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saw a nice nurse...

Posted by alexandra_k on June 29, 2014, at 22:50:18

...finally. my faith in... the universe... or something.

she let me talk... and boy, did i talk. lol. and she was... nice. and there were points of connection. and it was great to talk to someone...

and i told her i hit that lady and she didn't seem to mind. or... she didn't feel afraid of me, or whatever. and she seemed to find it amusing that community mental health put a trespass order on me... meh. whatever.

anyway...

it is rainy rainy rainy.

and even if i can't get hold of the 10th edition of Campbell Biology (in hardcopy, anyway)... life is pretty good.

3 weeks of break... woo hoo!

 

Re: saw a nice nurse... » alexandra_k

Posted by Partlycloudy on June 30, 2014, at 6:18:29

In reply to saw a nice nurse..., posted by alexandra_k on June 29, 2014, at 22:50:18

There ARE good nurses in mental health. Deep listening is crucial.
I'm glad you a break now. You have been busting your butt.

PC

 

Re: saw a nice nurse...

Posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 0:25:08

In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse... » alexandra_k, posted by Partlycloudy on June 30, 2014, at 6:18:29

thanks. demoralizing... busting my butt, and nothing much good coming of it.

i got the course book for animal biology... less comparative anatomy / physiology than i thought... more... more time spent on invertebrates and stuff like that. it will be interesting, i guess. not so very much to do with stuff for next year... but labs... shudder. we get to dissect a worm. and a rat. with scissors. lmfao. i do hope labs work out better for me...

lots of drawing, we have to do. to scales... which might be... harder...

don't know about physics yet... lots of calculating, i guess. i hope it will go back over some of the stuff i found hard in chem (thermodynamics, gas laws) and that i'll start to be able to do the calculations this time...

looking forward to things starting back, honestly. class gives me... momentum. or something.

i don't know how things will work out with the nurse... i guess i feel like i shouldn't get my hopes up, or whatever, because i've been here so many times before...

but she seems nice. and genuine, yeah. anyway...

 

Re: saw a nice nurse...

Posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 19:26:52

In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse..., posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 0:25:08

i think the thing here is to be careful... to set things up... sustainably. every couple weeks. that might be best. more frequent processing... i think... it is perhaps unclear that that is helpful. less frequent processing... and i've done a fair chunk of it beforehand. and i... do need to have things reasonably processed before i talk to someone. i think. i think things tend to go better then. hard to know how much... always has been hard for me... knowing when i'm best to work things through myself vs ask for help.

is that hard for others? i guess so... it just seems to be... really very very very hard for me. maybe because... often what i need isn't something i can have. perhaps...

anyway... we will see...

 

Re: saw a nice nurse...

Posted by Partlycloudy on July 1, 2014, at 19:58:27

In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse..., posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 19:26:52

> i think the thing here is to be careful... to set things up... sustainably. every couple weeks. that might be best. more frequent processing... i think... it is perhaps unclear that that is helpful. less frequent processing... and i've done a fair chunk of it beforehand. and i... do need to have things reasonably processed before i talk to someone. i think. i think things tend to go better then. hard to know how much... always has been hard for me... knowing when i'm best to work things through myself vs ask for help.
>
> is that hard for others? i guess so... it just seems to be... really very very very hard for me. maybe because... often what i need isn't something i can have. perhaps...
>
> anyway... we will see...
>
>

It's helpful for me to have a couple of appointments scheduled ahead of time. I think I get a sense of security knowing that if I begin to throw a wobbly, that my appointment is coming up. If I can hold my stuff together until then, often my storm has passed. At the least I am able to articulate my experiences better than having had to schedule an emergency appointment and get crammed in to a busy day.

It gives me time to write, if I want to. I can't actually organize my thoughts lately to hand write notes (don't know why?) but it happens often when I am more depressed. At other times, I just ramble with my notes, but they often lead to good discussions.

I hope are able to get what you need from the system.

 

Re: saw a nice nurse... » alexandra_k

Posted by baseball55 on July 1, 2014, at 20:46:33

In reply to saw a nice nurse..., posted by alexandra_k on June 29, 2014, at 22:50:18

I'm so happy for you that you had this good experience with the nurse. I hope this works out for you.

 

Re: saw a nice nurse...

Posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 21:16:06

In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse..., posted by Partlycloudy on July 1, 2014, at 19:58:27

yes, i realise now that it does help me to have appointments scheduled. i never really thought of it before, but there is some sort of security... being able to hold stuff together until then, yeah. and as i get to know them... i can rehearse things in my imagination...

i think fortnightly will be good... because storms will pass. i do have some sort of... risk... of processing every little thing... like how i use babble, at times. i don't need... i don't need a person for that. just the perception of one lol.

i'm optimistic because... she seemed nice. and she said... i could use the time to talk or... whatever i wanted. whatever i found helpful. to talk about whatever. and she asked questions... but she really did seem happy for me to talk about whatever. okay to back off - she didn't press me to talk about mother... and happy for me to uh, ruminate, a little... get a bit... agitated... and she didn't freak out and try and fix it or change the subject or whatever.

so...

hard to know, because often people are on their best behaviour to start. including myself heh. but i like her, yeah.

it also helps that the doc was nice. and the disability guy on campus... i get on pretty good with him. i've gone and talked his ear off for a bit at various points... and he knows i'm not going away, now... and he said he would advocate for me to try and get me disability accommodations (funding people must be appealed to). and the administrator at disability support is good, too. and the receptionists at this new clinic, even.

and... and i have yet to tell him that i have decided to do health science rather than biomed. which he will be happy about. not least because it means only 18 lab classes next year rather than 48... and a hell of a lot less math...

different people. i've never had... more than 2 good people IRL. all the way back... when i just started DBT... was studying part time... 2 classes... and i had a wonderful community mental health keyworker and a wonderful therapist. it helps to feel a bit like there are different people. diversification or something.

:)

 

Re: saw a nice nurse...

Posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 21:16:31

In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse... » alexandra_k, posted by baseball55 on July 1, 2014, at 20:46:33

thanks baseball :)

 

Re: saw a nice nurse... » alexandra_k

Posted by baseball55 on July 2, 2014, at 20:14:20

In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse..., posted by alexandra_k on July 1, 2014, at 21:16:31

Wow Alex. I am so happy for you. Sounds like things are really coming together for you. I know what you mean about imagining conversations with a good therapist. I think that's how a lot of change occurs.

 

Re: saw a nice nurse...

Posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 21:49:10

In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse... » alexandra_k, posted by baseball55 on July 2, 2014, at 20:14:20

> Wow Alex. I am so happy for you. Sounds like things are really coming together for you. I know what you mean about imagining conversations with a good therapist. I think that's how a lot of change occurs.

yeah. internalising them...

hopefully my grades will come together... otherwise...

 

Re: saw a nice nurse...

Posted by alexandra_k on July 4, 2014, at 4:47:18

In reply to Re: saw a nice nurse..., posted by alexandra_k on July 2, 2014, at 21:49:10

i think i've been doing better since i lost my i-pod.

i tended to listen to... amped up gym music, mostly. and the idea was to not hear the world. only i could hear the world. i think the earphone people design their earphones so they can safely be used around people... and so the volume would creep up to max and i'd be raging about still being able to hear the people...

without my music... i think i'm starting to me more... dare i say 'appropriately' tuned into other people. feeling... happier about them. about the fact that i can hear them. that they are there. perhaps the holiday helps... with most of them having gone away lol. anyway... i'm feeling... more relaxed. calmer. which is... good.

sine wave. uh huh. that's what that curvy graph was about... i wouldn't have any idea how to begin to describe that in algebra... amplitude and wavelength and period and something something and 2 x pi... hurr...

biomechanics... i'm remembering... that's what all this was about... biomechanics... movement... if medicine doesn't work out... maybe i'll major in sports science... sports science and law. end up doing something something for the f*ck*ng accident compensation authority no doubt. sigh. but then i'll be able to buy new shoes :) dammit... i was really holding out for new feet...


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