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Posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:06:49
im laying here on the floor on my laptop thinking, i have never felt this bad before, i dont know what to do. I feel so much intensity, but what is there to do about it.
I dont know if i should start Parnate, or anything.
I need to get out of this house, i need to move on my own but i dont want this to..........i cant say it.
I so low i cant, i cant even think of how to ask for help.
Please if there is anyone please post.
I just want anything, post anything please.
Posted by RobertDavid on May 15, 2006, at 21:17:04
In reply to i have hit a all time low, posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:06:49
Hang in there! I know how frustrating it can get. Do you have confidence in the doctor treating you? Even if you do perhaps going to someone else, getting a referal to a savvy doctor may get you a different slant on treatment options. There are answers for you. Don't give up! Rob
Posted by nickguy on May 15, 2006, at 21:28:54
In reply to i have hit a all time low, posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:06:49
I've been in that position, and there it is hard to believe that things will change or that you can get better. And whether or not you believe it, it's true. Talk to your doc, think about the direction of your recovery and consider talking to a therapist.
Posted by heaven help me on May 15, 2006, at 21:29:13
In reply to i have hit a all time low, posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:06:49
I don't know if I am allowed to say this on this board, but I am going to be praying for you
rjlockhart
I have no idea what you are really going through, but I know I've been on one hell of a ride myself and can only imagine...the only place I've ever found real hope is in my faith in Christ. Without that, I'd be dead.
I'm prayin'
Posted by heaven help me on May 15, 2006, at 21:31:16
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low, posted by nickguy on May 15, 2006, at 21:28:54
yes, YES! God is VERY practical! He can and will use your Dr.s, a good therapist, people on this board, etc., etc. to carry you along. Use all the help he sets before you.
Peace
Posted by Phillipa on May 15, 2006, at 21:42:53
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low, posted by heaven help me on May 15, 2006, at 21:31:16
Matt hope you're listening. Love Phillipa
Posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:50:03
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low » rjlockhart, posted by RobertDavid on May 15, 2006, at 21:17:04
Rob,
I dont have access to my doctor because of my mom who does have a personality disorder, she explodes gets paranoid. She is very controlling. She looks very happy, but she flucates inside like turmoil about past things.I am going to get throught this.
Posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:52:45
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low, posted by nickguy on May 15, 2006, at 21:28:54
Right now again my mother is not getting me to a therpist, i have to be my own therpist. But thanks for responding.
I work at the GAP, i am going to get help now. I have to.
THanks
Matt
Posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:54:52
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low, posted by heaven help me on May 15, 2006, at 21:31:16
God is very, i cant even say how merciful that he has been. God is always there. You know when i was back having a time, i felt he was here every minite.
Thanks.
Matt
Posted by mike lynch on May 15, 2006, at 21:56:50
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low - nickguy, posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:52:45
I've seen you post here since I was suspended a year or two ago and I still dont' know what specifically your problem is, you just describe your symptoms. Maybe if you'd tell us what exterior cues are triggering these feelings we would be more equipped to help you. But then again you should really just go to a therapist, since were not professionals and there's really only so much we can do.
Posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:56:58
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low, posted by heaven help me on May 15, 2006, at 21:31:16
Yes, yes i am a beliver very much and i know that he can take us through trials and even not him but the misery through life. He is there, he has been there for me many times i have gotten in a rant.
Thank you for sharing that.
God bless.
Posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:58:23
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low, posted by Phillipa on May 15, 2006, at 21:42:53
Phillipa we have got to talk.
Posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 22:13:08
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low - nickguy, posted by mike lynch on May 15, 2006, at 21:56:50
Posted by Bonnie_CA on May 15, 2006, at 22:14:25
In reply to i have hit a all time low, posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:06:49
> im laying here on the floor on my laptop thinking, i have never felt this bad before, i dont know what to do. I feel so much intensity, but what is there to do about it.
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> I dont know if i should start Parnate, or anything.
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> I need to get out of this house, i need to move on my own but i dont want this to..........i cant say it.
>
> I so low i cant, i cant even think of how to ask for help.
>
> Please if there is anyone please post.
>
> I just want anything, post anything please.
>
>
>
>
You sound like I did on Klonopin. I was past depressed... I was basically null and void.Do you ever feel like when you are down, no one cares? It's so hard. You want to call someone, but at the same time, who really wants to listen? There are so few people that really want to. I'm glad this board is here, because I feel like these are people that care and want to listen and want to help. Hang in there, and remember, we (the people that post on the board) care and we all want you to feel better. Other people have already posted stuff about talking to your pdoc or therapist, so I'm not going to repeat. You sounded more like you just needed someone to care.
I care.
-Bonnie
Posted by Larry Hoover on May 15, 2006, at 23:06:15
In reply to i have hit a all time low, posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:06:49
I sent you an email.
Lar
Posted by RobertDavid on May 16, 2006, at 2:16:08
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low -- robert dav, posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:50:03
> Rob,
> I dont have access to my doctor because of my mom who does have a personality disorder, she explodes gets paranoid. She is very controlling. She looks very happy, but she flucates inside like turmoil about past things.
>
> I am going to get throught this.
I'm glad to hear that you believe your going to get better. You will. But you need access to a doctor to help you. There must be some way you can see what. What are the issue that keeps your mom from preventing you to see a doctor? Does she have borderline personality disorter?As you can see there are lots of people praying and giving positive energy specifically to you. Carry that with you, know there are others here who care and want to help, that believe in you and understand how you feel. Your right, you will get through this! Let me know what issues your having seeing a doctor. I'm pulling for you like so many. You'll be okay, this is just a temporary situation! Rob
Posted by heaven help me on May 16, 2006, at 11:13:39
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low -- robert dav » rjlockhart, posted by RobertDavid on May 16, 2006, at 2:16:08
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Posted by notfred on May 16, 2006, at 18:27:26
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low -- robert dav, posted by rjlockhart on May 15, 2006, at 21:50:03
> Rob,
> I dont have access to my doctor because of my mom who does have a personality disorder, she explodes gets paranoid. She is very controlling. She looks very happy, but she flucates inside like turmoil about past things.
Matt,Where do all the benzos that you take come from if your mom will not let you see the pdoc ?
Posted by rjlockhart on May 17, 2006, at 17:10:44
In reply to Re: i have hit a all time low -- robert dav, posted by notfred on May 16, 2006, at 18:27:26
My mom goes with me to my doctor and i tell him what i am going through, but she will refuse to go at any other time.
The reason i take Xanax at such a high dosage is that i have panic attacks that im stuck at home, she does take me to the doctor about that.
She took me off dexedrine because she doesnt want me on stimulants which for a while i relied on, and she saw that and doesnt want me on stimuants because of addiction.
I dont like Xanax because it makes me sometimes depressed, but i go balistic when im at home.
I cant say much more.
Posted by rjlockhart on May 17, 2006, at 17:15:20
In reply to rjlockhart, how are you today??? (nm), posted by heaven help me on May 16, 2006, at 11:13:39
im depressed today. I feel i need to open up to others and i just freaking just lean up angainst the wall and fall down and just have feeling going insane, what is wrong. It gets to the point where i feel so isolated because of me.
I have to break these barriers that are here. I want to be more social. I havent posted for a while.
Thank you for posting
Very much
Matt
Posted by heaven help me on May 17, 2006, at 21:45:55
In reply to Re: rjlockhart, how are you today???, posted by rjlockhart on May 17, 2006, at 17:15:20
You are posting now, and anytime you share on here you are breaking down barriers. One step at a time. You are headed in the right direction.
I'm gonna pray for you again tonight.
God bless
Mary
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