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I think I am ready to dive into the deepest part

Posted by happyflower on May 10, 2006, at 20:44:32

I am reading a really good book by John Welwood called Perfect Love, Imperfect Relationships. I wish I could tell my T to read it to fully explain me because it fits me to a T . It talks about how not feeling love as a child, and how it effects your adult relationships. We need love so much but because of our past, we don't trust it, so we push people away because we don't see the love and so we don't get hurt by it. I haven't finished the book yet, but it has me really thinking.
I know I am doing much better, but I want to do do better than better, I want to feel great. I think there are some lingering effects from my past that is still effecting me and my relationships. I am getting to the point where I am really becoming a social bee, which normally I had myself shut off. Well now some of these friends are becoming closer to me and I am afraid. Normally I will get mad about something small to put distance between us, so I don't get hurt. I don't want to do this anymore. I need close friends, even one, in real life. I used to before I became married and had kids, but now I don't have any close friends.
Well anyways I want to dive deeper into my heart and feelings and really open up to my T . I feel like I can really trust him, and I feel he can really help me. It has taken me over 1 1/2 years to feel comfortable talking about this and other stuff. I know my T thinks I am doing well, I guess I have come a long way, but I don't want to stop. I want to do more, I want to become a better and happier, healtier person. Is is wrong to want more? I want to make changes in my life, and I think working with my T could really help. I know therapy is expensive, but I got a really good T and I want to get all out of therapy I can. I want to make a difference in the world, buy first I need to get myself straightend out. If you made it to the end of this, thank you so much for listening. :-)




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