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My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless

Posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 11:48:52

And finds it depressing himself. He too hoped this day would never come.

How can I hold out any hope at all if he doesn't?

It all boils down to my mother. When my father died, we lost any control over her at all. Now she has zero money. She gets a small pension each year and a very small amount of social security. Daddy left me some money to use to take care of her, but unavoidable expenses on her house top ten thousand dollars a year, because of insurance rates skyrocketing after Katrina.

Moreover she still doesn't have walls in her house. When Katrina hit, she was out of town with her siblings. She stayed out of town for many months after. Then she had a death in her family and had to leave again. That I understood. But on the way back, she visited every state in the US she hadn't yet visited, thus spending the rest of what she had been left by my father, and wasting over six months of time on the house.

She's a hoarder, and had stuff piled to the ceilings when she got ten or so inches of water. This actually worked to her advantage, since the stuff at the bottom of the piles captured a lot of the water, so her damage was not so bad as many in that mold did not grow in big clumps. But mold did grow. All this time she refused to let anyone throw anything away. And spent the next year having the people helping her box up all her stuff, including old catalogues and newspaper. Her church kept trying to come and help her, but she was never ready because the junk wasn't up yet. They had a volunteer certified electrician and plumber and everything. They kept giving her deadlines and she missed them. So finally the volunteers went to help at other disasters and she lost that chance. Her flood insurance was not sufficient to cover the damages but it, coupled with the help from her church, would have put everything right if she hadn't missed the help from the church and if she hadn't spent all the money on labor boxing up her hoards. Now the money's run out. She has to get her boxed up stuff out of storage, and there is simply no volume in her house (which still does not have internal walls) to put it in. If she manages to squeeze it in somehow, she won't be able to reach the walls to put wallboard on them. And there seems to be no hurry to do any of that anyway on her part.

I should add that at no point was she willing to accept my help, because she knew I wouldn't be crazy about boxing up damp moldy trash. And because I wanted to hire an actual professional.

She's got her rat problem under control for the moment at least. But her neighbors are ready to turn her in to the parish for her outside trash. Recycling ended here at Katrina, but she refuses to throw away her newspapers and bottles, and they're piled everywhere. Her neighbors got her leftover rats and they are determined she *has* to get rid of the trash around her house. They've held neighborhood meetings and everything, as I just discovered Friday when a neighbor caught me as I was going in.

This wouldn't be any of my business, I guess, except Daddy made me executor of the estate, which owns half the house. And when we come into possession, I'll control that half. But just the house. She lives there, and it's her stuff.

I don't make a huge amount, and I'm not terribly responsible with money myself, so I don't have huge reserves to fund all this. Even just paying the essentials, it'll only last a few years. If I have to pay for people to trim the trees, people to cut the grass, and people to haul off her trash and otherwise make the outside of her home acceptable to the government and her neighbors, it will last less than that.

She refuses to move. She refuses to do anything to change any of this. She is in total denial that it is a problem. And to add to that, she'd never have made the past few years without the family member who is staying with her to help with the house. With the money run out, there's no way to pay that family member any more, so what will she do then? She's hardly able to walk because of toe amputations. She frequently can't see because of retinopathy.

There's no point trying to have her declared incompetent, because that would take all my money in legal fees.

At this point my inclination is to renounce my father's estate, hand everything over to whoever, and tell both her and my brother that I never want to hear from them again. Or else take the final escape so that I'll be lucky like my father and not have to deal with this.

But that's not what Daddy wanted. He wanted me to make sure she had a roof over her head.

My therapist thinks it's hopeless. He doesn't even try to problem solve with me other than to say not to use the money I have to use to pay the insurance and taxes to pay to bail her out of what is the consequence of her own choices. But as far as the outside is concerned I have to, because I'll be responsible to the parish. And she screams and yells and I'm afraid of her. She only hit me a few times growing up, but her rages have always terrified everyone, including my father.

I don't know what to do, but I do know I need more from him, and he has nothing more to give.

My husband detests my mother, and wants me to walk away. I don't know if I *can*. She may not be clinically insane, and she seems more stubborn than nuts. But clearly she must be both. She's done so much for me. How can I walk away when I know that walking away will end up with her taking loans on the house and losing it, with no means to live anywhere else. And she is *not* living with me.

I just want *out*.

 

I'm approaching hysteria just writing that

Posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 11:59:30

In reply to My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 11:48:52

I've contacted the local organization that helps the elderly. No help.

I tried to have the social workers address the hoarding when they took daddy into protective custody until mother agreed to get the equipment and help he needed to stay home safely and hygienically. They were only interested in the area he was in.

I tried turning her into the DMV. They weren't interested. And she passed her vision test after surgery.

I've even tried calling the parish. They had no help for me either. Not even the fire inspector.

 

Re: I'm approaching hysteria just writing that Dinah

Posted by Phillipa on July 7, 2008, at 12:52:21

In reply to I'm approaching hysteria just writing that, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 11:59:30

Dinah wow if your therapist says no help I sure can't help but can say I care about what is effecting you as not good for your health at all. I honestly don't know what to say. Except I'm so sorry. Love Phillipa

 

Re: I'm approaching hysteria just writing that Phillipa

Posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 13:26:00

In reply to Re: I'm approaching hysteria just writing that Dinah, posted by Phillipa on July 7, 2008, at 12:52:21

Thanks, Phillipa. I'm not sure my coping mechanisms are up for a situation where I have responsibility but as far as I can see have no power.

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless

Posted by muffled on July 7, 2008, at 14:19:51

In reply to My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 11:48:52

Sigh, I am so sorry Dinah that you are in this position.
Unfortunately when dealing with mental issues, its all too common to not be able to get the help you need :-(
I understand what your T is saying. If you and your bro have made it clear to your mother wassup, and she still will not 'deal', then there is little you can do. You can try and find help for her, but good luck with that.
I s'pose you can keep an eye, or ask parish to keep an eye on her, and if it degenerates too badly, then maybe she can be put in a home of some sort, which of course, once again, is a HUGE mine field.
I suppose potentially you could rally the neighbors to help, get someone to lure your mom away for a weekend, then while she is gone, get all to pitch in and help clean out all the CRAP. Your mom will return, and either completely freak and end up institutionalized for a time, or, she will adapt to the reality of her situation. Sher may never want to see you again....oh well.....mebbe thats for the best.
But what I fear, and I thinkl your T fears, is that you will try and help out your mom to the ruin of yourownself. Your own family needs you, you need to take care of them, you have left momma long ago to have your OWN family, they must take priority over mom. You HAVE tried to help your ma, but there is only so much anyone can do. At some point, in order to protect your OWN family, you may have to just walk away. Tell your extended family your tried, but you cannot, will not deal with all this denial any longer. Your first priority is your own household.
Its not easy, it hurts, it sucks, its completely unfair.
I think your T is likely willing to support you emotionally thru this, but I think he at the same time is wanting YOU to realize the reality here.....and the reality is you are only human, some aspects of life completely suck(not ALL), and you DO have choices to make, hard ones :-( But please keep your own household in mind as you make these choices.
Protect THEM.
They love you and care for you and want for you to be there.
Don't destroy yourself over some batty old lady(YES she is your mom, and you can still love her, but you can preserve yourownself by keeping distant).
Say the words you need to say to her, and then if needed, WALK AWAY.
I get so angered by the lack of help for people in these types of situations.
Hang in there Dinah.
Know you got a good heart.
Your stressed cuz you care.
Hope this makes sense, I kinda fuzzy.
((((Dinah))))
M
(PS, upon review, this seems harsh, but Iknow you will understand where I am comming from Dinah)
(pss, I am not deeply attached to my own mom, so maybe I come across cold, but I have a large emotional distance from my mom. I don't feel good about it, but I don't beat myself up over it either. She is a grown woman, and makes her own choices. She could change things if she wanted, or if she were mentally able, but I guess she's not, and I am not well enuf myself to deal with it. Its VERY sad to me, she gonna die and it will be too late, but I have to accept it just one of the uglinessess in my life, and try not to let it drag me down, sucks, but I dunno what else to do. I need to be there for my kids. I am trying my best. I am only human. S'pose the same could be said for my ma. I am not angry at her. I just can't deal w/her. Its just the way it is. I expect I'll be a batty old lady myself, and I'd hope my kids will walk away as need be, cuz I NEVER would want to drag them down.)

 

((((((((((((((((((((((((Dinah))))))))))))))))))))) (nm)

Posted by muffled on July 7, 2008, at 14:21:47

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by muffled on July 7, 2008, at 14:19:51

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled

Posted by rskontos on July 7, 2008, at 14:48:42

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by muffled on July 7, 2008, at 14:19:51

Dinah,

I agree with Muffled. You know the old saying you can lead a horse to water but you can't make them drink. You can not make your mother want the help that is available to her. You father did what he did because he wanted help for her but there are limits to what is to be expected of you with that request. When you try to deal with someone that doesn't listen as she is there is nothing else you can do except as muffled suggested to lure her away clean it up and present it after the deed is done. And say I did what is necessary, I am sorry you don't approve.
Then leave it at that.

Phillipa and muffled are right you can't make yourself upset and hurt over this. She is your mother and responsible for her own actions just like you are responsible for yours.

She has made this the mess it is. Either leave her to deal with the aftermath, fool her and clean it up, or say I have done all I can and like the Kenny Rogers song says Know when to fold the cards and walk away.

Good luck, but don't make yourself sick. or bleed your heart over this.

rsk

 

Re:oops above is for Dinah, my bad (nm)

Posted by rskontos on July 7, 2008, at 16:10:13

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled, posted by rskontos on July 7, 2008, at 14:48:42

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless Dinah

Posted by raisinb on July 7, 2008, at 16:18:37

In reply to My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 11:48:52

Dinah, that is a terrible situation. It doesn't sound like your therapist thinks your situation is hopeless, but rather like he doesn't want you to risk more of your finances and well-being trying to fix the situation.

I know it's hard not to feel responsible for a parent, especially one who's not quite competent--and for some reason, people often feel more responsible for abusive caregivers than they do for others. But I agree with your therapist and the others. There doesn't seem to be any more you can do here. And even if you can, would it help in the long run? Would your efforts fix the situation, or even make it a little bit better? Wouldn't your mother resist more, forget more deadlines?

It sounds like you've exhausted all the potential help there is. You can hire services who send people to check in with her once or twice a week (my family does it for my grandmother, who has Alzheimer's). If your mother won't accept it, though, then what can you do? Honestly, this might be harsh, but it sounds like a big part of her just doesn't want help and will sabotage any efforts.

I'm sorry you are having to go through this. It just sounds impossible.

((((((Dinah)))))))

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled

Posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 16:33:54

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by muffled on July 7, 2008, at 14:19:51

The problem is that I don't think she's actually the sort of crazy that would get her locked up. It's hard for me to think of her as being mentally ill. I can wrap my mind around it sometimes. But I have a lifetime of thinking of her as someone who really really likes to get her own way, at any cost to others or to herself.

And of course she's not all bad. As she gets older, the bad shows more. Or maybe it's just more upsetting to me now without Daddy.

I don't have much time to walk away. Once Daddy's estate is settled, I'll be in control of half of the house, and legally responsible for any fines or other problems. And since she has no money, I doubt fines will bother her much. She'll know I will have to pay them.

If I'm going to walk away forever, I have to decide soon.

It never really occurred to me until faced with the reality of all of this. I wanted to do what Daddy wanted me to do. Make sure she had someplace to live.

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless rskontos

Posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 16:41:25

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled, posted by rskontos on July 7, 2008, at 14:48:42

I need to stop being so afraid of her. I've gotten better at dealing with her because I could walk away. But in this, I can't walk away. I'll be legally trapped.

Really, what can she do? All she can do is yell and scream and threaten. Why does that scare me so darn much? I need to stop avoiding and grow some backbone. :(

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless raisinb

Posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 16:49:31

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless Dinah, posted by raisinb on July 7, 2008, at 16:18:37

She would only accept help under her own terms. But as I told Muffled, unless I decide soon to walk away, I'm going to be stuck with her legally because of the house. I hate to have to make a decision. I know what I want to do, but I don't know that it's the right thing to do.

I called my therapist today when I started panicking, but told him if he was too busy he didn't need to call. So of course he didn't. Never give my therapist an out. That's how very much he cares.

He really does think it's hopeless. He refers to it sometimes as if he is the person stuck, not me. Perhaps it pushes some personal buttons for him. But he seems to have been avoiding, hiding, and hoping it goes away as much as I have. And just as much a deer caught in the headlights as I am.

But I guess neither he nor anyone else is going to rescue me. I suppose my husband would like to slay the dragons, but he can't. And my Daddy, who was my ultimate rescuer, is the one who put me in this position.

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless

Posted by muffled on July 7, 2008, at 18:57:08

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 16:33:54

Do you mind to lose the half house that is yours?
Can you sign it over to another family member?
Can your mother declare bankruptcy?
Can you get some decent legal advice?
I think for a few hundred you could get some decent advice on what your options are. ARE you responsible for fines? It may be so. Dunno.
You might even be able to get legal aid for your Mom cuz she is poor, and have it go thru her end. Then at least you know what your looking at as far as financial responsibility, and whether you should just sign off and walk away from the house etc.
This is just practicalities I know.
There's the emotional aspect too of course.
Do you think daddy wouild want you to be suffering over this? I somehow doubt that this is what he intended to happen.
Anyhow, at this point she DOES have someplace to live, if she f's it up...well....
And as far as anger...I could deal with someone smacking me around WAY better than verbal crap. HATE angry words.
This is just a crummy situation.
But I think if you keep bailing her out, your just postponing the inevitable, or, she is gonna take down your household as well as hers...:-(
Its just lousy, but it might be nice to at least have some facts at hand, just for somer peace of mind.
Take care Dinah.
You can get thru this, I just feel badly for you cuz its gonna be hard.
Keep posting if it helps.
M

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled

Posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 19:33:52

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by muffled on July 7, 2008, at 18:57:08

Thanks, Muffled. And you're right. I do need to get some legal advice before I do anything I can't reverse.

I don't mind walking away from anything from my point of view. Even if I cared about the money, the yearly cost will eat up any equity anyway. It's just that Daddy specifically left it this way to protect her as much as he could.

You're also right about my being dragged down with her. There's no way I can be a big enough lifeboat for her and still stay afloat myself. Especially when she keeps poking holes in whatever help people send her way.

I'll call the attorney tomorrow to see what my rights and options are. Once I have more knowledge I should feel less trapped. Funny how when I felt fated to go through this I wasn't as anxious as when I realized I had a way out, if only I choose to take it.

No matter what I do, it won't be easy.

I so much want to remember the good things about my mother. There were a lot of good things.

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless

Posted by Lucie Lu on July 7, 2008, at 20:06:00

In reply to My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 11:48:52


Dinah, that is such a horrible situation :( and an awful dilemma for you to be presented with. When I first read your story I felt really bad - and yet oddly immobilized and couldn't think of anything to say. Then I read the posts from the others (they were really good) and I realized why I felt so immobilized. Growing up with alcoholic parents, I often felt hopeless and immobilized like this as they seemed to be systematically ruining their health and lives. I have to say that even as an adult I was rarely able to work through most of their problems, which were abundant because alcoholics have this infuriating genius capability to get themselves and you in no-win positions. And yet, unbelievably (at least to me), just as I felt most hopeless, they'd turn around and somehow land on their feet in some crazy way I never would have anticipated. And other people, who did not have the same frame of reference as me, often could come up with alternative viewpoints or ideas about that wouldn't have made it into my brain. But I understand your feelings and how dscouraged and torn you must feel. All I can suggest is to keep talking to people, to anyone, tell your story as many times as you can stand it, and I really believe someone out there will appear to help you. Or she will somehow manage to do things her own way and get by without your help.
Sorry I can't be more help, it's a blind spot of mine, but if you keep posting, I promise I'll keep trying.

Wishing you all the best, Lucie

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless Dinah

Posted by Poet on July 7, 2008, at 20:11:40

In reply to My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 11:48:52

Hi Dinah,

I think you should get legal advice as to what to do about your half of the house. It will cost you whatever the attorney charges, but in the long run it will save you worry and money finding out before the property is fined for code violations. If you know who drew up your father's Will, I would try calling that attorney as s/he would be familiar with the terms and conditions. Also who has power of attorney for financial matters if your mother is deemed incompetent? You should find that out, too, if it isn't you.

I can understand if you just want to walk away, but first find out legally what obligations you might have before you do.

Poet

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless Dinah

Posted by llurpsienoodle on July 7, 2008, at 20:23:22

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 19:33:52

Dinah,
you have a good head on your shoulders, and a good heart too. I think muff already gave much much better advice than I can concoct, and you know a lot about the resources available to you. Have courage to contact a lawyer and do the follow through. It is gargantuan, and your mother may be hopeless to help herself but I believe in YOUR ability to help yourself. That much is certain. You gotta take care of you, Dinah, and who best to know how than YOU!?

((((Dinah))))

-Ll

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless

Posted by Phillipa on July 7, 2008, at 20:31:57

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless Dinah, posted by llurpsienoodle on July 7, 2008, at 20:23:22

Dinah when you made that promise to your Dad he had no idea that this would happen and I believe he would want what is best for you. Your Mom is getting old and you have a family and responsibility first to them. And a sick Dinah would not be able to care for them or herself or work. See the attorney. Love Phillipa

 

Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless

Posted by backseatdriver on July 7, 2008, at 20:58:49

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled, posted by rskontos on July 7, 2008, at 14:48:42

Dinah, I wish there was something I knew to say. My first and still only response is, please, please, let yourself off the hook. More and more, I am starting to think that generational responsibility only goes forward in time, parent to child, and not the reverse.

 

Thanks everyone

Posted by Dinah on July 8, 2008, at 0:01:37

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless, posted by backseatdriver on July 7, 2008, at 20:58:49

I took some anxiety medication and am feeling less panicky. At least marginally. I have a plan to call the lawyer tomorrow. He set up the will, so he should know what I can do or can't do.

And I suppose I should acknowledge that I'm angry with my therapist. Not only for not calling me today, but for being so negative too. And for not being any real life help. What on earth is he good for, anyway? Not only is he constrained by his role, but somehow he always manages to be tied up when I'm having a crisis. I can't count on him for anything except for being consistently unhelpful.

 

Re: Muffled thinks my situation is hard...

Posted by muffled on July 8, 2008, at 0:02:32

In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless muffled, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 19:33:52

>It's just that Daddy specifically left it this way to protect her as much as he could.

* he sounds like a good man. Yes he did what he could. You done what you could. People have tried, and thats good to know.

> Especially when she keeps poking holes in whatever help people send her way.

*ya...well said :-( and unfortunately true. I am glad you are able to recognize this.

> I'll call the attorney tomorrow to see what my rights and options are. Once I have more knowledge I should feel less trapped. Funny how when I felt fated to go through this I wasn't as anxious as when I realized I had a way out, if only I choose to take it.

*its just lousy, no matter what, its just lousy :-( But knowing you are making informed descions and not just shooting from the hip is good. You can rest some knowing you are doing your best...guess your daddy knew that about you. I think he would be sad about this situ, but at the same time proud that you are taking care of yourself as best as you are able.
I hope the attorney is able to be helpful. Maybe you could write down some questions in advance. Is there anyone you trust to come with you?

> No matter what I do, it won't be easy.

*ya...you got that right. But you can know you have done the best you could given what you had to work with. You are hanging on and making the best descions you can. No matter what happens, we all know you did all that you could know to do, sadly, at some point there just is nothing more to be done.

> I so much want to remember the good things about my mother. There were a lot of good things.

* of course there were good things.
Maybe you can tell us some?
My ma was OK mostly. She loved us kids so much. I never ever felt she didn't love me. She tried real hard and did the best she could. Just life throws you curve balls y'know.
You deal with what you got, for better or worse, you live out your life as your able.
Like I say, I fully anticipate that I may end my time getting killed or dying of exposure on the street. Seems like my fate somehow. But it will be my choice. I will make my own descions. I just hope my kids can let me go and do what I will do, cuz I don't want to hurt them.
Ya...so I'm nuts...never said I wasn't!!!
Try to find some smiles where you can.
Here's one now comming your way...catch it!
:-)...no! TWO!!!!
:-)
Take care,
M

 

Re: Thanks everyone

Posted by muffled on July 8, 2008, at 0:11:22

In reply to Thanks everyone, posted by Dinah on July 8, 2008, at 0:01:37

> And I suppose I should acknowledge that I'm angry with my therapist. Not only for not calling me today, but for being so negative too. And for not being any real life help. What on earth is he good for, anyway? Not only is he constrained by his role, but somehow he always manages to be tied up when I'm having a crisis. I can't count on him for anything except for being consistently unhelpful.

*hmmmm, yeah, I reckon I kinda pissed at him too, you can say I said that.
However, that being said...you guys do seem to have this kinda cool relationship....
So maybe he will come round. He usually does once you give him sh*t.
So I guess he IS there for you...just in his own funny way.
Which, while incredibly frustrating, seems to mostly give you something to hang onto somehow.
It was kinda that way with my old T.
You just give him a good Dinah-style talking to, like you know how to do.
Let us know how it goes...
(((Dinah)))
You not alone, we all here with you, as best we can in cyberspace.
Least we can validate that your concerns are on target and you not off in left field somewhere.
You thinking is on target.
This is just damn hard.
Take care,
M

 

He called this morning! (Mild trigger?)

Posted by Dinah on July 8, 2008, at 8:43:01

In reply to Re: Thanks everyone, posted by muffled on July 8, 2008, at 0:11:22

Now what good is that? He called while I was getting ready to see him to tell me that he realized that he had forgotten to call me yesterday. That he started to call me several times, but forgot or got distracted then it slipped his mind.

Wow. I feel better. Love to be forgotten and mind slipped.

I also realized why I'm more annoyed with him than usual. Last session he made a joke about my mother driving me to slit my throat. I sorta don't find that funny.

Plus, I think I'm sick. Cold or allergies. That probably is influencing my views too. :(

 

Re: Muffled thinks my situation is hard... muffled

Posted by Dinah on July 8, 2008, at 8:49:06

In reply to Re: Muffled thinks my situation is hard..., posted by muffled on July 8, 2008, at 0:02:32

> * he sounds like a good man. Yes he did what he could. You done what you could. People have tried, and thats good to know.

Yeah. He was a good man. Not flawless, but a good man who tried to take care of his family. Almost to a fault.

> Like I say, I fully anticipate that I may end my time getting killed or dying of exposure on the street. Seems like my fate somehow. But it will be my choice. I will make my own descions. I just hope my kids can let me go and do what I will do, cuz I don't want to hurt them.

Now I have to be selfish there, and say that I hope that isn't your fate. That instead you live a long life that ends at a very old age peacefully of natural causes, with your children by your side. That's how Daddy died, and it seemed like a not bad way to go, since going is inevitable. I care about you too much to want to see you hurt.

 

Re: He called this morning! (Mild trigger?)

Posted by muffled on July 8, 2008, at 9:04:09

In reply to He called this morning! (Mild trigger?), posted by Dinah on July 8, 2008, at 8:43:01

> Now what good is that? He called while I was getting ready to see him to tell me that he realized that he had forgotten to call me yesterday. That he started to call me several times, but forgot or got distracted then it slipped his mind.
>
> Wow. I feel better. Love to be forgotten and mind slipped.

*UGH!!! Manoman, my oldT said same type things! It would SO piss me off. DUUUUUUUUUUHHHHH, do they NOT have a clue how that must come across????? Like twice my T said when I say to her 'we never go for a walk, you said we might walk...', she wrote or phoned and said 'oh I WAS going to phone you but my kids came over for a visit and talked and talked...' OH...OK so your kids who you see at least several times a week made you completely dump me, wh you not seen in THREE weeks....OOOOOOOOOOO K....I feel valued....
Sigh.
Guess the T's are only human....

> I also realized why I'm more annoyed with him than usual. Last session he made a joke about my mother driving me to slit my throat. I sorta don't find that funny.

* I hope you tell him that, he should know that comment was in poor taste.

> Plus, I think I'm sick. Cold or allergies. That probably is influencing my views too. :(


*ya, stress can make you more susceptable to illness, and illness makes things more stressful....arrrgggh.
You'll get thru this.
Tough row to hoe. (I was a farmer)
Take care,
Be kind but FIRM in explaining to T what you want/need from him, and ask him point blank, is he willing to step up to the plate for you cuz this is a REALLY hard time for you, and FORGETTING to call just does NOT cut it.
Take care,
M
(PS...as for my fate, thats what makes it seem inevitable....cuz oddly, it does not seem a bad fate to me...if it is my choice to do so...)


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