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Posted by Vesper on February 28, 2000, at 19:37:01
I thought it would only be fair to let you who have been so generous and caring, know what's going on. I am doing somewhat better, I saw my psychiatrist today, from whom I learned that several people called her. I'm a little foggy still, so I can't remember exactly what happened, but I must reiterate my contrition for causing so much consternation here. I believe that perhaps I should sever my connection to forums such as these, because the paradox is that when I get into a position such as the one I was in the other night, I lose all judgement in these matters, and post things like I posted, upsetting lots of people. This is a wonderful place, but I feel as though one must be at a certain level of "wellness" to belong here. I regret to say that I am not at that level.
Thank you ever so much for helping me and for inviting me to stay here, but I do not know what I shall do. At least I can tell you that I am alive and doing fairly well at the moment, and your efforts have not been in vain.
Thank you
--Vesper
Posted by Rick on February 28, 2000, at 19:46:11
In reply to Doing better, and thank you, posted by Vesper on February 28, 2000, at 19:37:01
Vesper,
I am speaking for myself when I say this, but I presume that others will agree...you are welcome to post here no matter what condition you are in, in fact, if wellness were a prerequisite for posting here, this list may not exsist at all.
Please don't walk away from people who understand you the best...where does that leave you?RICK
Posted by Noa on February 28, 2000, at 20:21:49
In reply to Re: Doing better, and thank you, posted by Rick on February 28, 2000, at 19:46:11
> Vesper,
>
thanks for letting us know how you are doing. I am so glad you are ok.You said in a previous post that you were going to follow your pdoc's directions. What did she say you should do? I have to admit I am still surprised the pdoc has not insisted you go into the hospital.
Can you fill me in? Thanks.
Posted by Janice on February 28, 2000, at 20:57:01
In reply to Re: Doing better, and thank you, posted by Noa on February 28, 2000, at 20:21:49
I agree with Rick, if a certain level of wellness were necessary to participate, there would be very few people here.
We may be able to offer you some support Vesper.
I'm glad to know you're okay.
Janice
Posted by Noa on February 28, 2000, at 21:04:22
In reply to Re: Doing better, and thank you, posted by Janice on February 28, 2000, at 20:57:01
I agree, too. My pleas for you to go into the hospital do not mean I think you shouldn't be part of this community. I just want to to stay alive and safe, and the support you get here may not be enough by itself to help you stay safe.
It is definitely not enough when you are suicidal. But don't take that to mean I want you off the board. Hardly.
Posted by vesper on February 28, 2000, at 21:57:16
In reply to Doing better, and thank you, posted by Vesper on February 28, 2000, at 19:37:01
My Pdoc asked me if I were still suicidal, etc. and I said no. She then left the room as usual to get the attending for a short consult, and I left(kinda panicked when she was gone longer than usual) I have a therapy appointment tomorrow. I feel really guilty about April. If you really think I should stay around in this forum, I will try to give helpful input in future instead of just taking your energy...again, Im sorry
V.
Posted by Noa on February 28, 2000, at 22:12:13
In reply to Re: Doing better, and thank you, posted by vesper on February 28, 2000, at 21:57:16
Vesper, Yes, I do think you should stay with us.
I know I am being kind of intrusive, and I am sorry. But I am still concerned about you.
The thing about asking you the question, "Are you still suicidal", is that it seems to me your moods are very unpredictable, variable, and intense. So, sitting in the pdoc's office, maybe you did not feel suicidal. But what is different that would prevent you from feeling suicidal later in the day, from having a mood like the one you had Friday? And what is different from Friday that you are sure you wouldn't act on a suicidal thought, or urge?
I am thrilled if it is true that you do feel better and not suicidal. But because your moods seem to have a rapid way of fluctuating, I still feel very very nervous about you being overcome by a mood of despair and doing something like the OD on Friday.
BTW, what made you nervous about the length of time your pdoc was out consulting with the attending, or looking for the attending?
I hope you take all of these intrusive questions in the spirit they are asked--out of care and concern.
Posted by vesper on February 28, 2000, at 22:34:08
In reply to Re: Doing better, and thank you, posted by Noa on February 28, 2000, at 22:12:13
> Vesper, Yes, I do think you should stay with us.
>
> I know I am being kind of intrusive, and I am sorry. But I am still concerned about you.
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> The thing about asking you the question, "Are you still suicidal", is that it seems to me your moods are very unpredictable, variable, and intense. So, sitting in the pdoc's office, maybe you did not feel suicidal. But what is different that would prevent you from feeling suicidal later in the day, from having a mood like the one you had Friday? And what is different from Friday that you are sure you wouldn't act on a suicidal thought, or urge?
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> I am thrilled if it is true that you do feel better and not suicidal. But because your moods seem to have a rapid way of fluctuating, I still feel very very nervous about you being overcome by a mood of despair and doing something like the OD on Friday.
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> BTW, what made you nervous about the length of time your pdoc was out consulting with the attending, or looking for the attending?
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> I hope you take all of these intrusive questions in the spirit they are asked--out of care and concern.
I don't consider you intrusive at all. In fact, I am touched by your apparent concern. To answer your question, I was nervous that the attending pdoc would want to hospitalize me. I just panicked. So far, I still am pretty ok, although I don't know how I will feel when the klonopin finally wears off. I have a therapy appointment tomorrow, I suppose at that time all will be re-assessed. My pdoc did say she didn't want to make any med changes right now because of all the klonopin in my system (and some zyprexa).
I'm just kinda numb right now.(You know, "There is no pain, you are receding..."..etc.
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