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Posted by Dinah on November 22, 2003, at 10:58:07
My inner hidden rage. Yesterday, in session. Or rather overnight as a result of yesterday's session.
And now I need to drug it out of existence, because the timing's all wrong. Weekend, one session, then holidays. Ah well. Tapped into once, I'm sure it can be tapped into again.
Posted by fallsfall on November 22, 2003, at 11:41:01
In reply to Finally tapped into my rage, posted by Dinah on November 22, 2003, at 10:58:07
I'm so happy for you and so not happy for you.
Progress is good.
Needing to bury things can be so hard. DaisyM and I talked about burying things above (http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/psycho/20031114/msgs/280867.html). Do you have any techniques to add? Or do you just use drugs?
I am in "bury" mode this weekend, too.
Posted by Dinah on November 22, 2003, at 13:36:19
In reply to Re: Finally tapped into my rage » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on November 22, 2003, at 11:41:01
Drugs and forgetting sleep. I called my therapist this morning too. He wanted me to promise not to run away to the mountains with Harry, but I wouldn't. I did promise to take a Risperdal. But as I was getting ready to pack up dog food and pills, I fell asleep, then realized I'm really too tired to run away from home anyway. I don't like to drive.
I hope this doesn't mean he won't let me talk about sex again. :(
Posted by Elle2021 on November 22, 2003, at 19:50:12
In reply to Re: Finally tapped into my rage » fallsfall, posted by Dinah on November 22, 2003, at 13:36:19
>He wanted me to promise not to run away to the mountains with Harry, but I wouldn't. But as I was getting ready to pack up dog food and pills,
I thought Harry was a cat. :)
> I hope this doesn't mean he won't let me talk about sex again. :(
If he's anything like my therapist, it will be the focus of your next session, and any session that is.
Elle
Posted by Eddie Sylvano on November 24, 2003, at 15:28:16
In reply to Finally tapped into my rage, posted by Dinah on November 22, 2003, at 10:58:07
> My inner hidden rage. Yesterday, in session. Or rather overnight as a result of yesterday's session.
-----how did you do it? I've got a feeling that I'm sitting on a large deposit of rage, but I really can't be sure, and certainly don't know how to access it. As it is, I *never* get angry in my dealings with people. It takes a great deal to provoke me.
Still, I have an intermittant desire to beat things with a baseball bat, which suggests otherwise.
Posted by Dinah on November 24, 2003, at 19:23:04
In reply to Re: Finally tapped into my rage » Dinah, posted by Eddie Sylvano on November 24, 2003, at 15:28:16
Wish I knew. It must have been very threatening for me, because I've mostly forgotten the whole thin.
Posted by tom_traubert on November 28, 2003, at 20:34:05
In reply to Re: Finally tapped into my rage » Dinah, posted by fallsfall on November 22, 2003, at 11:41:01
I've found the practice of writing "unsent letters" extremely helpful for accessing anger, which usually gives way to a deep deep sadness, which gives way to feeling light. Catharsis is good. The idea is to write a letter to someone that you will NEVER send. Sounds simple, but can be very difficult at first. The benefit comes from the knowledge that there will be no negative outcome--there is no chance of hurting someone you love. You can write a letter to a member of your family, anyone who's pissed you off or anyone with whom you felt a restrained relationship.
The key is to not hold back. You are allowed to write "I fucking hate you" without really meaning it. A lot of times I'll look back at what I've written and think "I don't really believe this," which is helpful also in gaining perspective as to what is belief and what is simply anger. The idea is to just exist within the emotion and LET IT OUT. Do not show it to anyone--if you have in your mind that you might share it with a friend/therapist/sibling, then your writing will necessarily be colored by what they might think. Just tear it up, it's trash. I bought a shredder, which works pretty well.
It may sound silly, but it really is powerful stuff. I started with "Dear Dad," and felt really foolish at first, but kept going with it. My arm felt like it was on fire and I just kept writing and writing. . .
Anyway, hope this helps.
tt
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