Psycho-Babble Psychology Thread 848393

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This Form is Not So Nice: Dear Ex-T.

Posted by susan47 on August 26, 2008, at 11:43:30

What kind of man puts soft pink chairs in his office, with plants spread around, a new carpet, and has a f*ck*ng COUNTER staring his co-healers in the face?
Are you confused, darling?
I am so angry.
I am an angry woman.

 

Forum. Is Anger therapy? (Prayer)

Posted by susan47 on August 27, 2008, at 18:29:43

In reply to This Form is Not So Nice: Dear Ex-T., posted by susan47 on August 26, 2008, at 11:43:30

Can my anger possibly be necessary? I am so confused and feeling suicidal again, and my daughter comes to this site somewhere, I know she's been here and I don't like that, because there is a record of my craziness here.
Oh god, how bad can life get? I don't want to know. Please just let mine get better, I just want a better life.

 

(((((((((((((((((((susan47)))))))))))))))))))) (nm) » susan47

Posted by muffled on August 29, 2008, at 0:56:22

In reply to Forum. Is Anger therapy? (Prayer), posted by susan47 on August 27, 2008, at 18:29:43

 

More Hugs Susan

Posted by WaterSapphire on August 29, 2008, at 3:31:39

In reply to (((((((((((((((((((susan47)))))))))))))))))))) (nm) » susan47, posted by muffled on August 29, 2008, at 0:56:22

I am sorry you are going through so much Susan. I hadn't been to the psych board on here yet since I rejoined the site after so long. HUGS to you.
I think it is dumb what your therapist did with the office by the way. These settings should be conducive to therapy and not blocking or uncomfortable. Sometimes getting angry is what we need. Maybe that sounds silly, but some anger can be ok....

Hope you are doing ok

Peace
Chelle

 

Re: More Hugs Susan

Posted by susan47 on August 29, 2008, at 14:37:16

In reply to More Hugs Susan, posted by WaterSapphire on August 29, 2008, at 3:31:39

I just can't' stand it, I can't stand the way he set himself up to be this great Doctor, the way there's this boundary between him and the rest of "us".
It's my own craziness talking, my own need runs deep into my legs, the anxiety covers me like a blanket of familiar gut-wrenching angst,
and I Love Him So Much I can hardly breathe, because I really did truly fall in Love with him. I love him so much.
I would never hurt him for the world, I would never want to hurt him, but my soul tells me I did, I soul is screaming with the anxious knowledge, the sure knowledge that I am hurting him by doing this.
And I must stop.
And I will.
Because nothing in life matters as much as our mental and emotional health and wellbeing.
And I'm sick and tired, absolutely full up to HERE, with being the martyr I was taught to be by my own mother.

I want to be free.
I want to be free.
Let me free.
Let me free.
I love you.
I love you.
I love you.
I love myself.
I love myself.
I love myself.
Am I worth it?
Am I worth it?
Am I?

Is it possible to love me?
Am I lovable?
Was I ever lovable?
Can I be properly loved?
Oh, God, where are you?
I think I am sick.
Am I sick.
Is my mind sick, or is there more than my mind?

I think I must study Jung.
I think I must.
I must do this, I have to get better, I have to get Well, and Healed, and be Whole.

F*ck it.

 

Re: More Hugs Susan

Posted by WaterSapphire on August 29, 2008, at 16:21:15

In reply to More Hugs Susan, posted by WaterSapphire on August 29, 2008, at 3:31:39

I believe you did fall in love with him.
I cannot imagine the pain you are going through and how hard it must be to try to forget.
Why are some of us so much more sensitive than others? When some of us fall for another, we really fall so hard and sometimes cannot seem to quite get where we so want to be. I remember the gut wrenching pain had for a few I fell in love with. One was a PT way back in 2000. And he did cross the boundary in my book and he was a Physical therapist. That was long ago. Somehow I got over him. Took me 7 tears to get over my first love before that guy. I am now married.
But the heart can only take so much. You must have a big big heart.

 

Re: More Hugs Susan » WaterSapphire

Posted by susan47 on August 30, 2008, at 12:25:24

In reply to Re: More Hugs Susan, posted by WaterSapphire on August 29, 2008, at 16:21:15

I just want to run screaming from the room when I think about how he must hate me in order to do this.

 

Re: More Hugs Susan

Posted by WaterSapphire on August 30, 2008, at 21:45:02

In reply to Re: More Hugs Susan » WaterSapphire, posted by susan47 on August 30, 2008, at 12:25:24

Susan,
Someday soon I can only hope that you can find a way to forget enough to not hurt so much. But, this would be in any sort of way under any sort or relationship. I hope the pain will pass Susan, and that you can find hope in finding a true love that will reciprocate.

Take care Susan,

TTYL
Chelle

 

It Doesn't Make Sense » WaterSapphire

Posted by susan47 on August 31, 2008, at 12:41:33

In reply to Re: More Hugs Susan, posted by WaterSapphire on August 30, 2008, at 21:45:02

Life is already hard enough. Making it harder by not having hope that I'm lovable and loved, and someday I'll find peace in that ... I need to find the hope that I'm worthy.
I have love around me. But because I'm stuck with my last therapy (excuse me while I die laughing) the last male I tried therapy with ... rejected me out of hand ... what does that mean, out of hand? I can't feel lovable.

HOW CAN SOMETHING SO STUPID AND NIGGLING AND SMALL HAVE SUCH A HUGE EFFECT ON A PERSON???

 

Internet Search Method

Posted by susan47 on September 2, 2008, at 10:12:31

In reply to This Form is Not So Nice: Dear Ex-T., posted by susan47 on August 26, 2008, at 11:43:30

I noticed when I search for some of my threads on google, once in a while a thread number will come up and the link will show every post on that thread in a continuous document. Does anyone know or have any idea how this feature can be accessed reliably?

 

Re: Forum. Is Anger therapy? (Prayer)

Posted by kc penny on September 6, 2008, at 0:31:31

In reply to Forum. Is Anger therapy? (Prayer), posted by susan47 on August 27, 2008, at 18:29:43

I would say that it is naive to rely completely on prayer, You do need to make some effort yourself.

I found something for you that may be of use. it is an anger therapy program. It is priced quite low and can be used in the privacy of your own home so it wont be strange.

Hope this helps and god bless.

http://www.angertherapytoday.com/


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