Posted by adagiolover1 on January 30, 2005, at 11:17:10
In reply to Re: Opinions on AA? » Lee05, posted by partlycloudy on January 16, 2005, at 7:25:31
> It's a place that makes me cry because I see myself in each and every person in the room.
> It's a place that frightens me because I don't think I know how to place my trust in that Higher Power.
> It's a place that I am grateful will welcome me back as many times as it takes.
> It's a place that disgusts me when I see fragile and vulnerable people be victimized by those who come to the meetings for the wrong reasons.
> Every single meeting is different from one at another location.
Ah, I am familiar with those feelings, though admittedly they are many years in the past. for you I would try to ignore the 'victimisation' that you see in the rooms of recovery for now.
When you are stronger, and have a better sense of yourself, perhaps this is something you will tackle on a one to one basis, because in truth we can not change the nature of others. This is a good example of where acceptance is helpful, indeed paramount.
AA literally gave me my life back, after some 40 yrs of chaos. I am so NOT the person I was when I started, but so MUCH closer to being the person I always wanted to be.
good luck, and be patient with yourself.