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Posted by Dinah on August 30, 2009, at 13:56:48
After nearly two months of computer problems, my new computer came in and I'm going through the lengthy process of loading everything up, setting up backups, etc. I am totally immersed in that.
Also I've got some deadlines I'm working extra hard on.
Between the two, I'm barely aware of myself at all. I can't recall anything that happened more than five minutes ago. I am forgetting everything, having word substitution problems, have absolutely no sense of time, and I'm not feeling overly well.
So it's like I'm not even existing right now.
About all that I'm conscious of happening is that my dogs went on a diet last weekend. And just like my diets, I ended it on Wednesday. There must be something about the third or fourth day on a diet.... They were so wound up and irritable that I gave in and started free feeding again, although with low cal food this time.
(The little underweight guy was of course supplemented with high calorie canned food.)
Posted by Dinah on August 30, 2009, at 13:57:55
In reply to Very little indeed on my mind, posted by Dinah on August 30, 2009, at 13:56:48
Oh, and my therapist was gone the second half of the week. I didn't miss him. I think I've forgotten who he is to me. Although I'm sure I'll remember again sooner or later.
Posted by annierose on August 30, 2009, at 18:05:16
In reply to Re: Very little indeed on my mind, posted by Dinah on August 30, 2009, at 13:57:55
Yes, you will remember who he is sooner rather than later because we always do.
I think computer issues are brain cell consuming --- you really need to think and hook up everything just so or nothing will work at all. It's not like playing mindless spider solataire.
I know that feeling of existing and forgetting the rest of the world is even awake.
Posted by Dinah on August 31, 2009, at 7:46:44
In reply to Re: Very little indeed on my mind » Dinah, posted by annierose on August 30, 2009, at 18:05:16
It's a bit disconcerting to have so little awareness of myself. I have trouble remembering what day it is, trouble remembering if I've (for example) taken some Excedrin for my headache or not. My new computer seems to be working ok for now (knock wood), so maybe I can pull my head out from it.
I suppose I'm learning a lot. Unfortunately with computers what I learn today will be obsolete tomorrow.
I have a vague concern that my brain problems are physiological rather than computer based. I don't think the new meds are working.
I don't like getting old. If there's been one theme of my therapy lately, it's been my fear of turning fifty. I told my therapist I'm just too immature to be fifty. That once I get a certain age, my appearance and my manner will be too much at contrast, and I will look silly. He says I'll just look more schizotypal, which didn't exactly reassure me.
It's a tricky subject to discuss since he turned fifty a few years ago and had his own issues with it. I have to keep stopping to apologize. Although come to think of it, he's not as "young" as I am, so likely doesn't feel the same things that I do.
Posted by Tabitha on August 31, 2009, at 12:31:15
In reply to Re: Very little indeed on my mind » annierose, posted by Dinah on August 31, 2009, at 7:46:44
I used to save copious notes on computer updates I'd done, thinking I'd need to do them again on my next computer. Didn't realize how short-lived every system is nowadays. Keeping up with technology is about like cleaning house-- endless and repetitive and never finished.
Posted by Dinah on September 1, 2009, at 16:19:08
In reply to Re: Very little indeed on my mind, posted by Tabitha on August 31, 2009, at 12:31:15
I know. :(
I'm kind of hoping that I'll be able to completely forget everything I've learned and that I won't have to start over again for at least four or five years.
On the up side, it seems to be working except for one or two driver problems. And it is blindingly fast. A faster graphics card makes a huge difference with Vista, apparently. I'll finally be able to edit my home videos without crashing my system.
Can you believe they sent me the machine with the included second drive not formatted, and wouldn't even tell me what the various choices on the disk management program were? They told me they didn't support the second hard drive they installed in my machine, and that I should google it if I couldn't figure it out. Sigh. I suppose they thought I had a help desk at my disposal. But... now I know how to format and partition a hard drive. :)
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