Psycho-Babble Social Thread 1100738

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I made a very public display of psychosis

Posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 6:35:26

I am having some issues. Almost everyone in my highschool class witnessed my psychosis and mania and i was convinced that i was raped by my father. So i wanted to exercise revenge and i thought id do that by telling everyone. I guess i also wanted help.

So now when i run into these people i get really uncomfortable. I cant imagine showing up at a class meeting or something like that. I guess some people are scared and others will make fun of me. Or both.

This was 6 years ago but still. Nardil turned me into a maniac and everyone witnessed it while nobody knows that i was kind of high on a drug.

 

Re: I made a very public display of psychosis Lamdage22

Posted by SLS on September 1, 2018, at 7:32:18

In reply to I made a very public display of psychosis, posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 6:35:26

> I am having some issues. Almost everyone in my highschool class witnessed my psychosis and mania and i was convinced that i was raped by my father. So i wanted to exercise revenge and i thought id do that by telling everyone. I guess i also wanted help.
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> So now when i run into these people i get really uncomfortable. I cant imagine showing up at a class meeting or something like that. I guess some people are scared and others will make fun of me. Or both.
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> This was 6 years ago but still. Nardil turned me into a maniac and everyone witnessed it while nobody knows that i was kind of high on a drug.

I can relate to your experience only slightly. I became psychotic in association with Nardil when I was 30. Although I was working at the time, very few people saw the worst of it. After the psychotic episode remitted, I was very embarrassed and did not want to see anyone. I can only imagine how much worse things were for you. High school was a bad time for me, as I'm sure it was for some other people. I was very conscious of how I compared to others with regard to popularity and acceptance. Although a more severe depression emerged at age 17, it was not immediately obvious to others. If I were to become psychotic in high school, I don't know how I could possibly show my face again. As it is, I don't want to see the people I went to school with. I am embarrassed at how little I have accomplished in life and my limited finances. I never went to any of my high school reunions. What would I say?


- Scott

 

Re: I made a very public display of psychosis

Posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 7:37:57

In reply to Re: I made a very public display of psychosis Lamdage22, posted by SLS on September 1, 2018, at 7:32:18

Hey Scott, thanks for your message.

i wasnt in Highschool, but i texted the people i went to highschool with. I guess i wanted help. What i have got is stigma. I too havent had much success. I am starting vocational rehabilitation on wednesday!

I guess i wanted them to see that i have grown up with bad stuff (which i really did, just probably not rape) and that they should have given me a break.

 

Re: I made a very public display of psychosis

Posted by SLS on September 1, 2018, at 9:01:55

In reply to Re: I made a very public display of psychosis, posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 7:37:57

> I am starting vocational rehabilitation on wednesday!

I am excited for you and envious at the same time. You are still young and can build for yourself a life of growth and stability. Good luck!


- Scott

 

Re: I made a very public display of psychosis Lamdage22

Posted by alexandra_k on September 1, 2018, at 10:37:59

In reply to I made a very public display of psychosis, posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 6:35:26

I haven't had a break like that, but when I was living in this supported accommodation place, most everyone there had experienced something like that at some point.

One of my friends started walking around with a baseball bat becuase he got to thinking people were trying to hurt him. We... Well... I... Called the cops and they came got him and he went into hospital for a time... Then his meds got sorted out and he was back to his usual self.

You might be surprised at how many people know people like that, in their lives. Even though they might not have understood what was going on when they were teenagers, they might understand more, retrospectively.

I think everyones got some stuff they regret.

 

Re: I made a very public display of psychosis

Posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 10:51:44

In reply to Re: I made a very public display of psychosis Lamdage22, posted by alexandra_k on September 1, 2018, at 10:37:59

So you think they might have become more understanding for people like me?

 

Re: I made a very public display of psychosis

Posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 11:05:13

In reply to Re: I made a very public display of psychosis Lamdage22, posted by alexandra_k on September 1, 2018, at 10:37:59

Thanks, Scott. I am exited, too

 

Re: I made a very public display of psychosis

Posted by alexandra_k on September 1, 2018, at 22:14:27

In reply to Re: I made a very public display of psychosis, posted by Lamdage22 on September 1, 2018, at 10:51:44

> So you think they might have become more understanding for people like me?

I don't know what 'people like me' means. I wouldn't want to go to any of my high school reunions. I would like to know how a few people are doing now. But... Genuinely. Not superficially. I mean, I would be interested to reconnect with them, now. To hear about their lives.

I guess I don't know those people, at all. I need to remember that most people are more awful than I expect people to be. It's so hard for me to remember that...

I don't know, honestly.

 

Re: I made a very public display of psychosis

Posted by alexandra_k on September 1, 2018, at 22:15:17

In reply to Re: I made a very public display of psychosis, posted by alexandra_k on September 1, 2018, at 22:14:27

Generally adults are more accepting and understanding than teenagers. Though... Maybe not.

I don't know.


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