Posted by Morgen on July 23, 2003, at 16:25:38
In reply to Re: Emotions of the therapist » morgen, posted by Penny on July 23, 2003, at 10:59:20
But in any case, we are in agreement that they don't feel the same way about us as we do about them.
I think that's why I don't want to get another therapist. Basically, I really hate this relationship. I know its done me good, I like the work I've done and what's come out of it, but the relationship itself is horrible. I mean... each week I sit across from this person who is amazing for so many reasons -- her intelligence, her skills, her positive life philosophy, her ability to keep up with me, her professionalism and dedication to her work.... etcetera
And rather than appreciate the one hour of undivided attention I get each week, I resent that I met her in this particular forum, where the relationship will ultimately end, and where I'll never be her friend. I feel like that character (Dale?) on The Green Mile who is about to take the chair and says to his keepers, "you're good men. I wish I could have met you some other way."
And in this forum, I'll never know how she became so amazing. I think this is why we want to know more about our therapists. It is, at least, for me. Sometimes, I even think what i really want is just to become her. Except for the knowledge that it would be totally irresponsible -- at least at this point in my life -- for me to try to become a psychologist, she makes me want to be one... and I think that's because a part of me insists it must be her training that has made her into the amazing person she is today.
Yes, I really hate this relationship. If I need emotional healing where I move, I think I'll just get a masseuse, or something.
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