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Posted by Dinah on September 14, 2006, at 18:20:33
Feeling like they're a screensaver dissolving into millions of pixels? Maybe after severe anxiety or overstimulation.
I kept trying to explain it to my therapist, but he said he didn't understand what I was saying.
Does anyone have words he might understand?
Posted by gardenergirl on September 14, 2006, at 18:47:08
In reply to Has anyone had the experience of, posted by Dinah on September 14, 2006, at 18:20:33
Sort of like shattered? Feeling like you're falling apart?
Sounds awful to feel. (((Dinah))))
gg
Posted by Declan on September 14, 2006, at 20:52:53
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of » Dinah, posted by gardenergirl on September 14, 2006, at 18:47:08
Like energy diffusion so you feel fazed, strained, but unable to rest?
It reminds me of someone saying of Tony Blair that he looked so brittle that if you tapped his forehead with a spoon he would shatter.
Well, tell me how you put those pixels back in the picture.
Posted by pegasus on September 15, 2006, at 8:57:15
In reply to Has anyone had the experience of, posted by Dinah on September 14, 2006, at 18:20:33
I think maybe I've felt that. I would describe my feeling as more of a fading out. Like the part of me that has . . . I don't know . . . personality or color or something . . . is washed away, and I'm just an outline. Just the basic functioning life form part. Does that sound the same as yours? For me it happens especially after putting a lot of personality effort into something, like attending a big social or work event.
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Posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 9:22:54
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of, posted by pegasus on September 15, 2006, at 8:57:15
I'll read your posts a few times and try to recall those feelings.
It's kind of hard, because part of the experience is incoherence and thus difficulty in remembering specifics.
I think it's probably some sort of anxiety peak.
Posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 9:23:51
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of » pegasus, posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 9:22:54
Posted by gardenergirl on September 15, 2006, at 10:28:23
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of » pegasus, posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 9:22:54
That's the kind of experience I have a hard time putting words to. Usually I end up just waving my hands around trying to approximate it visually. Good thing my T can interpret GG-flailingish.
gg
Posted by Jost on September 15, 2006, at 13:52:42
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of » Dinah, posted by gardenergirl on September 15, 2006, at 10:28:23
Is it the screensaver where there are bands composed of sculpted flecks of color that twist around on themselves and flit or are blown around across the screen?
Or another type of screen saver?
There are others where tiny specks of light are either coming at you or rushing away, in darkness?
Others look like a strange, impenetrable wall at an indeterminate distance, yet right in your face.
All make me rather nervous, but in different ways.
Jost
Posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 17:43:26
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of, posted by Jost on September 15, 2006, at 13:52:42
I guess the one I'm thinking of is one I had a while back. The picture would break into small squares then smaller then the pieces would fly into blackness and a new picture would form from tiny squares merging.
But tell the truth, I don't recall exactly the sequence. Only that it struck a chord.
Posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 17:49:47
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of » Dinah, posted by gardenergirl on September 15, 2006, at 10:28:23
That's what I tried to do too, but unfortunately my therapist doesn't speak Visual Dinah.
However we talked about it more today, and I think he understands more.
I think it's an extension of that whole electrical feeling of anxiety, which became my main expression of it after I got good at the CBT panic attack physiology exercises. Breathing and all.
So now instead I feel like a large electrical field and tingle all over, including sexual arousal, when I'm anxious. I've asked here and I asked my therapist before, and apparently that's not the norm. Which makes me feel rather bad. :(
At any rate, my therapist and I talked today about the whole electrical experience, and I'm feeling a bit better about his current grasp of what I'm talking about (although his capacity for forgetting is awesome, so I'm sure I'll explain it again).
Posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 18:08:04
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of » gardenergirl, posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 17:49:47
And of course I was anxious during the discussion. And more than a bit squirmily self conscious at the thought that he could now see or guess the resulting physical experience.
Although he quite understands that there's nothing really sexual about it.
Posted by muffled on September 18, 2006, at 11:36:41
In reply to Re: Has anyone had the experience of, posted by Dinah on September 15, 2006, at 18:08:04
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