Psycho-Babble Medication Thread 994124

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Doctor Shopping

Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 17:08:05

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Doctor_shopping

See many people have seen me as an addict and they pre deterimined that I would get a presciption pad and write presciptions to what I wanted and that is absolutly not true. I was at a rehab and my counselor kept pointing out this method of writing fraudant presciptions to me when I had no buisness with doing it at all. It really angers me when people say "addict" they refer to many negative perspectives of that person such as addiction. But not me. I admit I am a drug addict but I have some conditions that prevent me from being successful and cause me to crave stimulants. I mean yea, when I take a stimulant it improves many aspects of my defecits but I have been brainwashed my all these people that I'm an addict and i've been treated like sh*t. My mother was the 1st person that did this along with many social workers that knew me at rehab's.

People, babble. I need some help. Can I go to other doctors than the one of my own which is not help at all and actaully makes me more miserable than I should be than another doctor who understands what I'm saying AND STILL knows that I'm a recovering addict. I found a doctor that specializes in ADHD and I talk with the receptionsist about this and they told me it was 195 per session and 700 dollers for ADHD testing. I can't afford that. I may can afford the 195$ but not the 700.

I can also see State doctors who work at JPS in fort worth but I'm scared to go because my mother finds out because they bill us at the house.

See I've heard many people talk about "shopping around" here on babble and I need to know do I just pick a phone book and look for doctors and psychiatrists?? I've got to get to another doctor away from this sh*tty one that doesnt do anything.

 

Re: Doctor Shopping

Posted by emmanuel98 on August 17, 2011, at 18:00:04

In reply to Doctor Shopping, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 17:08:05

You are sending mixed messages to the board. On the one hand, you say you are and addict and going to NA and need to avoid addictive substances. On the other hand, you are seeking a doctor to prescribe adderall and other addictive substances.

Which is it? Do you think you need adderall for ADHD and can now use it in safety, though you couldn't in the past?

Have you tried counseling and the steps as a way to manage your ADHD?

 

Re: Doctor Shopping

Posted by Christ_empowered on August 17, 2011, at 18:12:38

In reply to Doctor Shopping, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 17:08:05

OK...if you open up about a history of addiction (or they know about you through other doctors), no adderall. If you keep that from them and focus on your symptoms, or tell them about it and offer to do drug testing periodically, maybe adderall. Maybe.

I don't think this doc you have is so great, but I don't think its b/c she won't Rx adderall. I think she sounds like a bully with an MD. Why pay her? I'm glad you're looking for someone new, but you're focusing on the wrong thing.

 

Re: Doctor Shopping

Posted by Phillipa on August 17, 2011, at 18:51:40

In reply to Re: Doctor Shopping, posted by Christ_empowered on August 17, 2011, at 18:12:38

Google docs in your area. Maybe addiction special's who deal with patients that have adhd? Just a thought. Phillipa

 

Re: Christ Empowered

Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 19:58:49

In reply to Re: Doctor Shopping, posted by Christ_empowered on August 17, 2011, at 18:12:38

you saved my life. Alot of people on these boards have mixed feelings about me. THANK SO MUCH for your advice. At this point I'm really feeling everything is doomed exepct if I get my own place from my own money which if my parents found out I was taking stimulants they would take the car away. Yes, its crazy but its who they are.

This is what much of life ended when I was taken off them. I can't even take care of myself fairly. I have resorted to food and alcohol which ACTAULLY got me in NA. So I go very long periods without alcohol or food but eventaully I will go back to it because the craving will drive me up the wall. I really feel i've done something horrible by wasting my life with all the horrile choices I made. This is what I see what would happen if I found a doctor that would prescibe adderall. I would abuse it but I would steadly learn to take it correctly. Have you seen that movie Limitness?? about that substance he finds and it makes everything much better then when he dosent have it its almost close to death because of withdrawls he has. So at the end of the movie he makes a choice to take this substance with caution and move on with his life. That's exactly what I would do. I'm not a dumb addict. I know drugs will kill you if you take them carelessly. There was someone on these boards name Amie Sans Vie that took amphatamines, barbiturates, benzos and who knows what else. He got a doctor to prescribe him all these narcotics and he died. It's just too much to take when you put that in your body. That's something I would not do. I know combinations lead to death especailly with alcohol.

I really want to ask this board to understand and tell me what I should do. What to say to the doctor. I've lived like an animal for these past months. I get out of bed. I cry. I dont feel like taking the time to groome myself and make myself look clean cut like I used to when I was on stimulants. I've lost all motivation to live.

 

emanuel

Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 23:54:12

In reply to Re: Doctor Shopping, posted by emmanuel98 on August 17, 2011, at 18:00:04

If you could see where i've came maybe you could understand. I know I would abuse adderall again but .. it's like that movie Limitless. He finds the perfect substance and does wonders on it but when it runs out he has withdrawls that almost lead to death and he has to have it. But as time went on he eventually learned to use it in moderation. There are plenty of people out there who use or take drugs and have a legal script to them. In reguarding the stimulant that I need...It's very helpful and improves many aspects of my attention to where I can focus better and live a productive life.

You know the other day I was craving Ativan for anxiety and it got so bad I took clonodine and that didnt do anything like usally. And then I started craving alcohol. Now, alcohol makes me DEPRESSED. I mean the first couple minutes of it when its giving you some euphoria is ok but i hate it. I have many tears that I cry when I drink because it makes me so incredibly depressed. See I know many recovering addicts that see doctors and get meds no big deal. I think I need to not tell doctors of my addiction history because what ever they don't know won't hurt them. I just NEED to get a job and move out and my own doctor. If you can help me do that. You are a true friend.

Matt

ps: my babblemail is not working. Please wait so I can change it to my email.

 

phillipa

Posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 18, 2011, at 0:07:42

In reply to Re: Doctor Shopping, posted by Phillipa on August 17, 2011, at 18:51:40

Hey Phillie

Yea there's alot of ADHD specialist around I just have to find them. This is going to be hard.

Love ,

Matt

 

Re: Doctor Shopping

Posted by leo33 on August 26, 2011, at 14:38:47

In reply to Doctor Shopping, posted by rjlockhart04-08 on August 17, 2011, at 17:08:05

Go for the medications that help you. Just because certain addictive medicines help you it does not mean you are an addict. It is my opinion that all of the meds are addicting and just are not classified that way yet. It seems the one thing that separates it being addicting is if it makes you feel better and hence you want that med to feel better. Your dealing with a mental illness and trying to function. It should be based on functionality and efficacy, not to some policy or belief of the prescriber. The addiction treatment in this country is abysmal. I got classified as an addict as well cause marijuana helped my symptoms and functionality. Also Klonopin worked well for 4 years and never going above 1mg, most times I didn't even take that much. Then I went to a clinic to continue my treatment and all they did was harass me about taking the klonopin. I disliked that so much that I just stopped taking it and ended up hospitalized. Then going on the antidepressant/antipsychotic med merry go round and ended up overdosing because of the medications making me worse. I am still on the med merry go round because I can't get past the startup side effects plus they are not working well, I am sensitive to meds. I get anxiety and agitation from SSRI's plus anhedonia/dysphoria, the antipsychotic's make me depressed and sleepy and dysphoric. My prescriber is just feed up because I won't stay on a med that doesn't help me feel or function better. I have been on Pristq, effexor, seroquel, paxil, zoloft, wellbutrin, neurontin, now trying buspar thou it makes me dizzy and feel like I am having anxiety attack. I have been on almost every med you can think of over the last 20 years except the stims and most anticonvulsants. I have klonopin and it works when I take it and have had same bottle since October, everytime I tell them I used one and it worked I get called an addict. They are more worried about me using the Klonopin than being suicidal or depressed/anxious or disabled, it's unbelievable. Do what is best for you, if you are not abusing them or snorting them etc, then use the med that works!!


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