Posted by vwoolf on September 13, 2004, at 11:09:09
In reply to Re: Mummy’s Little Shadow - Triggering » vwoolf, posted by gardenergirl on September 12, 2004, at 22:53:54
You know, GG, what pains me so much is the fact that I have lived with this all my life and have only now, at the age of 52, found the courage to face what happened and find the words for what happened to me. It was only this weekend that I managed to attach the word incest to my experience. I've never thought that before, although I have always known what happened to me. The events were isolated though, in a sort of bubble, (like those glass bubbles with snow that you shake, you know?)and I found it impossible to analyze them. And I feel so angry with myself for being so weak, that I couldn't deal with them. I have wasted my life out of fear. I think that is the worst thing for me at the moment.