Posted by Tony P on December 1, 2003, at 3:05:32
My main drug-of-choice in the last 5 years has been Robaxin (methocarbamol). Has anyone else had the same DOC?
It is available OTC where I live, and even open-shelf in combo with tylenol etc., which makes it soooo easy to acquire. It is a "soft" drug, but (along with depression and one alcohol relapse) has broken up my marriage, lost me my job of 20-odd years, and resulted in a year and a half without work or much normal life and about $20,000 on my line of credit. There's no question (in my sane moments) that I'm addicted to this drug (as well as others - see thread "Addicted to everything"!) but I am finding it really, really hard to stay away from. The normal dose is 3-6 g. per day, but lately I've regularly been taking 16 g. a day, occasionally more.
Because it is OTC, it is very easy to convince myself that it is not really the Robaxin that's the problem, that I can handle it if I stick within the recommended dose, etc., all the usual excuses. I am a member of NA, and am receiving all kinds of help - counselling, A/D meds, healing circle - but I just can't keep off this one drug. I feel despairing at times - the other day the thought crossed my mind that at this rate I won't last out the winter. My anti-depressant meds are currently being changed, but it will take another 6 weeks or so to get up to an effective level.
I feel so alone with this particular DOC, even though I know (in my head) addiction is addiction, no matter what the drug or behaviour. Is there anyone else out there with this DOC, or a similar OTC drug addiction??