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Dependency - Dinah

Posted by fallsfall on April 18, 2003, at 7:55:38

Ouch, that must really hurt! Years of a good relationship changed because of one action...

You really have my sympathies. I'm always afraid my therapist will say that I'm too dependant. So far his attitude is that it means therapy is working, and I'll grow past it. But I'm afraid that one day he'll think it's past time I grew.

I just wanted to send some warm thoughts your way. I think I know how much you must be hurting.



Your thoughts are very appreciated.

This is the worst I have ever felt. I saw my pdoc yesterday (they work in the same office) and he is available for me to talk to about the situation with my therapist. Problem was that as I started to talk about it the agony really hit me. I guess I bury most of it pretty deeply most of the time. I see him again in 2 weeks (and not because my meds need tweeking). I am trying hard to work through the issues with her, but for the first time in 8 years she doesn't seem to understand a lot of what I'm trying to say. I want to know if she is different or if I am different, but I haven't figured out how to determine that yet. At this point I feel hopeless about everything in my life, including therapy.

There are different degrees of dependence. You are right that some dependence is good in a therapy relationship. I guess that I can tell that I'm in trouble because therapy is more important to me than anything else in my life. I know that she is giving me something that I didn't get growing up, and I need that so desperately. If you can keep therapy in perspective, then you are doing OK.

In the meantime, everytime I see a friend I insist on getting a hug.


Re: Dependency fallsfall

Posted by Dinah on April 18, 2003, at 8:45:55

In reply to Dependency - Dinah, posted by fallsfall on April 18, 2003, at 7:55:38

I don't think I keep therapy in perspective too well. I'm planning to kill myself if he ever terminates me. I have it planned. I did tell him to hospitalize me if he terminates me in one of my more lucid moments. He forgot and I reminded him recently. I wonder if he will forget again?

He's my sole only source of safety. I feel bad, then I see him and I feel better. He's magic. I couldn't live without him.

I hope you can work things out with your therapist. And if, god forbid, you can't, I really hope you're saner than I am. Because I wouldn't advocate my plan for anyone else.


Re: Dependency Dinah

Posted by noa on April 18, 2003, at 13:04:20

In reply to Re: Dependency fallsfall, posted by Dinah on April 18, 2003, at 8:45:55

Dinah are you still holding on to that plan?

If you can get so much out of therapy from this therapist, it means you have the ability to 1) carry with you what you've gotten from him, and 2) be able to find another therapist that you can work well with and get what you need from.

When you gonna give that plan up, kiddo?


Re: My sincere apologies fallsfall

Posted by Dinah on April 19, 2003, at 8:43:05

In reply to Dependency - Dinah, posted by fallsfall on April 18, 2003, at 7:55:38

I'm afraid my normal shields were down yesterday, and my crazy side a bit too close to the surface. I was moved to respond a bit too honestly to your comment about perspective, I'm afraid.

I didn't mean to startle you.


Re: Dependency noa

Posted by Dinah on April 19, 2003, at 18:04:52

In reply to Re: Dependency Dinah, posted by noa on April 18, 2003, at 13:04:20

I'm afraid that I am, Noa. And I wish it were possible to convince myself intellectually that my transference could be... transferred. But the attachment is on a more visceral level that is not easily accessible by logic. He *is* the mother dog to my blind pup (altho he isn't too crazy about that analogy).

On a more rational level of my being, I'm not even sure that he is a world class therapist. Although, after reading a lot of the stories I've read here, I tend to think he's pretty good.


Re: My sincere apologies Dinah

Posted by fallsfall on April 19, 2003, at 19:49:25

In reply to Re: My sincere apologies fallsfall, posted by Dinah on April 19, 2003, at 8:43:05

Not a problem, Dinah. My only reaction was that I hoped that you would work on the dependency before a problem occurred in your theraputic relationship. It's a lot easier to work on an issue when you are still speaking to your therapist.

I have enough friends who are fragile (2 suicide attempts by friends in the last 6 months) so it takes a lot to shock me. But I am always sad that people are feeling that badly. It's just not a fun place to be.

Part of my problem is that I believed that I could stay with my therapist forever - well, until she retired. She doesn't seem to agree. Fortunately, I won't leave my children (yet). So I have some time to work this out.


Re: Forever therapy fallsfall

Posted by Dinah on April 19, 2003, at 22:26:23

In reply to Re: My sincere apologies Dinah, posted by fallsfall on April 19, 2003, at 19:49:25

My therapist sometimes accuses me of wanting guarantees of that. And he is frustrated because he says he can't give it. But he has given my assurances that he won't stop therapy just because he thinks it has gone on long enough. And he jokes about retiring and having me as his last client or getting so old that he'll be falling asleep and jabbering nonsense and I won't even be able to tell he's changed. Those are just jokes though. I'm sure he expects that I will outgrow the dependence.

But I'm not in pain over it yet. And perhaps I never will be. Perhaps I'll predecease him before his retirement, or perhaps I'll outgrow the dependence. Any number of things could happen.

But I guess I do anticipate that I'll be his client until he retires or moves. And he's pretty much said that's okay. I think.


Re: Forever therapy Dinah

Posted by judy1 on April 20, 2003, at 18:45:06

In reply to Re: Forever therapy fallsfall, posted by Dinah on April 19, 2003, at 22:26:23

Hi Dinah,
just a gut feeling that as you improve (and I know that's difficult to believe sometimes), the dependency issue will work itself out- and I just bet that's how your therapist feels. Since my disastrous relationship with my ex-shrink, I have never become dependent on any subsequent pdocs or therps- I know it's a way of protecting myself. I do feel I trust both of my docs now, I just am not dependent on them- sometimes going 2 months w/o seeing either of them (and not missing them). I value both and feel they help me- but I truly don't know if my 'distancing' has hindered progress, although not going for extended periods certainly must have an effect. sorry for rambling, I do understand feeling dependent and the fears of abandonment that go hand-in-hand. take care, judy


Re: Forever therapy judy1

Posted by Dinah on April 20, 2003, at 21:38:36

In reply to Re: Forever therapy Dinah, posted by judy1 on April 20, 2003, at 18:45:06

Thanks Judy. And you know, I rather suspect you're right, although you're also right in that it's difficult to believe. :)

He's been "challenging" me a lot more lately (perhaps with that goal in mind) and I've been ending up with a salt crusted briny face from spouting tears like the Tivoli fountain. And I don't usually find it easy to cry. Ah well, progress of a sort I suppose.


Re: Forever therapy Dinah

Posted by fallsfall on April 21, 2003, at 7:20:41

In reply to Re: Forever therapy fallsfall, posted by Dinah on April 19, 2003, at 22:26:23

Is your therapist accepting new patients?

Mine was talking about cutting back to every other week. I can't handle every week. We had agreed to get me "stable" before working on the dependency. Somehow I don't feel stable if I'm actively planning suicide (granted, 3 years down the road), feel like I have no therapist, unable to confide in friends, only doing laundry because I spilled chocolate ice cream on my only pair of comfortable pants, hoping that my husband (we're separated) wants to cook dinner for the kids because I don't want to decide what to cook, shop, cook, or clean up, or even have the confusion of the kids being here for dinner. If she wants one thing and I want something else, if I can come up with a plan to get to where she wants to go, but do it my way, she usually will agree.

I did have a 2 year period when I was doing pretty well, and I had even progressed far enough to make a next appointment 3 months out. So I was feeling independent enough for that. But... I crashed 2 months into the 3 months. Sigh.

I see her tomorrow. And, as she would say, "I feel like I'm doing all of the work around here".

P.S. She won't allow my dependency to continue because she says it isn't healthy for me. (What a caring soul)

P.P.S. I love the Subject line: Forever Therapy.


Re: Forever therapy fallsfall

Posted by Dinah on April 21, 2003, at 8:17:30

In reply to Re: Forever therapy Dinah, posted by fallsfall on April 21, 2003, at 7:20:41

Chuckle. He definitely does have openings, and the more cynical side of me wonders about my steady income and his attitude.

He does see the danger of too much dependency, not as much as I would like, but he does. And he both does and doesn't think it's healthy. He thinks it's very healthy as a stage in someone who doesn't trust easily. Not so healthy if it continues indefinitely. After a few disastrous attempts to convey that to me, we've agreed on this "It's okay for me to alwyas feel safe with him, but he hopes that I will also have other ways of making myself feel safe."

I must confess that before I broached the subject with him, when it was still just an internal fear corroding our therapy, I did tons of research on supportive therapy. When it was indicated, how it was conducted, etc. Then when the time was right and he brought up "growth", I brought up seeing therapy as insulin to a diabetic, and thought of therapy as a lifelong adjunct to meds to control a lifelong condition. I asked him if growth was necessary or if just not getting worse was a worthwhile goal. We agreed that not getting worse was a fine goal, so long as growth was also a goal.

The funny thing was that once that fear was removed, and my overwhelming fear of abandonment was thus assuaged, progress started happening. And continues to happen. Our therapy was able to move forward into other issues rather than just percolating on abandonment fears (altho they crop up and we have to go back and work on them from time to time). I don't *feel* better yet for this new work, and sometimes I feel less stable overall. And he's quit expressing his frustration that he doesn't seem able to help me, or as your therapist said, that he is doing all the work.

How does your therapist feel about supportive therapy. Is it just the frequency of sessions that concerns her? Won't that wax and wane with what's going on in therapy and in the rest of your life. It sounds as if you've had some trauma lately. Two friends attempting suicide? A separation from your husband? I'm going twice a week now, which seems to allow us to wade into deeper therapeutic waters than once a week. But I certainly hope I won't always be going twice a week.

Do you feel like you can transfer the transference if need be to another therapist? There are several of us here in long term therapy so it can't be that all therapists are opposed. There's my problem. Even if I can obtain therapy for the rest of my life, I don't see that as useful. I do want forever therapy. :) He's the second therapist I've had, but the first I really did therapy with, and I'm somehow convinced that he's magic. :))


Re: Forever therapy Dinah

Posted by fallsfall on April 21, 2003, at 10:22:03

In reply to Re: Forever therapy fallsfall, posted by Dinah on April 21, 2003, at 8:17:30

My therapist still worries that I'm not getting better (and that is a reasonable worry). 18 months ago I did a bad thing. I typed her name in a search engine and collected some information about her (personal) life from there and other sources. I ended up with her address and phone number, email address, her husband and kids' names, her AIM screenname. I put her on my buddy list and watched when she was online. She almost threw me out. I understand why. 2 months ago, I searched on her name again. I read a couple of articles she had written, and then found a committee she was on - and her name was a link. I followed the link, and it was email - with her email address again. I closed the windows and said "I'm not going there". That was the incident that started the current crisis. I was searching on her to find a picture, or something that would help me feel connected. I was feeling needy that day and there was a snowstorm so I was afraid that our session would be cancelled. We had the session and I told her what I did (she asked why I told her - hello! I tell you everything). She said she wasn't mad (the professional side of her), but I could tell that she really was (the personal side of her - she has since agreed that she was mad). Two weeks later she talked about throwing me out because I was too dependent. I (somehow) lived through that week. She consulted with my pdoc (across the hall) and decided I could stay. Now I'm afraid to talk to her because I don't want to make her mad. We're working on that. It's like she's a completely different person. I am willing to work on the dependency stuff. I know that has to be done. But between her coldness now and threats of going from weekly to every other week, I am a basket case.

I left my husband 4 years ago. Best thing I ever did. So that is pretty even now.

All of my friends have mental illnesses. Even when I think I'm making friends with someone normal, they turn out to have BiPolar. But the 2 friends who attempted are 2 of my 3 best friends (the 3rd has been in therapy for 14 years). For each of them I am their best friend. They both were really serious and wanted to succeed. Last week one of them and I took another friend to the hospital, we visited her yesterday. My therapist keeps telling me to get some healthy friends. But that takes a lot of effort (and I don't have a lot of energy). So, yeah there is a bit of stress in my life. The funny thing is that I don't feel like I can unburden myself on these friends, partly because they are having their own issues. They haven't turned me away - I haven't asked (but I am starting to ask now). I need to work on that.

I went to a couple of groups 8 years ago, and when this first started going down with my therapist I went to see one of my old group leaders. I wasn't crazy about her group - it was pretty confrontational, and I was really fragile, and she didn't step in at all - but I liked the individual sessions getting ready to join the group, and she gave me some sessions when my therapist was on vacation. It was wonderful to see her. She was very helpful, I felt cared for. I was frantic when I saw her and she calmed me down. So yes, I think I could live with a different therapist. And some days I think that would be easier than living through this with mine. I feel like she's not there for me, so it is like the dependency has been broken, but I have to deal with it by myself because I "don't" have a therapist.

I feel a little better today than I have been feeling. But I see her tomorrow.

I appreciate your conversation.


Re: Forever therapy

Posted by Dinah on April 21, 2003, at 12:01:09

In reply to Re: Forever therapy Dinah, posted by fallsfall on April 21, 2003, at 10:22:03

You know, what you did was not so terrible. It wasn't the wisest choice and I wouldn't suggest you do it again, but you didn't hurt anyone. Have you ever read "In Session: The Bond Between Women and Their Therapists" by Deborah Lott? Similar things aren't all that uncommon.

And to be angry with you for making the right choice the second time it came up wasn't fair. You chose not to go there again, and she should have been pleased with you. I *know* looking up our therapists/pdocs/etc. on google isn't a sin.

There was a woman who posted here a while back who had found out her therapist's address and driven by her house. The therapist was really mad at her about it. I asked my therapist about it at the time. I know he was wondering if I had asked because I had done it (I hadn't). But he said that it was perfectly normal for people who are feeling distressed and who are attached to their therapists to want some further connection with them. To want to know what they are like, where they live, etc. He said that although he wouldn't be pleased about it, he wouldn't be angry either if all she did was drive by his house.

I don't know. I do think that it was wise of you not to do what you did the first time, put her on your friends list and all. But I think maybe she should give you some credit for that... And for being honest with you. That couldn't have been easy for you.

I understand why therapists would be uneasy about their personal information and their personal lives. But I liked my therapist's understanding and matter of fact attitude about why a patient might do it.

I'm fortunate in that I don't want anything from him outside of therapy (and in fact ran like a startled hare when I accidentally heard him in a bookstore once). And I understand the desire for a photo too, although I barely remember what my therapist looks like and a photo would be no use to me. He made a relaxation tape for me though, as a link to him when he wasn't around. And I call his answering machine sometimes just to hear his voice and feel connected. He knows and is completely ok with that, even encourages it.


Re: Above post for (nm) fallsfall

Posted by Dinah on April 21, 2003, at 12:02:31

In reply to Re: Forever therapy Dinah, posted by fallsfall on April 21, 2003, at 10:22:03


Re: Forever therapy

Posted by noa on April 21, 2003, at 12:41:33

In reply to Re: Forever therapy Dinah, posted by fallsfall on April 21, 2003, at 10:22:03


I have difficulty "getting" why a therapist would stop therapy or make sessions less frequent because of dependency issues. It makes no sense to me.

I think you need a therapist who isn't threatened by your dependency issues.

If you or she are concerned that you will go too far in your probing about her, then she can make a contract with you about that, and about not acting on urges to violate any boundaries. I don't know if you went beyond what is in the public domain in your search. If in the public domain, it isn't a problem, but if you "hacked" a bit, then a contract could include not doing that. But in my mind, whatever is in public domain is just that--public.

When I was not doing so well, my therapist suggested twice per week sessions. I've been going 2x week for a few years now. I find it really helps with continuity. I don't feel so afraid to open up hard issues because it isn't so long in between sessions. I am not sure how long I'll continue with the 2x week, but for now it works.

I never felt quite as dependent on this therapist as my first therapist whom I saw for 10 years in another city. But that dependency dwindled over time. Otherwise, I wouldn't have been able to make the move to another city!

Earlier in my therapy with current therapist, I was really curious just like you. I did name search on line and only found one reference, to a consulting firm owned by his wife, that he was listed as part of. I also looked up his home address in the phone book and drove by the house. But of course, I told him that right away. He wasn't phased at all. I think I drove by one more time later that year, but then the urge was gone.

My therapist is fairly open about his life, which is different than my previous therapist. But he has good boundaries. I think when his wife was ill and dying, it necessitated his giving some information. But there are also times when I will pick up on something in what he say-- a subtle cue or something and react to it and he will reflect and "own" his part in it, like if maybe he was unintentionally conveying a subtle message or something, and we'll process it. Sometimes that may involve revealing something about himself. But he doesn't reveal that much.

I guess I feel some dependency but not a lot.

Anyway, I really think you need a therapist who can handle your dependency issues.


Re: Forever therapy- fallsfall

Posted by judy1 on April 21, 2003, at 13:59:42

In reply to Re: Forever therapy, posted by noa on April 21, 2003, at 12:41:33

I really have to agree with noa- I think you would do a lot better with a therapist who isn't afraid of dependency but has boundaries to protect you both. you mentioned feeling comforted by the 'group leader'- perhaps you could try a few sessions with her and eventually switch over your care. I can't imagine getting very far in therapy if you feel your therapist is 'mad' at you. I have my pdoc's home phone # and e-mail address- I don't abuse either but I know he is there for me and that is enough. I really can't stress how important boundaries are, and I think Dinah's book suggestion was an excellent one. I wish you all the best-judy


Re: Forever therapy - All

Posted by fallsfall on April 23, 2003, at 12:10:14

In reply to Re: Forever therapy- fallsfall, posted by judy1 on April 21, 2003, at 13:59:42

I looked for Dinah's book in 2 libraries and 2 bookstores, but didn't find it. Maybe I'll get it online.

I saw my therapist yesterday. We seemed to make some progress in her understanding of the issues I see in the relationship. I still don't know if I'm not being clear or if she's not hearing. I think we each have significant assumptions about the other, and that those things may no longer be true.

I told her that I was willing to work on the dependency issue, but that cutting back to every other week didn't seem like the best solution. I made a counterproposal: We would identify the needs that I have that she is meeting (or that I want her to meet) and then we will identify other ways of meeting those needs. Then I can transfer needs slowly and hopefully less traumatically. She said that this plan would be OK. Next week I'm supposed to bring a list of needs.

I had given her journalling telling her how she could word it when she kicked me out, so I would be able to handle it. Basically, she would need to say that _she_ needed to terminate. Since I'll do anything for her, I would do that, too. She didn't bring anything up in the session about that. This week I gave her a summary of where I am (since we are communicating so poorly, I wanted to put it all in one place). This ended with a paragraph about all the things I have learned. But she isn't ready to force termination (she is concerned that "she isn't helping me") yet.

So things are marginally better (though it took 24 hours for me to be able to post this). It is nice to know that I have the group therapist in reserve - either for a single session of advice, or for long term.

Thank you all for your support. It really helps.


Re: Forever therapy fallsfall

Posted by Dinah on April 23, 2003, at 19:10:53

In reply to Re: Forever therapy - All, posted by fallsfall on April 23, 2003, at 12:10:14

I am really impressed with how hard you are working at this. I hope your therapist is as impressed. I also hope she recognizes the maturity behind what you are doing.

I think I ordered the book through Amazon, although I think I'll check out my local library and donate it if it isn't there. It should be required reading for all long term therapy clients, IMHO.


Re: Forever therapy fallsfall

Posted by noa on April 24, 2003, at 5:56:00

In reply to Re: Forever therapy - All, posted by fallsfall on April 23, 2003, at 12:10:14

>>I am really impressed with how hard you are working at this. I hope your therapist is as impressed. I also hope she recognizes the maturity behind what you are doing.

I agree! You are working so hard on this! And I am so impressed that you are responding in this way, given the hurt feelings you have had.

Keep us posted.


Re: Forever therapy - Dinah noa

Posted by fallsfall on April 25, 2003, at 23:41:21

In reply to Re: Forever therapy fallsfall, posted by noa on April 24, 2003, at 5:56:00

Thanks for the encouragement. I really do want this relationship to work. I think she does too.

I'm feeling better about the dependency stuff.


P.S. I still think I want Forever Therapy, though.


Re: Forever therapy

Posted by allisonf on April 26, 2003, at 0:56:19

In reply to Re: Forever therapy, posted by Dinah on April 21, 2003, at 12:01:09

Hi...I haven't posted here in so long, I don't know why. I do ck in now and again, and tonight I had thought to post a new thread on the bd asking for support. Tonight I have been paying for Wed's hypomania with persistent suicidal thoughts.

But I had to post when I saw Dinah's reply, fallsfall. I am that woman Dinah wrote about who drove by her therapist's house and then told her about it. That was a little over a year ago, and my feelings for her are just as intense. We have discussed them up and down...and I write pages about it. I try to read everything I can about the transference phenomena to try to resolve it (which you obviously can't just do by reading about it, but still...), but I feel like there's not really that much out there that isn't all intellectual and Jungian and judgmental. *Except* that book "In Session" that Dinah recommended by D Lott! It is definitely worth reading--it looks at transference through many different angles. I got it thru Amazon.

It sounds like you really are working hard to communicate with your therapist and come to a mutual understanding. I actually think you are being much more accommodating to her needs that she should expect. I know that therapists have to expect (and even count on) these dependency/transference type issues to come up (it certainly is grist!), so I think they have to be prepared that clients are going to have strong feelings, want to feel close to them, be curious about them personally, etc. Not that I condone driving by a therapist's house or searching for them on the internet (which I have also done btw)(and I've searched for her husband, her sisters & brothers, etc.), but if you are strong enough to be honest about it, that warrants support. Good luck with everything.

P.S. I like the name of the thread too! All total I've been in therapy 5 and 1/2 yrs and still counting!


Re: Forever therapy allisonf

Posted by Dinah on April 26, 2003, at 7:26:15

In reply to Re: Forever therapy, posted by allisonf on April 26, 2003, at 0:56:19

Allison, It's good to see you again. I always wondered whether you were able to work that out with your therapist, and I'm glad you were. It was a scary moment for me that something that seemed so minor would disrupt a relationship. I think I'm becoming much more assured myself that he probably won't terminate me against my will unless he moves or quits his practice. I still get terrified if anything happens to disrupt it though.

It's amazing how much real work can be done when that fear is dealt with.

I think I just reached my eight year anniversary. :D (Hey, don't I get a pin or something soon? Or does he deserve that instead. grin.)


Re: Forever therapy

Posted by fallsfall on April 26, 2003, at 9:34:37

In reply to Re: Forever therapy allisonf, posted by Dinah on April 26, 2003, at 7:26:15

Allisonf, it is nice to meet you. I work so hard because I'm afraid that if I don't I won't be worthy to be her patient. It is comforting to know that other people have clung (fused?) to their therapists. I also read a lot. I live in a University town so I have access to their library and all of their technical books. My therapist thinks that I could probably get a Masters in Psychology with what I have read.

Each year on the anniversary of our first session I bring in cupcakes or donuts, usually with the number of the anniversary written in icing on the top. The first year she was a little skeptical, but then she decided that it wasn't a present for her, but a party for Us, that it would be OK. We celebrated our 8th anniversary in January.


Re: Forever therapy

Posted by mair on April 26, 2003, at 10:06:05

In reply to Re: Forever therapy allisonf, posted by Dinah on April 26, 2003, at 7:26:15

I picked up on this thread late. I frequently worry that I'm not making enough progress in therapy because I'm not fully committed or haven't allowed myself to form a strong connection with my therapist. I also sometimes tell her that i think she's the only one working in our therapy sessions. I've seen her for 4+ years now and twice a week for about 2 of them. She continually reassures me that she sees progress, that I shouldn't worry about being the "perfect patient," that I'm not her longest-running patient, and that she doesn't think I'm going to be there forever. When I'm looking at things more clearly I can see the progress too but I get frustrated by how slow the process is. She's also pretty convinced that it would be a huge mistake for me to terminate therapy and has jokingly said she'd go to great lengths to keep from letting that happen.

I started going 2x a week coming off a period when I was in very bad shape. I've come to see however that her desire to have me there that frequently has less to do with my sometimes precarious mental state and far more to do with the difficulty i have getting over the trust hump. I think she's trying to help me form that stronger connection and would view my becoming more dependent as a good sign.

I'm not at all thrilled about talking to her about our relationship, but fortunately she is and I do have to say it's getting easier for me to have difficult conversations. She's not obsessive about boundaries - there are lots of times when she shares information with me, particularly when we're comparing notes on managing things as working mothers.

But all that being said, I don't like that therapy is such a difficult process for me and I still wonder a lot of the time whether there's anything she really can do for me. Sometimes I question whether her confidence in my ability to get stronger through therapy is not grounded in reality as much as it is an outgrowth of her own overly optimistic view of what therapy can accomplish. I mean if therapists can't believe in therapy who can? Also sometimes I think she'd never terminate me even if she thought therapy with me wasn't a worthwhile exercise for me because she wouldn't want to trigger all of the rejection issues I have. Also when you have as much invested in a relationship or a process as I do, who wants to suddenly decide that it's all been a huge waste of money?

I have no easy answers for any of this. The bottom line is that I have to fall back on the notion that she knows what she's doing - so it all comes back to the "T" word (trust).



Re: Forever therapy Dinah

Posted by allisonf on April 26, 2003, at 19:01:32

In reply to Re: Forever therapy allisonf, posted by Dinah on April 26, 2003, at 7:26:15

Dinah, it's good to connect with you again too. I was really going thru a rough time last night and it was kind of a neat thing to see your post referring to our old transference thread!

My therapist and I did work things out about the "drive by". After her initial anger (which she did try to hide, but...), I think she was really able to deal with whatever anger/fear/hurt feelings she had about it outside of our therapy. While she knows all about my feelings for her, it is still really hard for me to confess when I do things like look her up on the internet, etc. I never go beyond the "public domain" as someone (noa?) brought up earlier, but I still feel kind of sleazy about it. More than anything, I just have a hard time reconciling these feelings. Everyone says you need to go thru this to grow in therapy, but does all this dependency really lead to a healthy outcome? How long does it have to take?

Eek! I'm sorry, I didn't mean to go on like that. It was just good to see a familiar name last night--thank you.
Take care--A

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