Posted by Impermanence on October 28, 2009, at 8:24:57
In reply to Re: babblemail options, posted by Sigismund on October 27, 2009, at 19:38:36
Did somebody here contact my ISP? And they then in turn called my local police station.
Last night after another wonderful to hour talk with a suicide helpline and then went for a drive with my Mother and had a long chat.
I told her everything, we hugged. I stopped drinking, stopped wanting to die.
Now fast forward to this morning, I'm delirious and stoked in sweat. I was having vivid hallucinations, walking around by bedroom looking at all my stuff destroyed and a box of chocolates on my floor then in an instant I was still in bed shivering. 0!o WTF? Yes lucid dreaming. I was obviously going through withdrawals.
So I got up, cleaned my self up, forced a healthy breakfast down me and then there's a knock on my door from my father with two police officers who explained to me somebody reported my suicidal contemplation to my ISP and the rang the cops.
I thought this forum was anonymous and confidential and If somebody here did contact my ISP then I'm very disappointed and I doubt I'll be sharing my feelings here ever again.
Going through withdrawals and having to explain to cops you're not suicidal is a difficult situation to be put into, especally when you suffer from avoidance personality disorder and are a nervous wreak around people at the best of times.
In fairness the cops where very kind and felt assured I'm doing mush better today and as long as I keep off that demon booze and talk to a therapist everything will be fine.
You guys where wonderful when I was in that black abyss buy nobody had a right to interfere with my life, that was out of order.