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Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 16, 2011, at 23:49:55
I am living in this nightmare with being at home with nothing working medication wise. I am so fed up with myself for rejecting these antidepressant that where designed to help. I just want to smack something, hook it up to ECT machines and shock every hateful thought I've ever had against myself. I'm just STUCK. NO JOB. I need some kind of assistance from someone and I don't know where to ask for it. And most of the people here don't know what to do. I have alot of self loathing traits resulting from my errors. Look at me. Posting on this website in deperate need for someone to rescue me. I just can't stand myself. The addiction that destroyed my life. But I can start a brand new life I just don't know what to do. Where do I go? most of these questions will never be awnsered and don't try to help because no one can help me at this point. I read these posts and i can't process them fast enough. I want out. I need to just get away but where do I get from this? I have no money. I don't want to waste your time. I just need someone to help me. if you can help me with just supporting me. I would really appricate that.
Matt
Posted by Dinah on September 17, 2011, at 8:43:30
In reply to I need some help and no body knows what do, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 16, 2011, at 23:49:55
Didn't you recently link to a post that someone wrote you in the past that you thought looked very helpful? Good advice doesn't expire like milk and bread. If it was helpful advice then, it is now as well.
I think if you look to Babble for rescue you're bound to be disappointed over and over again. There are things Babble can do and some things it can't do. Looking for diamonds in a gold mine is bound to lead to frustration.
They fantasy of rescue is an alluring one. But it isn't a realistic one. You need to work on rescuing yourself. That post you linked to before might be a good place to start.
Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 17, 2011, at 12:18:32
In reply to Re: I need some help and no body knows what do, posted by Dinah on September 17, 2011, at 8:43:30
Could you maybe find that post and post it. I looked and I can't find it.
Matt
Posted by Dinah on September 17, 2011, at 13:14:42
In reply to Re: I need some help and no body knows what do, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 17, 2011, at 12:18:32
http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/social/20110722/msgs/994429.html
I'm not so good at looking up posts, but this one was on the current Social board.
Posted by bleauberry on September 18, 2011, at 16:18:20
In reply to I need some help and no body knows what do, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 16, 2011, at 23:49:55
Lots of support Matt! That's why we're all here. Maybe the rest of the world doesn't understand, but we do.
I don't usually support ECT. I was in your shoes when I went for it. I know exactly where you are at. It didn't help for very long but it did end that lousy chapter and started a new one that had some hope in it.
Correction. These meds were not designed to treat your symptoms. Most of them were accidental manipulations of molecules with a theoretical mode of action that may or may not actually be involved with a disease or not. When tested in clinical trials, the people used were carefully chosen and cherry picked, not representing the average person like your or me. Results are deceptive because of the way statistics are used or twisted, and because of the inherent human bias involved (who funded it, why, etc). They are designed for profit. That's what businesses are supposed to do. Sometimes we get lucky with one of their meds. Sometimes we don't.
Take a look at the meds you've tried. Any clues there? Can you rule out, for example, serotonin meds? Try to rule things in or out based on what you experienced. Was there an antipsychotic somewhat helpful? Maybe it could have been a different one instead of the ones you tried? Rhodiola Rosea....every tried it? Take a look at your vitamins and supplements....common stuff can help a lot if you are getting the right amounts of certain items. Your food needs to be under suspicion. Yeah, really. What happens if someone is gluten intolerant? Well, for one thing, they don't know it and they keep eating gluten every single day. Sometimes those people have intestinal problems or bowel problems as a result, but it usually shows up as brain problems when in fact it isn't a brain problem at all. Depression, anxiety, fogginess, stuff like that. All very common things if you are eating something your body reacts poorly to. Elimination experiments are easy free ways to pinpoint any problems with food choices. At the very least, you need to rule it out.
I wish you all the best and I know things will get better. I think all it really requires is examining what you've tried thus far, search for clues, and then when going forward make sure to totally avoid revisiting old ground. Whatever you do going forward needs to be new and different than anything you've done before.
There is a lot of hope in the Bible New Testament. At the very least, just call out to Him and talk with Him. Daily, hourly, whenever, as much as you can. He's probably wondering what's taking you so long. Maybe God doesn't always offer miracle healings, I've never seen it, and maybe that is one of the ultimate God questions, but He does promise "abundant life" to those who seek Him. And He does promise "wisdom" if you ask for it. After my failure on a backpack full of meds and ECT, it was the spiritual side and the herbal side that gave me new strength, hope, and progress forward.
You'll make it.
Posted by Lisalisa110 on September 24, 2011, at 17:11:47
In reply to I need some help and no body knows what do, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on September 16, 2011, at 23:49:55
Hang on Matt.
What if tomorrow was the day that things start to get better? You wouldn't know if you weren't here, so stick around. Remember this; it took years for you to get the way you are now. It wont get better any faster if you aren't open to doing something different. Posting and asking is just the first step. Now what can you d for yourself right this moment to change things and feel better. Get out of yourself and into the world. If nothing else, just go for a walk. Take 5. You can't just expect it to come to you. Open the door and throw yourself out there. Find the light. Listen to your good gut! Do something good for yourself. The little things start to add up. You'll get what you need if you look harder.
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