time my husband and I had a big fight, and he said he was leaving, and I said okay, go! So he left in one of the cars, and I later found out he went down to the train station for our town and read and tried to sleep, but the coyotes were howling like crazy. Then a city police officer came by to see is he was okay. I just laugh when I think about it; serves him right.
And, lastly--do you really want to be alone? I seem to remember that bothered you a lot. I am not saying to go off for a night if that would help, but I can feel your anger right throuh my computer.
RealMe
Posted by muffled on October 10, 2007, at 23:21:45
In reply to h won't go see t., posted by llurpsienoodle on October 10, 2007, at 22:28:38
I dunno wassup w/you man LL.
But this seriously sucks :-(
Wish I had something clever to say.
Just alls I can can say is keep in touch.
Keep safe.
I'm so sorry.
I hope you guys can eventually work it all out.
I'm glad you got a T to help.
Glad you prepared to go as need be.
Just walk away if you got to.
Don't let him even get close to starting it up.
Mebbe keep a bag in the car, and mebbe a sleeping bag too.
Keep keys and cell and shoes nearby always.
Park your car in such a way it is easy to drive straight out.Not have to turn around etc.
You are a special person, remember that.
Take care,
M
Posted by cactus on October 11, 2007, at 0:49:09
In reply to Re: h won't go see t. » llurpsienoodle, posted by muffled on October 10, 2007, at 23:21:45
big hugs hon (((((((((Ll)))))))))
Posted by Phillipa on October 11, 2007, at 19:32:41
In reply to Re: h won't go see t., posted by cactus on October 11, 2007, at 0:49:09
Li do you think he'll change his mind and go? Phillipa
Posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 11, 2007, at 20:35:10
In reply to Re: h won't go see t. » cactus, posted by Phillipa on October 11, 2007, at 19:32:41
reluctantly, with all resistance.
he is behaving like we just had a minor spat.
WTF?!?! we go out for sushi dinner date not even 24 hours after he demanded a divorce?
maybe he has pms?
I still feel guarded.
-Ll
Posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 11, 2007, at 20:50:17
In reply to now he will?, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 11, 2007, at 20:35:10
the good:
have been in regular phone or voicemail contact with T
had a full body massage with trusted massageT
have been eating
I ave not been self-injuringthe bad:
I od'd on benzodiazepines, but woke up without incident. I'm not allowed to say how much, but it was too much.
I ate nothing but cookies on wednesday and binged on sushi for dinner today.
Haven't slept more than a wink for 2 days and "sensory disturbances" are setting in. memory goes bye bye. etc.h is going to see t with me. I have new eff-me boots for the occasion. I will be dressed well. I'll wear my leather jacket too. body armor.
-Ll
Posted by Phillipa on October 11, 2007, at 21:41:58
In reply to my aching coping mechanisms *OD triggers* » llurpsieNoodle, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 11, 2007, at 20:50:17
Lurpsie congratulations on your husband and update us and get some well deserved sleep. Phillipa
Posted by RealMe on October 11, 2007, at 22:02:16
In reply to now he will?, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 11, 2007, at 20:35:10
Husbands can be like that. I have been very busy at work, too busy, and have to work late and weekends just to stay afloat. Husband had dinner ready and had eaten by the time I got home. He hardly spoke to me, and when I asked what was on TV tonight as I did not think he was really watching anything, he said, here and handed me the remote, and he goes upstairs. I said where are you going, and he said to bed--at 7:30 p.m. I wanted to scream at him, but I did not. I want to say to him, grow up and cut it out. What a jerk. My husband has thrown and broken things before, and it is scarey. He has never hit me, and he better not or I would call the police. All my friends who are married, we talk about how our husbands are, etc. They are pretty much all the same. So, I am beginning to wonder about husbands.
RealMe
Posted by muffled on October 11, 2007, at 22:04:43
In reply to now he will?, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 11, 2007, at 20:35:10
Sigh sorry LL :-(
Maybe hubby in denial.
I don't spose this is gonna be easy...
Nope, don't spose at all.
Guess your illness has been pretty hard on hubby :-( as well as you of course. But its hard to see a loved one hurt, and not understand, and not be able to do the right thing etc.
Sigh.
Not gonna be easy.
Try and keep taking good care of yourself.
Remember how far you have come.
You can do this.
Thinking good thots for you.
M
Posted by llurpsienoodle on October 12, 2007, at 6:49:38
In reply to Re: now he will? » llurpsieNoodle, posted by muffled on October 11, 2007, at 22:04:43
> Sigh sorry LL :-(
> Maybe hubby in denial.only in denial of how much he hurt me
> I don't spose this is gonna be easy...
he's very stubborn> Nope, don't spose at all.
> Guess your illness has been pretty hard on hubby :-( as well as you of course. But its hard to see a loved one hurt, and not understand, and not be able to do the right thing etc.
> Sigh.
> Not gonna be easy.
> Try and keep taking good care of yourself.
> Remember how far you have come.
> You can do this.
> Thinking good thots for you.
> M
thanks muffled and others for your well-wishes. being mental is not easy on anybody. poor h. poor llurpsie. i'll post later after therapy. hope my coping mechanisms suffice... at least I have my tall black boots with 4 inch heels. kk would be proud. I've nicknamed them my eff-me boots. if things get really bad in therapy I'm just gonna get up and walk out of there with insouciance.
Posted by ClearSkies on October 12, 2007, at 7:22:51
In reply to Re: now he will? » muffled, posted by llurpsienoodle on October 12, 2007, at 6:49:38
Good luck today - let your T do the driving in the session, ok? They're really good at that stuff.
Do not dismiss the abuse. This is important. It's not just "stuff that married people go through." Believe me - throwing stuff and throwing words constitutes emotional and verbal abuse. That is the bare truth of it.Think of that tea cup you own, and the emblem on it; and wear that animal on your soul today.
ClearSkies
Posted by muffled on October 12, 2007, at 9:01:11
In reply to Re: now he will? » muffled, posted by llurpsienoodle on October 12, 2007, at 6:49:38
Posted by fallsfall on October 12, 2007, at 9:23:27
In reply to my aching coping mechanisms *OD triggers* » llurpsieNoodle, posted by llurpsieNoodle on October 11, 2007, at 20:50:17
Cookies are good. That's what I had for dinner yesterday.
LLurpsie, your husband loves you. I saw that.
I'm glad he will go to therapy. I hope that the two of you can work it out.
(((LLurpsie)))
Love,
Falls
Posted by rskontos on October 12, 2007, at 11:42:19
In reply to Re: my aching coping mechanisms *OD triggers* » llurpsieNoodle, posted by fallsfall on October 12, 2007, at 9:23:27
Llurpsie, I feel for you. It is good he is going. H do sometimes seem like they are aliens to everything we are. Maybe T can help him understand to be supportive and he doesn't have to fix you. Most men do want to fix things and get frustrated they can't. Half the time my H can't hear me for trying to work out a solution. Sigh. I hope therapy goes well. You are in my thoughts too!
Posted by cactus on October 12, 2007, at 15:57:23
In reply to Re: now he will? » muffled, posted by llurpsienoodle on October 12, 2007, at 6:49:38
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