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Re: tuesday tuesday » sienna

Posted by Dr Eamerz on March 17, 2003, at 2:04:44

In reply to tuesday tuesday, posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 1:45:49

Hi Sienna...

Don't worry bout writing too much here if it helps , then tommorrow-Tuesday you will be safe..having someone to talk to.

 

Re: tuesday tuesday

Posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 2:08:00

In reply to Re: tuesday tuesday » sienna, posted by Dr Eamerz on March 17, 2003, at 2:04:44

thanx dreamerz it is helpign even though its i feel bad. i dont know what elsse to do and most people are sleeping now. i have to deal i cant fix anything right now i cant call anyone but is hard.

 

Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering

Posted by daizy on March 17, 2003, at 6:59:14

In reply to can anyone help me find whats real? triggering, posted by sienna on March 16, 2003, at 21:44:15

> went to ER last nite because i thought i was dying but i wasnt dying but they all looked at me funny and reading my mind. and i watched to see whether each person could and some could and some coulndnt. but then when they wanted to put the cardiogram thingie on me i didnt want take of fmy clothes because last time they took me to a psych ward. they said i had to take off my shirt but i said dont touch me but i took it off and i put the things on and the gown but my jacket over it.
>
> then the doctor came said my cardigram is normal and listened to me breathihng i said im not takeing off my clothes and then listened more. and put one hand on my back and other on my chest and pushed to see if it hurt but it didnt but it scared me and i didnt want them to touch me just make sure im not dying. then they called the psych on call and i talk to him on the phone.
>
> I didnt want to tell him much becuase i think that if i tell then the guy who hurt me knows i am saying something because he can hear me talking and knows im telling and then he will kill me and i guess thats not real but how do you know if its real or not., cuz it feels real and i told the psch dr. that and he kept saying to tell him so i told him what happened of getting raped and telling will make it happen again because it always seems to and its forever linked for me. but he asked me did it happen beofre
>
> im scared to tell him but i did tell him yes and hes aiys when and i tell him of when i was 8 - 10 and it happend then when i waws 13 and my bf was 19 and it happened then for 3 years again when i was 19 walking home from a party. hate new orleans bittersweet sick beautiful place. now im scared they are coming to kill me and break into my house. i didnt tell him all of the times because all of them arent rape and i dont know what is right and wrong anymore. its so confusing
>
> something is wrong with me. the poison inside me and its like whatever i did i am still being punished and im supposed to just take it because im did it to myself but i dont know if that is real or not. and it makes me want to cut and feel and bleed but i cant.

Hey Sienna, I know how you are feeling, just hope it has eased off a bit, hang in there till tomorrow. As long as you tell your doc everything, I have trouble doing that for fear of what they will think of me so I keep it all in, it just makes it worse. I totally dont feel right yet, these AD's have made everyhting seem sunny again yet I still feel sad, I feel like ive just woken up from a bad dream and everything in it actually happened so how can I just forget it, like I feel like a bit of a fool for some of the stuff I did like trips to ER ect... and no one has said why it happened, I just dont believe that its just because of anxiety... I feel like everyone knows what Ive done, something in me is saying stay inside, or everyone will know how stupid you are, so I dont go out... I dont know what it is... I dont know whats real.. Anyways, let me know how you get on, good luck...

 

Re: tuesday tuesday » sienna

Posted by Dinah on March 17, 2003, at 8:10:13

In reply to tuesday tuesday, posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 1:45:49

Did you make it through the night ok? Today you can call your social worker, right?

 

Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering

Posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 11:20:49

In reply to Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering, posted by daizy on March 17, 2003, at 6:59:14

hi daizy
i have cat name daisy. cutes thing ever sunshiine. i know what you mean im scared to go out to and they say to go wallk somewhere 20 minutes a day like there is somewhere safe to go walk to. i try just walk up and down my stairs for twenty minutes but puts me in a trancce. i dont know if i can tell my doc everything. im scared. i make it through to day though and my social worker will call me. i see my pdoc tomorrow hopeuflly he doesnt put me in psych hospital or give me poison. thanks for writing. its nice to feel heard.
sienna i hope you are feeling ok

 

monday monday dinah

Posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 11:23:26

In reply to Re: tuesday tuesday » sienna, posted by Dinah on March 17, 2003, at 8:10:13

dinahs a angel
hello im here its monday i slept my socaial worker will call. it all seemed like a dream but it was real. i didnt do anythihngwrong. now im just waiting and wondering what they are talking about if the dr from the er will tell them what i said and who can hear that.
thank for writing me here. im glad were alive.
sienna

 

Re: I'm glad too :) (nm) » sienna

Posted by Dinah on March 17, 2003, at 11:27:05

In reply to monday monday dinah, posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 11:23:26

 

Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering

Posted by daizy on March 17, 2003, at 12:35:09

In reply to Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering, posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 11:20:49

> hi daizy
> i have cat name daisy. cutes thing ever sunshiine. i know what you mean im scared to go out to and they say to go wallk somewhere 20 minutes a day like there is somewhere safe to go walk to. i try just walk up and down my stairs for twenty minutes but puts me in a trancce. i dont know if i can tell my doc everything. im scared. i make it through to day though and my social worker will call me. i see my pdoc tomorrow hopeuflly he doesnt put me in psych hospital or give me poison. thanks for writing. its nice to feel heard.
> sienna i hope you are feeling ok

Be strong, try not to worry about the doctors, they have your best interests at heart, Im also telling myself this! please let me know how things go, I will also let you know how I go.. *hugs*

 

Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering

Posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 15:33:59

In reply to Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering, posted by daizy on March 17, 2003, at 12:35:09

I m styaing ok. now. how are you?

 

Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering

Posted by daizy on March 18, 2003, at 4:56:28

In reply to Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering, posted by sienna on March 17, 2003, at 15:33:59

> I m styaing ok. now. how are you?

Ive woken up today feeling almost normal, which is a drag really because I know I have to go to the docs, and I will end up sayig everything is fine, when I know its really not..... Let us know how the docs go! :-)

 

Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering

Posted by sienna on March 18, 2003, at 11:03:12

In reply to Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering, posted by daizy on March 18, 2003, at 4:56:28

daizy what does it feel like to feel normal. maybe i am normal but normal isnt what i thought it was or something. i will write when i come home from my pdocs. you see your docs today too.

 

Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering

Posted by daizy on March 18, 2003, at 14:35:44

In reply to Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering, posted by sienna on March 18, 2003, at 11:03:12

> daizy what does it feel like to feel normal. maybe i am normal but normal isnt what i thought it was or something. i will write when i come home from my pdocs. you see your docs today too.

I dont know how it feels to feel normal, only what I think it feels like but I know Im wrong, see thats the state of confusion Im in at the moment!!! Like when I said I felt normal, it felt like I used to feel when I was ok, but I also know that Im not Ok, do you get me? OOh, im goin to stop trying to descibe it because I cant, its impossible, and I have a bad head today anyway! I see my on on day after.. How did your apointment go?

 

daizy

Posted by sienna on March 18, 2003, at 19:03:06

In reply to Re: can anyone help me find whats real? triggering, posted by daizy on March 18, 2003, at 14:35:44

Hi
that make sense to me.
I saw my pdoc and social worker today. Wow i must be a mess i have to do a IOP program its intensive outpatient have to go there 4 days a week. i told them i have school during some of that timeand which should i do and they said IOP. they say im having a meltdown.
like butter i guess. i now im falling apart but i guess i dont know really how to fix it maybe they do know how to fix it. they are really nice to me but i think they are mad at me i feel like its my fault that im not getting better but i was getting better then i got worse.

i dont know. they let me read my chart though cuz i wanted to read it. it says they think i may be have to go on disability permanently. and that i have poor reality testing and am in denial.

i don tknow. i dont know its only for two weeks this program. oh they increased my meds and added depakote. i hope that it works.

i hop eyou are doing ok daizy. i love your name.

sienna

 

Re: daizy

Posted by syringachalet on March 20, 2003, at 12:32:30

In reply to daizy, posted by sienna on March 18, 2003, at 19:03:06

Hello Sienna,

Sorry I havent had the chance to meet you and
to try to be here for you to help with all
this stuff you are going through. The other posters here have given you some very good
ideas and great support..as usual.
But it still really sounds like youre pretty overwhelmed.

You might not be too sure about this IOP program but for now it sounds like a really good idea.

I work as a RNC psych rehab nurse in an OP program and it is really the best option for a person in crisis who needs immediate face-to-face help but doesnt have the resources for an expensive in-patient stay.

I know it took great courage to share how
fearful and confused you have been about
what you have been experiencing.
I also know from first hand that it is so difficult to help someone who is so upset
that they cant allow a through physical exam
to find out what is causing them to feel so bad.
I have PTSD myself and it is still difficult for me too.

I have had clients who had anxiety attacks
severe enough they thought they were have
a heart attack.

Please DO make a point to attend EVERY day of your IOP. Having that in your life, even if
only for two weeks, will help you start
getting some kind of daily routine back.

It will help you have something to look
forward to and a place that you can share your feels with a chosen few and hopefully your
meds will kick in and help you feel calmer.

Most of my clients tell me that their AD/AA meds help their'rational part of their brains catch up with their emotional and make them both work together'..even if it is a little slower..to make better decisions on a day-to-day basis.

Also it would probably wise not to make any
big decisions in your life right now ( money, selling big items) until you have this crisis situation under better control.

You got plenty to do right now to get your
head straigthened out and its going to take
most of the time and energy you have right now.

I sure you already know you need this time to
get things calmed down so you will be better
able to focus on and problem solve through those other things you mentioned you have going on in your life.

Please keep posting and know we ALL care.

Safe cyber-hug when its OK.

syringachalet

 

syringachalet

Posted by sienna on March 20, 2003, at 14:38:49

In reply to Re: daizy, posted by syringachalet on March 20, 2003, at 12:32:30

hi
thanks so much for writng. i have orientation for the IOP today. i will go and ill make sure i go everyday. today i woke up 2 hours late somehow and missed my first class at school but made my second somehow. i increased my meds so thats probably why.

i am holding it together somewhat but the war increase my anxiety and fears a lot. Im sorry you have PTSD i dont know if thats what i have but my social worker says so. I am schizoaffective. BUt im not hearing voices so much as im am paranoid and scared. I am depressed some, but not like i was before. Mostly i am wound up and nervous.

I have been to the doctor where they give a phsycical exam and had it not scare me to bad, but sometimes i get really scared. Something bad happened a while back and so now i am scared of the doctors.

Also part of me thinks things are really dangerous and scary righ tnow and i have to *make* myself take my meds but i am scared that they are make me less aware and more sedated and unable to protect myself. So maybe ill learn more about htat at the IOP.

Its nice to meet you, i have seen you post a lot before and you are sweet.

I will write back and let everyone know what happens at the IOP orienattion.

thanks again for writing.
take care
sienna

 

Re: syringachalet » sienna

Posted by noa on March 20, 2003, at 16:35:16

In reply to syringachalet, posted by sienna on March 20, 2003, at 14:38:49

Sienna, the war is scary, it's true. You are not alone in having it trigger your anxiety (and being anxious about the war is reality based, if that helps).

I find that limiting my exposure to the news is helpful--really it is essential for me. Too much exposure puts me in overload anxiety. Each of us should guage how much exposure, if any, we should have.

 

Re: syringachalet

Posted by syringachalet on March 20, 2003, at 17:33:45

In reply to Re: syringachalet » sienna, posted by noa on March 20, 2003, at 16:35:16

Dear Noa,

You are so right. Watching too much of this info from the Situation in Iraq can cause undue anxiety and is really unhealthly for children and 'vulerable adults'.
I myself limit it to 5 or 10 mins every few hours or so when Im home.(Anything that is realy important will be announced a 100 times and the video replayed if you care to view it.)

Noa is right. You should find your own 'comfort level.. if one can exist on this topic... and find other things to do even if thats cleaning closets or walking your dog.( My neighbors kid walks the old ladys dog who lives across the street because she cant and he cant have a dog because of their rental lease.)

Me, I just use bubble baths....and an occiasional Hershey bar...arent I naughty? LOL

syringachalet

 

noa

Posted by sienna on March 20, 2003, at 18:30:30

In reply to Re: syringachalet » sienna, posted by noa on March 20, 2003, at 16:35:16

thats true noa

i should watch that. i just bought 3 different papers for today. and i recorded bushs speech and an hour of news last nite.
maybe i have a problem.

Ill try to not read or watch too much. i have to have some exposure to it, but i can tryt o not have too much.

sienna

 

Re: syringachalet

Posted by sienna on March 20, 2003, at 18:31:55

In reply to Re: syringachalet, posted by syringachalet on March 20, 2003, at 17:33:45

i do thte bubble bath and hershey bar thing too. actually and also fancy coffee drinks which is probalby not the best for my anxiety. but it also helps me stay focused and awake since im on so much medsit feels like.

the IOP went ok. it was just orientation. i start the real IOP tomororow.

tkae care
sienna

 

Re: syringachalet

Posted by syringachalet on March 21, 2003, at 2:56:36

In reply to Re: syringachalet, posted by sienna on March 20, 2003, at 18:31:55

Sienna,

Just a quick note....

Sounds like you are starting to
get started back into your life!

I AM EXCITED FOR YOU!!!

Just take one day at a time and
know that there will be days when things
dont go how you would like no mater how
hard you try.
And remember that the only person you have
any control over is you. What other people
do..good or bad.. is not your responsible.
For at least right now, you only need to be responsible for YOU.

Please keep in touch.

syringachalet

 

Re: noa

Posted by daizy on March 21, 2003, at 5:47:33

In reply to noa, posted by sienna on March 20, 2003, at 18:30:30

> thats true noa
>
> i should watch that. i just bought 3 different papers for today. and i recorded bushs speech and an hour of news last nite.
> maybe i have a problem.
>
> Ill try to not read or watch too much. i have to have some exposure to it, but i can tryt o not have too much.
>
> sienna

Hey sienna, got reffered to a pdoc..... about time. Looks like things are moving forward for you too, good luck on the IOP... hope it helps.... Im worried about the war too, dont want to watch it, but I feel I have too, it makes me so anxious that I have to know everything thats happening... not sure if thats good for me though! keep us updated on how the IOP goes....... take care.......

 

Re: oops...., meant for Sienna!

Posted by daizy on March 21, 2003, at 8:40:11

In reply to Re: noa, posted by daizy on March 21, 2003, at 5:47:33

> > thats true noa
> >
> > i should watch that. i just bought 3 different papers for today. and i recorded bushs speech and an hour of news last nite.
> > maybe i have a problem.
> >
> > Ill try to not read or watch too much. i have to have some exposure to it, but i can tryt o not have too much.
> >
> > sienna
>
> Hey sienna, got reffered to a pdoc..... about time. Looks like things are moving forward for you too, good luck on the IOP... hope it helps.... Im worried about the war too, dont want to watch it, but I feel I have too, it makes me so anxious that I have to know everything thats happening... not sure if thats good for me though! keep us updated on how the IOP goes....... take care........

 

Re: syringachalet

Posted by sienna on March 21, 2003, at 18:27:07

In reply to Re: syringachalet, posted by syringachalet on March 21, 2003, at 2:56:36

you are so sweet syringachalet.
thanks for so much positivity.
i went to iop it was ok.
I was scared but nothing bad happened.
I hope you are doing ok.
No is i can just keep control of myself and keep taking my meds and focusing. its hard
though.
sienna

 

Re: noa

Posted by sienna on March 21, 2003, at 18:29:44

In reply to Re: noa, posted by daizy on March 21, 2003, at 5:47:33

hi daizy,

thats probalby good that you got referred to pdoc. im glad that i go i think it helps a lot.
Iop was ok. There were a lot of people there though in the first part. Like 20 plus like 5 therapists all in one room. Scary for me.
But i lived hehe.

Anyways, yeah, i didnt watch any news today and didnt get a paper yet, but i will probably venture out and try to find one in a little while.
I know i shouldnt but im not going to read it, i just want it for some reason. I havent watch the news or listedned to radio. Ill find out if anything really important happens im sure people will tellme.

Take care and thanks for writing. let me know how the pdoc goes.
sienna

 

Re: syringachalet » sienna

Posted by noa on March 21, 2003, at 23:25:54

In reply to Re: syringachalet, posted by sienna on March 20, 2003, at 18:31:55

Do the fancy coffee drinks in decaf!


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