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Anyone go inpatient for DID/ways to know parts?

Posted by kerria on August 27, 2005, at 17:48:22

Hi,
i just wanted to know if there are any good treatment places if one has to go inpatient and if there's anyone here that i may have met in a trauma treatment center in WA state or MD state.

Also if anyone has any ideas on getting to know parts.

Thanks so much,
kerria

 

knowing parts » kerria

Posted by Pfinstegg on August 27, 2005, at 19:32:58

In reply to Anyone go inpatient for DID/ways to know parts?, posted by kerria on August 27, 2005, at 17:48:22

I have a somewhat different situation from yours- an ego state disorder- but the basic challenge is the same- getting to know, accept and integrate unconscious feeling states involving younger traumatized selves. I do think a very empathic therapist is key. You have said that your therapist is very skilled at dealing with DID, but from how you have described him, he really doesn't sound very caring. This is probably his own personal limitation, but I think it puts you in an impossible situation- not one where you can gain confidence and move towards health. Do you have any other therapist choices? It would be such a relief for you to find one who feels warm and caring. I don't personally know of inpatient services specifically for that, although you said that you had been in a good one twice in Washington State. Realistically, treatment does need to be long-term for DID, so it might be better to search for the best out-patient therapist you can possibly find, and then stick with him/her. I wouldn't be able to deal with some of your therapist's comments without feeling awful and turning the blame for the interpersonal situation on myself. People with dissociative disorders have good prognoses when the therapist-client match is good, but you sound so discouraged and hopeless. That could change a lot with a new therapist.

 

Re: knowing parts » Pfinstegg

Posted by kerria on August 28, 2005, at 8:35:16

In reply to knowing parts » kerria, posted by Pfinstegg on August 27, 2005, at 19:32:58

Hi Pfinstegg,

Three times i tried to answer your posting and i kept clicking the wrong places . i hate when i can't do anything right. Parts are not wanting me to say anything. i think there'a a lot of guilty feelings about what i said about my T and parts are on both sides of whether he cares or not.
It's a mess to think about.
Anyways, i can't change Ts.

therapy is so hard when there are different ego states and different parts. everything is so hard.

thank you so much for responding.
about the inpatient places i was hoping to find a friend that we shared some time with- not go there again. Too hard- no where to ground.

Take care,
kerria

 

Re: knowing parts » kerria

Posted by Pfinstegg on August 28, 2005, at 10:03:23

In reply to Re: knowing parts » Pfinstegg, posted by kerria on August 28, 2005, at 8:35:16

Why can't you change T's (if you want to)?

 

Re: knowing parts » Pfinstegg

Posted by kerria on August 28, 2005, at 13:59:15

In reply to Re: knowing parts » kerria, posted by Pfinstegg on August 28, 2005, at 10:03:23

i can't change Ts because there is no 'i' .
There's a mess of parts who feel all different ways about T.

we love T and hate T and everything inbetween.
It's hard to do anything that involves a heavy decision.
Also for practical reasons.
It's hard to find a T that will take on a patient with complex DID.
They all know my T - all the Ts that work with trauma disorders in my area. They would worry (correctly) that we can't make the transition.
Financially it's easier to go to my T because he does the insurance filing.
It would be too hard for us- T's is the only one that knows my parts mostly- he knows me better than i do - scary but true.

take care,
kerria

 

Re: knowing parts » kerria

Posted by Pfinstegg on August 28, 2005, at 16:17:08

In reply to Re: knowing parts » Pfinstegg, posted by kerria on August 28, 2005, at 13:59:15

I understand. Maybe this is just a particularly difficult time in therapy, with the parts out more, disagreeing with what other parts may feel and think, and making you feel all broken apart. I don't have quite a tough a situation as you, but I do know what it's like to have different parts having different views- of one another and of my therapist. I think it's the toughest phase of therapy, but maybe the most promising for the future, too.

Do keep posting here to us, as much as it's helpful.

 

Re: knowing parts » Pfinstegg

Posted by kerria on August 30, 2005, at 18:07:31

In reply to Re: knowing parts » kerria, posted by Pfinstegg on August 28, 2005, at 16:17:08

Thank you for support and caring, Pfinstegg.

Everything is so hard now. i'm in so much pain- it's so hard to control everyday and i'm not doing anything because it hurts so much. i'm so many hours at missing work and just now i tried to take two busses to go to therapy- it's really important for me to get to therapy- and two buses were late and i lost the connection. And after all the trouble and pain to get ready and walk to the bus stop and walk home.

:( i'm a hiker and love to walk but the pain makes everything so unbearable.

When i don't go to therapy i don't know what parts are doing. T talks to them and it brings us together.

Tomorrow's my appt with the dr that doesn't want to treat me- the only one that is giving me some medicine now. i hope my h can come and that he will somehow have a change of heart and give me medicine that works and doesn't sedate - i'm so afraid. i never was so afraid and everything so out of control like this terrible pain.

i need help.
Thanks for your support- it means so much. it feels like we're falling off the edge of the world,

:(kerria

i need to have pain controlled, and to get to therapy.


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