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i think it is really sad

Posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 10:19:21

when people feel ostracised :-(

sometimes people protest blocks
othertimes they don't
sometimes people say they'll miss the person
othertimes they don't

i think it is really sad.
i think most of us have problems
that is why we are here
i understand that sometimes...
people get blocked
:-(
:-(
:-(
but i still feel really sad about it.

i haven't really felt at home here for a while.
since on of my blocks.
bad timing etc etc
a time when my life was drastically changing
and i felt like i drastically changed with it
and i wanted babble to be my constant
but it wasn't meant to be
and there it is

and i'm sick
and raving
and borderline delusional about now
no doubt
but i do think it is sad

and i'm not sure what hope i have sometimes.

where did you go dr bob?

you have been quiet for a while now...
a while...

is it just me?

or are you making a graceful exit?

i'm sorry.

i'm sorry.

people scare me sometimes :-(

 

(estella)

Posted by zenhussy on August 23, 2006, at 10:35:46

In reply to i think it is really sad, posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 10:19:21

from old timer...find life. it isn't about timing. it is about you.

supportively for you to to find more that helps you.....whatever form(s) that may take....keep eyes and heart open.

fondly.

 

Re: (zen)

Posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 17:01:35

In reply to (estella), posted by zenhussy on August 23, 2006, at 10:35:46

Zen sweetie, thanks for your reply. I think I've found life. It's that thing hanging round my neck or biting me on the *ss or cracking the whip behind me. Sorry for the mixed metaphors but I guess I'm conveying the general idea that sometimes... I really don't like life very much. And I can't seem to... Make it stop.

I'm sorry Zen... I've got a t now. But it is complicated... I don't know what to say. Maybe time... To ask to go on meds. To see a p-doc. Or not. That could make me regress back... To a horrible place indeed. But maybe I need a p-doc onside. 'Cause its been 6 months and I'm cracking up already. 6 months down and 2 1/2 years to go. What am I doing? I don't understand :-( Self stabotage? I don't think so. It is just that it is becoming glaringly obvious to me that I don't really fit in and it is unclear whether I can do this... And now it is becoming glaringly obvious to me why it is that... Nobody thought I could do this. Why pepole kept trying to dissuade me etc. They weren't just being f*ckwits. They had a point.

I'm sorry Zen

 

((((Estella)))) » Estella

Posted by muffled on August 23, 2006, at 19:31:44

In reply to Re: (zen), posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 17:01:35

Your proly triggered by this board.
Its a crazy one at best.
They should put a trigger warning on this whole board.
I think you got alot in ya Estella.
There's nothing wrong with the right meds.
Sometimes just for awhile.
To get thru the rough patches.
Like I can talk.
Sigh.
(((((((((((((E)))))))))))))))))

 

Re: i think it is really sad

Posted by verne on August 23, 2006, at 22:23:05

In reply to i think it is really sad, posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 10:19:21

Estella,

You've really hung in there. You've adapted and come back strong. Way to go!

You remind me of the old American Pony Express - the mail will get through.

Verne

 

Re: i think it is really sad

Posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 22:30:44

In reply to Re: i think it is really sad, posted by verne on August 23, 2006, at 22:23:05

aw.

thanks guys. verne... i know you aren't into cyberhugs at all... I wish I knew a symbol for a cyberhandshake <aka gesture of appreciation>

(((((((muffled)))))))

guess what?

i got my period

(sorry if that was more than you needed to know)

<cringe>

i'm so f'ing predictable.

to everyone but me of course.

<blush>

 

Re: how are you doing gg???? (nm)

Posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 22:31:18

In reply to Re: i think it is really sad, posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 22:30:44

 

LOL! Ain't that the truth! » Estella

Posted by Racer on August 23, 2006, at 22:45:11

In reply to Re: i think it is really sad, posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 22:30:44

>
>
> i'm so f'ing predictable.
>
> to everyone but me of course.
>
> <blush>

I keep having these revelations in therapy, learning new things about myself, and I'm so excited -- and I'll say, "Hey! You know what I just figured out about myself?" And my therapist will just about fall out of her chair laughing -- "I knew that about you. We all knew that about you. You're the only one who didn't realize it!"

And I'll say, "Well, I wish someone had told me..."

You know, life would be a heck of a lot easier if someone would just introduce us to ourselves, don't you think?

(Seriously, though -- I think you can do this. I also think that starting meds for a while would help you a lot with it. Don't think of it as regression -- think of it as PROgression. This time 'round, you're proactively going on meds to to help you through a rotten adjustment phase. You need to adjust to a new place, and you're having trouble with that. Once you get more settled in -- six months? That's nothing -- you may not need the drugs anymore. But isn't it better to have the help now, when you need it?)

Take care, and I hope you're well.

 

Re: LOL! Ain't that the truth!

Posted by Phillipa on August 23, 2006, at 23:29:49

In reply to LOL! Ain't that the truth! » Estella, posted by Racer on August 23, 2006, at 22:45:11

Estella meds might not be a bad idea for a little while. Love Phillipa

 

Re: LOL! Ain't that the truth!

Posted by Estella on August 24, 2006, at 0:02:48

In reply to LOL! Ain't that the truth! » Estella, posted by Racer on August 23, 2006, at 22:45:11

> And I'll say, "Well, I wish someone had told me..."

lol. yeah, i know what you mean there :-)

Thanks Racer.

I guess that partly what I'm thinking is that I need some stuff in place, just in case. Partly I think that that is being realistic. And that is probably right. I'm also a little worried that I might get worse if there is a way to 'opt out' for a while, if you get what I mean. Not sure if I'm making much sense...

But yeah, I think it is important for me to do this. Have an appoitment with a GP for next Tuesday (jeepers there are queues to see GPs over here...). So I'll ask about my (potential) emphesema and asthma and bronchitus and probably get some antibiotics and a lecture on not smoking (I'm TRYING gosh darned it). And I'll ask about getting a p-doc too. And... I'll see if I can get a lady too. Maybe. I think that might be better for me. Maybe. We will see.

And maybe a therapist too. Maybe.

I guess it depends on... Whether they are strict on their reading of 'resident' (currently residing vs a legal resident) and how backed up their public health system is. Given the wait lists to get in to see GP's it ain't looking too good, I must say...


 

Re: LOL! Ain't that the truth!

Posted by Estella on August 24, 2006, at 0:05:26

In reply to Re: LOL! Ain't that the truth!, posted by Phillipa on August 23, 2006, at 23:29:49

yeah maybe.
trouble is i never found anything that worked for me.
so... weeks of sedation while i adjust...
weeks of withdrawal as i find the nasty side effects are worse than no meds at all...
and so on and so forth.

i don't know.

but it is a way in to seeing a dr i guess.

also... i'm nearly out of benzos.

(i got 15 tablets 8 months ago and i've used 10). but i'm not so scared of them anymore. take them... once every fortnight / month now.

 

Re: how are you doing gg???? » Estella

Posted by gardenergirl on August 24, 2006, at 8:31:42

In reply to Re: how are you doing gg???? (nm), posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 22:31:18

Hmmm, wondering what's wrong with me? But then, I'm late for everything! :)

gg

 

Re: i think it is really sad

Posted by james K on August 24, 2006, at 15:02:00

In reply to i think it is really sad, posted by Estella on August 23, 2006, at 10:19:21

I wanted to throw in that I noticed and appreciated that you Estella are supportive and respectful to ALL babblers. I'm going to take it as an example.

James K


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