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Posted by sunnydays on June 26, 2006, at 20:54:09
I'm seeing my pdoc (actually, a nurse practitioner) soon. I'm nervous. Last time she asked me about my trauma history and it really upset me for weeks. My T said she probably won't ask me about it because he talked to her, but I'm scared. He was mad that she asked last time. He had already told her about it, so I don't know why she even asked. And I'm feeling very overwhelmed and scared and nervous. And I don't even know if I'll be able to tell her the truth when I go see her. I feel like I'll want to lie and say I've been feeling fine, but I really haven't. But I'm scared. And I don't really want to talk to her. And my T is on vacation, so I won't even be seeing him any time soon if something does come up that upsets me. Things are so hard sometimes.
Posted by annierose on June 26, 2006, at 22:24:31
In reply to a little scared, posted by sunnydays on June 26, 2006, at 20:54:09
Since your T did talk to her, you gotta believe that she will not probe deeper. But you need to tell her the truth. She can't help monitor your medications if you don't share how you are feeling.
I know it's hard, especially without having the support of your T right now. But the best way to get help is to be honest.
Good Luck.
Posted by sunnydays on June 27, 2006, at 8:58:28
In reply to Re: a little scared » sunnydays, posted by annierose on June 26, 2006, at 22:24:31
Thanks, I see her tomorrow. What I'm worried about is that I'll dissociate, and then I can't seem to help it even if I want to be honest, because I'm so gone that sometimes I can't even talk. Or I can talk, but I can't remember anything I was going to tell her, so I end up telling her I'm fine. So I just have to try to keep myself really present, but it's hard, because sometimes I get like that in the waiting room, and then I can talk to her, but she doesn't know... Anyway, I'm not being very clear, but thank you. I see her tomorrow. I'm really going to try to be honest, it's just hard. And my T said he talked to her, but that you never know, so she might ask me. I haven't seen her in 3-4 months, so she might forget.
Posted by muffled on June 27, 2006, at 9:42:03
In reply to Re: a little scared, posted by sunnydays on June 27, 2006, at 8:58:28
Hi,
I HATE dissociating too. I do it WAY less though, even in stressful situations. But anyways, do you have anxiety meds you can take?
Also remember that YOU are in control, you don't HAVE to say anything.
I find deep breathing helps me ALOT.
Take care,
Muffled
Posted by ElaineM on June 27, 2006, at 14:50:13
In reply to a little scared, posted by sunnydays on June 26, 2006, at 20:54:09
((((sunnydays))))
If your T said he talked to her, then maybe she wrote it in your file. And then she'd know without you having to remind her. I can understand how it's even more anxiety-provoking that this appointment coincides with your T's vacation. doesn't it always happen that way? ;)take care, Elaine
Posted by sunnydays on June 27, 2006, at 19:36:32
In reply to Re: a little scared, posted by muffled on June 27, 2006, at 9:42:03
Hi,
No, no anxiety meds, and I don't really need them, I think. I don't have panic attacks, I just get in this zone where I'm not really feeling and it's hard to talk. Thanks for reminding me to breathe. It's really important, but I am always amazed at how I seem to forget that. I find that I'm breathing so shallowly sometimes that I'm dizzy. I'm hoping it goes well.
sunnydays
Posted by sunnydays on June 27, 2006, at 19:38:09
In reply to Re: a little scared, posted by ElaineM on June 27, 2006, at 14:50:13
Hi,
Thanks for your response. Well..... if she didn't remember, I probably wouldn't remind her. :) I try to avoid the subject of my trauma history with a 10-foot pole. But I'm hoping I'll be fine. Breathe.... breathe..... uggh, this is hard.
sunnydays
Posted by sunnydays on June 27, 2006, at 19:39:02
In reply to Re: a little scared, posted by sunnydays on June 27, 2006, at 19:38:09
Posted by Dinah on June 27, 2006, at 19:47:22
In reply to a little scared, posted by sunnydays on June 26, 2006, at 20:54:09
I prepared a little answer long ago. Something along the lines of "My therapist and I are working on this, thank you." But I never needed it, since my pdoc never asks nonmed questions.
However, my therapist told me that it's perfectly ok to tell my pdoc that I'd rather not talk about therapy issues.
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