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my last T for a while

Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 15, 2007, at 8:06:57

T is going away all next week. I won't see him until 2 weeks from today. I wish I had a better track-record of holding myself together when T goes on vacation. I don't though.

I did pretty well in June when I had no real T/ in between T's. Then I held myself together. But subsequent meltdowns in july kind of negated all of that. it was as if I saved up all the negative feelings of having no constancy in my life and then collapsed.

are things more stable this time? Certainly. my meds are stable. Aside from acid stomach (swore I was getting a bleeding ulcer for a week or so) my health and emotional well-being is okay. not stellar, but acceptable. I just got a part time job that I applied for. my references were really good, the interviewer said. so, at least I'll have enough money to make a car payment every month.

I was thinking about using this therapy break to focus on my scholarly pursuits. Perhaps I should try to finish up a paper I'm working on.

It's funny. I'm only losing 4 sessions, which is less than 4 hours of my life, but it seems like a lot more.

will me and T still click when he comes back?

-Ll

 

Re: my last T for a while » LlurpsieNoodle

Posted by JoniS on August 15, 2007, at 8:17:54

In reply to my last T for a while, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 15, 2007, at 8:06:57

Hang in there Llurpsie. Of course you'll still click when he comes back :-)

You have a good plan to manage for the next few weeks. Staying busy and keeping your brain focused and challenged - that what helps me too.

I'll bet when you see him again it wont even feel like 2 weeks have passed and you'll be surprised at well you've held it together!

Take Care

 

Re: my last T for a while » JoniS

Posted by DAisym on August 15, 2007, at 11:55:06

In reply to Re: my last T for a while » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by JoniS on August 15, 2007, at 8:17:54

My therapist talks about "psychological time" as compared to "real" time. Four sessions - two weeks - *is* a lot. Don't beat yourself up thinking it is "only" 4 hours.

Congrats on the new job - I'm sure it will help with the stability you are beginning to create. There is nothing quite like having to be somewhere at a given time and day that helps thread all the free floating minutes of our lives together.

And Babble. It is what I do when my therapist is gone.

 

Re: my last T for a while » LlurpsieNoodle

Posted by RealMe on August 16, 2007, at 21:44:52

In reply to my last T for a while, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 15, 2007, at 8:06:57

Sure you will still click; maybe a little hesitation; maybe a little anger??? I don't know, but whatever you feel is okay. Four hours out of your life; that is a good way of looking at it; if it works, let me know. I am not sure it would work for me.

So under some stress and you are thinking of writing a paper???? Hum; unless that works for you, and it would not for me, I could think of better things to do to occupy time. Of course I have had to do my job whether my therapist is around or not, and so I could see something like that working. Do I sound like I don't know what the heck I am talking about? Guess I am trying to look at both sides of your dilemma. Take care and thanks for your support.

RealMe (OzLand)

 

Re: my last T for a while » DAisym

Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 17, 2007, at 15:33:15

In reply to Re: my last T for a while » JoniS, posted by DAisym on August 15, 2007, at 11:55:06

And Babble. It is what I do when my therapist is gone.

Can you tell that I've been freakin' babbling all day long? H had the car at work and I was under house arrest. HeLp!!!

I even had to do housework. At least the therapy quilt is making some slow progress. One square at a time...

 

Re: my last T for a while » JoniS

Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 17, 2007, at 15:34:40

In reply to Re: my last T for a while » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by JoniS on August 15, 2007, at 8:17:54

> Hang in there Llurpsie. Of course you'll still click when he comes back :-)
>
> You have a good plan to manage for the next few weeks. Staying busy and keeping your brain focused and challenged - that what helps me too.

I had a *sick day* today with sweats and moaning and tea drinking and migraine, but I hope I get back on track soon...

>
> I'll bet when you see him again it wont even feel like 2 weeks have passed and you'll be surprised at well you've held it together!
>
> Take Care

oh, I HOPE you're right. Thanks for your warm wishes. :)

 

Re: my last T for a while » RealMe

Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 17, 2007, at 15:39:11

In reply to Re: my last T for a while » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by RealMe on August 16, 2007, at 21:44:52

> So under some stress and you are thinking of writing a paper???? Hum; unless that works for you, and it would not for me, I could think of better things to do to occupy time. Of course I have had to do my job whether my therapist is around or not, and so I could see something like that working. Do I sound like I don't know what the heck I am talking about? Guess I am trying to look at both sides of your dilemma. Take care and thanks for your support.

Haha, the reason why writing the paper works is that I drop my h off at work and then I go to the cafe for 3 hours, and can work in relative peace with unlimited coffee (decaf) for long stretches of time. no housework to distract me. no craft projects beckoning for 6 minutes of my undivided inattention. That's the problem with staying home- I can't seem to concentrate on anything for more than 5 minutes at a time. Then I get kind of bored and agitated and in a foul mood. my mind starts to wander and I wonder what the hell am I doing with my life.

Writing the paper is a double bonus, because I feel some accomplishment. I get a kick out of data analysis. sick, huh? and if my brain is in a funk, I can just format graphs and make tables and stuff like that. busy brain = less space to miss T and the structure that biweekly appts. creates.

I need structure.

-Ll

>
> RealMe (OzLand)

 

Re: my last T for a while » LlurpsieNoodle

Posted by RealMe on August 17, 2007, at 19:49:07

In reply to Re: my last T for a while » RealMe, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 17, 2007, at 15:39:11

No you are not sick; I had fun with that stuff too and actually miss doing research. It is nice to see something you wrote in print too. Anyway, I guess I understand. The being at home part; I would not be able to do it at home either. Sometimes I think the only thing that saves me right now is that I have to get my sorry *ss out of bed in the morning and go to work.

If no job, I would find it so easy to crawl in bed and pull the covers over my head. A schedule--baaa; but I used to have to do that in a very basic way too so as not to crawl in bed. Your brush my teeth tasks remind me of how I started out trying to get on track. UGH. I remember all to well.

So, sounds like you are getting there and have enough self-motivation to move forward. And here I was envying people who got to be at home. It's a double edged sword, I guess. I stay at work from 7:30 a.m. to 6:30 or 7:00 p.m. most evenings except on days of therapy when I go to therapy at 6:45 a.m. He says he wants me coming early in the morning (I have to get up at 4:15 a.m. to get there) as then my defenses are not up yet. He's right. No wonder I blubber, but I hate doing that. Oh well.

I am happy you are getting some stability and don't worry; the other job stuff will happen. Used to be that lots of people took a year off after finishing the big degree. So, hey; that can be you!! I sort of wish I had done so.

RealMe (OzLand)

 

Re: my last T for a while

Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 23, 2007, at 10:48:42

In reply to Re: my last T for a while » LlurpsieNoodle, posted by RealMe on August 17, 2007, at 19:49:07

I'm pacing the house. don't know what to do with my hours. stomachache is making sporadic appearances. Can't seem to focus on a task for more than 5 minutes, hence my dearth of babble posts.

I just feel so... blah. a little grey, with streaks of dark charcoal and black. Wondering whether an increase in zoloft might help. not with the stomachache, but with the other stuff?

I guess I miss my therapy sessions. I'm not going to go so far as to say I miss my t. perish the thought.

llurpsie, hang in there. the house has a circular floorplan. pacing is okay. and pacing the neighborhood. might burn off remaining blubber. AAAAAAHHHHHHhhhh. I've even been working out to try to banish the greys. :(

hug.

-Ll

 

(((((((((((((((((((((((((LL))))))))))))))))))))))) (nm)

Posted by muffled on August 23, 2007, at 12:34:28

In reply to Re: my last T for a while, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 23, 2007, at 10:48:42

 

thank you muffled for hugs ((muff)) (nm) » LlurpsieNoodle

Posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 23, 2007, at 12:58:49

In reply to Re: my last T for a while, posted by LlurpsieNoodle on August 23, 2007, at 10:48:42


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