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Posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:32:33
i feel like a stubborn little girl. i don't want to talk in session today. i didn't get to see him all last week, now i think i feel mad.
part of me has SO much to talk about, but the rest of me says NO, make HIM wait!she's taking over and i can't seem to control her. i HATE her, so why would the rest of me let her rule emotions! she's stupid! she's UGLY! she's FAT! she deserves to get cut up!
Posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:40:19
In reply to she's out...*trigger*, posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:32:33
i want to Never go to therapy again! i'm old enough to make my OWN decisions! i don't i won't! who needs that cr@p!
...i hate, but i need him
SO STUPID...i don't need anyone!
SHUT UP INSIDE YOU STUPID THING!
i want to get into a fight with someone. tell me who...i'll punch them in the nose!
anger=violence
can't have violence, can't get angry
mother said...mother said...i'm a stupid girl, she'll take over...mother said...mother said.
Posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:41:58
In reply to Re: she's out...*trigger*, posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:40:19
i like that i'm out! f@ck the world! i'm gonna post 100 posts, you watch!
ALL to myself!stupid girl, stupid girl.
Posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:51:12
In reply to Re: she's out...*trigger*, posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:41:58
did i write trigger or tigger?
screw this whole thing. i don't know what, i'm not supposed to know anything. i'm too stupid!
that's the excuse, i shouldn't have known, couldn't, wouldn't, it's THEIR fault...ya right.
it's MY FAULT and i DON"T CARE!!i was screwed when i was 9, now i screw them x9!
you CAN"T HURT ME!!!!!!!!!
i'm older than that now, i'm 14! i'm a woman and I SAY what goes with my body!
no more 'mother' invasions!
no more her asking what i did that made my brother hit me,
no more her saying "you live by My rules-don't make me hit you, don't make me lock you in your room, don't make me kick you out of the house,
no more her asking me if i'm masterbating with her perfume bottles!
no more her saying i look like a prostitute,
no more saying I"M the one that wanted her to hit me,
no more her saying i wanted her to divorce daddy!No mORE!!!!!
Posted by Gee on December 12, 2005, at 15:15:24
In reply to you can't put me back, now! *trigger*, posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:51:12
Posted by Anneke on December 12, 2005, at 15:50:05
In reply to she's out...*trigger*, posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:32:33
B2Chica,
You are so caring and tender towards everyone on this board....and certainly were towards me when I posted for the first few times last week. I wish I could take away your pain; I wish I could make that teenager feel safe. I'm glad she's expressing her anger here on the boards....let her let it all out in a safe way in a safe place. She deserves to be angry.
You told me to please take care of myself....I say the same back to you. Be gentle with yourself....try to let your therapist in if you can. Stay safe. I'll try to post more later when I have more time.
Anneke
Posted by muffled on December 12, 2005, at 16:09:00
In reply to you can't put me back, now! *trigger*, posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:51:12
Oh B2, my kid was the same when she came out. She was so f*cking MAD!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Raging.
And we fought aand fought, and I hurt her and she hurt me and it was aLL SO CRAZY. But know it does settle down. Its OK for the kid to be mad. She's got a right to be mad. But you B2, you can hold her back from getting you into something you regret later, you CAN stop her. But let her run a bit. Let her yell and scream. can you goto a beach somewhere, or somewhere downtown where screaming people are ignored, can you punch styrofoam insulation, or just beat a tree with a stick.
Your kids mad, my kid says YA!! Oh, once she settles it'll be better, you can be more whole and not so confused. its the beginning of a good thing B2.SO LET HER RIP little B2, its ok. Big B2, you just keep a bit of a handle on her. Its ok.
If you scared its ok. In fact thats proly a good thing.
Do you have anxiety meds?
Can you call your T?If you truly can't reighn her in (littleone), then you can always hit the hosp. and go temporarily on some meds.
Do what you need to do as long as you not harming youself or anyone else.(((B2))) Take or leave the hugs. Thats ok too.
Wish I could be with you :(Take care,
post away,
Muffly
Posted by cubic_me on December 12, 2005, at 18:32:59
In reply to Re: you can't put me back, now! *trigger* » B2chica, posted by muffled on December 12, 2005, at 16:09:00
Sweetie, I don't have much to say, but you know I'm always here to listen. Babblemail me if you don't still have my email and want to talk.
Take care of yourself b2c, you can get through this hard hard stuff - you promised to get through if I did too, and I'm planning on getting through.
all my love x
Posted by ghost on December 12, 2005, at 19:01:16
In reply to you can't put me back, now! *trigger*, posted by B2chica on December 12, 2005, at 14:51:12
i wish i had something to say. except i think it's good you're pissed off. you should be pissed off.
*lots of hugs*
*scream all you want*
we'll listen.
lots of love,
ghostPS: I really don't like your mother.
Posted by B2chica on December 13, 2005, at 12:57:53
In reply to Re: you can't put me back, now! *trigger* » B2chica, posted by ghost on December 12, 2005, at 19:01:16
>> PS: I really don't like your mother.
thank you.
Posted by fairywings on December 14, 2005, at 20:59:41
In reply to Re: you can't put me back, now! *trigger* » ghost, posted by B2chica on December 13, 2005, at 12:57:53
i'm still getting caught up here b2. are you feeling better. the anger hurts inside, doesn't it? it sucks feeling stubborn, and then after the appt. you are mad that you didn't talk, right? it's a viscious cycle, i get on it a lot, so i write, and i know before i go in that i don't want to do that bec. then i have to wait another week to talk to him, and i want so badly to talk to him.
i hope you're feeling better. i hope your little one is feeling better. do you think it's that she's just screaming to be heard?
fw
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