Posted by muffled on July 8, 2008, at 0:02:32
In reply to Re: My therapist thinks my situation is hopeless » muffled, posted by Dinah on July 7, 2008, at 19:33:52
>It's just that Daddy specifically left it this way to protect her as much as he could.
* he sounds like a good man. Yes he did what he could. You done what you could. People have tried, and thats good to know.
> Especially when she keeps poking holes in whatever help people send her way.*ya...well said :-( and unfortunately true. I am glad you are able to recognize this.
> I'll call the attorney tomorrow to see what my rights and options are. Once I have more knowledge I should feel less trapped. Funny how when I felt fated to go through this I wasn't as anxious as when I realized I had a way out, if only I choose to take it.*its just lousy, no matter what, its just lousy :-( But knowing you are making informed descions and not just shooting from the hip is good. You can rest some knowing you are doing your best...guess your daddy knew that about you. I think he would be sad about this situ, but at the same time proud that you are taking care of yourself as best as you are able.
I hope the attorney is able to be helpful. Maybe you could write down some questions in advance. Is there anyone you trust to come with you?
> No matter what I do, it won't be easy.*ya...you got that right. But you can know you have done the best you could given what you had to work with. You are hanging on and making the best descions you can. No matter what happens, we all know you did all that you could know to do, sadly, at some point there just is nothing more to be done.
> I so much want to remember the good things about my mother. There were a lot of good things.* of course there were good things.
Maybe you can tell us some?
My ma was OK mostly. She loved us kids so much. I never ever felt she didn't love me. She tried real hard and did the best she could. Just life throws you curve balls y'know.
You deal with what you got, for better or worse, you live out your life as your able.
Like I say, I fully anticipate that I may end my time getting killed or dying of exposure on the street. Seems like my fate somehow. But it will be my choice. I will make my own descions. I just hope my kids can let me go and do what I will do, cuz I don't want to hurt them.
Ya...so I'm nuts...never said I wasn't!!!
Try to find some smiles where you can.
Here's one now comming your way...catch it!
:-)...no! TWO!!!!
:-)
Take care,
M
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