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Horrible psych eval experience today

Posted by shadows721 on June 24, 2004, at 15:50:18

I went to the appt made by the work comp for a psych eval. It was horrible. It lasted 3 hours and 20 min. I went off of the man. I yelled at him. He was so cold. He kept drilling for dates, doctors, etc. He wanted to know a lot about my childhood. I didn't want to say much. He was heartless. I switched to a child in there. I was so embarrassed. I lost control. I am sick and tired of the whole experience. I hurt by back and I have had a hx of sexual abuse. I have had tx. This has been like an invasion of privacy. Because of the litagation, everything is open for grabs. I lost it in there. I demanded to tape this session due to the questioning. He said no. He wouldn't allow my mother in there. Again, I feel violated. I became a RN and I got hurt within 3 wks of the injury. Since then, my life has been in the hands of work comp. He kept writing down things. I was paranoid. He asked about the Dissociation. He is one that does believe in it. Well, I guess he got to see it 1st hand. I am embarrassed. I feel ashamed. I am so out of it right now. I don't feel anything. I am so numb. I couldn't protect myself. He kept asking questions and questions for that question. My mind isn't working right I told him. God, help me out of this maze.

 

OMG!!! shadows721

Posted by Racer on June 24, 2004, at 18:35:35

In reply to Horrible psych eval experience today, posted by shadows721 on June 24, 2004, at 15:50:18

How awful!

Do you have a lawyer? You NEED a lawyer for worker's comp -- trust me, you NEED one. In CA, at least, there is an entire DEPARTMENT at the worker's comp department devoted solely to handling the appeals processes for all the people who get shifted through without an attorney. I had an attorney when I was injured, and even so they attempted to say that they'd OVERPAID me and I'd have to repay some of it!!! (I think my lawyer actually enjoyed that part of it, though, and I trusted him pretty well.)

What you experienced is not necessarily typical of the whole process, dear one, I promise. Some of it is terrible, there's no question, but that doesn't mean it will all be such a nightmare. Can you find a comfy quilt and a big comfy chair or sofa to curl yourself up in? Maybe with a fuzzy critter? Sometimes that helps me through the absolute worst of it. (Except that my cat always bites me -- those love nips, only too hard.) Oh, you don't know how much I'm aching for you right now, wishing I could help you. Maybe knowing that will help you transfer some of it off of you?

 

Re: OMG!!!

Posted by shadows721 on June 24, 2004, at 18:49:17

In reply to OMG!!! shadows721, posted by Racer on June 24, 2004, at 18:35:35

I have a work comp atty. Obviously, the other side had a right to do this. I have a psych doc. I have never been through anything like this. I shook violently and cried in his office. I said I was sorry like a child to him. I lost it. I felt he broke me. I felt I didn't or wasn't able to protect myself, because my mind is so off. I literally lost tract of his questions. I told him enough, move on at a point. My mind just couldn't keep up. Questions about all most of my relatives, etc. I yelled, I have lost all rights to my privacy for God's sake. My head hurts so bad. I literally felt like I was looking through a glass window on the way home. I called my psychiatrist's office to ask about this questioning for over 3 hours. The secretary said she has never heard of a psych eval lasting that long. It was Hell. I cried, screamed, shook and God knows what else. I almost hit that man. He kept pushing for more and more info. I was like I am an upright citizen of the US. I have never committed a crime. I am only a human being. God help me. I am losing it.

 

Re: OMG!!!

Posted by antigua on June 24, 2004, at 18:56:16

In reply to Re: OMG!!!, posted by shadows721 on June 24, 2004, at 18:49:17

Please try to hold on. What can you do?

Take a nice warm bath
Eat ice cream or something warm and soft (cream of wheat?)
meditate
light candles and watch the light bounce off the walls
watch a funny movie
go for a walk
aromatherapy
go shopping??

I don't know what to say to help. I feel just horrible for you. Your value is in no way related to what has happened to you.

Please hold on,
antigua

 

Re: OMG!!! shadows721

Posted by Racer on June 24, 2004, at 19:14:09

In reply to Re: OMG!!!, posted by shadows721 on June 24, 2004, at 18:49:17

Oh, my dear, I am so sorry this was done to you. There's nothing more I can say, except to echo Antigua: hold on. Just a little longer, hold on. You can do it.

(Later, when you talk to your attorney about this part, this may actually be actionable. Please don't feel that this was in any way appropriate, nor that you caused it in any way, nor that you deserve it in any way, nor that there's anything wrong about your reaction. What you described is torture, even if the other side has legal right to put you through a psych eval.)

(By the way, I had a psych eval years back, too -- and it was nothing whatsoever like what you've described here.)

This really was torture that you were subjected to. It really and truly is wrong. It doesn't sound as if you doubt that, which shows an enormous amount of strength and resiliance. I truly hope that those valuable qualities will help you hold on until it gets better. And I hope that better part happens very soon. You already know that you can always find support here, and you have an attorney to help you with the rest of it, and a pdoc to help, too. Please use all your available resources?

And Shadows? Is there anything you can think of that any of us can offer to help you get through this? Would it help to hear other horror stories? Funny horror stories? Theories about what's wrong with the system to allow this to happen? Jokes? Interesting facts we've come across along the way that might distract you? Anything at all that anyone here can provide for you? You know that someone here can do almost anything you can ask for -- and WILL, for you. (A hit on the monster who did this is probably out of the question, of course. Although, personally, I'm so outraged that -- never mind.)

Hold on. Try to be well comforted, whatever that looks like to you.

 

Re: OMG!!!

Posted by gardenergirl on June 24, 2004, at 20:04:42

In reply to Re: OMG!!! shadows721, posted by Racer on June 24, 2004, at 19:14:09

Oh sweetie, I'm so sorry you had to go through such a horrible experience. It sounds like H&ll! No one deserves that. Of course you lost it. I probably would too. I'm holding you in my thoughts and sending you as much comforting energy as I can. Just breath. Keep breathing. If you start to think about it, just go back to breathing.

You've been through so much lately. Please take all the support you can find, here on Babble, IRL, from whatever higher power you may recognize. Try to put this away for the night. Later, when you are feeling somewhat stronger again, and I know you will, there are things you can do to address this within the system.

Maybe crushed can help, too, if she is available.

Take care dear one.

(((((shadows)))))

gg

 

Re: Horrible psych eval experience today shadows721

Posted by Aphrodite on June 25, 2004, at 6:30:28

In reply to Horrible psych eval experience today, posted by shadows721 on June 24, 2004, at 15:50:18

That is one of the most horrific stories I've heard. I am so sorry. Can you see your own therapist soon to process all of this?

It is perfectly understandable that you reacted from a very old and deep place when you were under siege. I don't understand how there can be such unfeeling and inept people in this profession. But there are. Lots of them.

I echo Racer's question -- what can we do to help?

I purchased the journal that you recommended, and it's really helped me. Did you do the part where you had a guide and a shield? If you did, think of your guide. Do you remember that he or she yells, "Shield!" on your behalf when you are attacked and you are to mentally grab it and put it up against the enemy? Can you visualize that now? The next part was the light source. What did you choose? I chose a lantern. The light and guide help you find the way off of the battlefield and back to peace. I hope you can do that now.

 

Re: Horrible psych eval experience today

Posted by shadows721 on June 25, 2004, at 13:04:47

In reply to Re: Horrible psych eval experience today shadows721, posted by Aphrodite on June 25, 2004, at 6:30:28

I took my PRN meds to calm me down and cried to bed. I woke up thinking that I should have grabbed those papers right out of that butt head's hands. I realized again from this experience that my threshold is very low.

Thank you for the tip. I need to use it.

 

Re: Horrible psych eval experience today shadows721

Posted by terrics on June 26, 2004, at 13:06:52

In reply to Horrible psych eval experience today, posted by shadows721 on June 24, 2004, at 15:50:18

Unbelievable! Are they trying to pin your back injury on your psych problems? I cannot see how. It is not fair. Tell that idiot to try lifing a patient. [I'm an RN and had a back ache last night and today].

Can I ask something personal? How did they find out about your psych history? My current job knows mine because I was in the hospital last yr. and they wanted an able to return to work note. They know the whole mess. What happens if you want to get another job? I was told all of it is confidential. Is it? Good luck! terrics

 

Re: Horrible psych eval experience today

Posted by shadows721 on June 27, 2004, at 1:55:55

In reply to Re: Horrible psych eval experience today shadows721, posted by terrics on June 26, 2004, at 13:06:52

I fell into a deep depression after the injury due to the rentless pain. I had to get an attorney after reaching MMI (maximum medical improvment). I have been in tx for sexual abuse off an on for about 10 years. I started seeing a t due to all the chaos of my job and back pain, etc. When I went into the hospital for depression, my attorney stated that the work comp would be liable. In any work comp case litigation, they open ALL records. They want to even know the hospital you were born in. It's unbelievable. They want to EVERYTHING about you. Your parents age, health, etc. How you felt about your parents, yourself, your upbringing. I felt totally violated. I have never been through anything like this in my life.

As a nurse, please watch out for getting hurt, esp. your back. They will look down on you. Work comp is like a government all to itself. If your injury doesn't show on an x-ray, you are a lier. If you have something show, they think it's an old injury. Be careful about pulling up people in bed. They tell you where to work and what docs to see. Yes, you can see your own doc, but you will have to see there's too. It's awful. I have been treated like a criminal, but have received no work comp benefits at all. They will spend money on spying on you and their doctors and attorney, so they don't give you a darn pill for pain. It makes no sense at all. It's a nightmare!

I worked on Rehab. I didn't know what I was getting into. I was a brand new nurse 3 wks into a job with a whole future ahead.

 

nursing back injuries shadows721

Posted by gardenergirl on June 27, 2004, at 8:56:58

In reply to Re: Horrible psych eval experience today, posted by shadows721 on June 27, 2004, at 1:55:55

I used to work in rehab in a nursing home. I would see nurses aides and nurses get injured, often due to staff shortages, while lifting patients without additional help. And I also saw how they were treated by administration. It was not pretty. Even when the head physical therapist got injured...someone who is supposed to be a professional at transferring/lifting patients, they did not seem to understand that sometimes these things just happen.

It's very depressing.

gg


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