Posted by Jai Narayan on September 13, 2004, at 19:44:46
In reply to Re: Mummy’s Little Shadow - Triggering » Jai Narayan, posted by vwoolf on September 13, 2004, at 11:46:23
Oh my I know exactually how you feel. It made me sick. I almost vomited in therapy.
Until I knew, I couldn't work on my self recovery. I had to realize what was wrong.
I eventually choose men that threatened to kill me.
I thought my life was a game...
they hurt me then I hurt them.
I went through many relationships in this way.
I chose two kinds of men; the dangerous ones and the kind ones.
The dangerous ones were exciting.
The kind ones were steady but boring.
so I thought I only had those two choices.
Well after I realized how I had been molested and worked on the memories. I left my husband (we both were unkind).
Started a new life and met the love of my life.
We are still together and he is kind and very interesting.
I have it all without the violence.
So my friend, I am wondering where this bit will take you?
You seem like a special person. I feel that way about you. I hope you will think about this. I'd like to see you and your baby safe.
I offer you another kind of life. I offer you the way out.
Think about it.
I will be there for you no matter what you decide.