Posted by Dinah on June 16, 2005, at 11:08:35
In reply to Re: Honors college » Minnie-Haha, posted by Dinah on June 16, 2005, at 9:09:38
I was not a well adjusted student.
Since tenth grade, when I realized that I could be top in the class, I became obsessed with not only making A's, but the highest A's in the class. And I succeeded.
I did not spectacularly on my SAT's, but high enough to be a National Merit Scholar. I entered a very competitive university with a very demanding premed schedule. After one semester I left, because I was close to a breakdown. Getting straight A's was a lot harder there. I did it, but only because a 50 was an A in Chemistry. Well, I actually got a B in P.E. but that wasn't supposed to count to my GPA.
My second school did count it, so that was my only B in my college career. Counted at 1 hour of credit. So I graduated summa cum laude with the highest grade in my college of the university. I continued on one post degree exam. At that point, I swore never to do anything academic again. Never. Ever again.
I've learned to be a mediocre, not even good enough employee. It was hard but I learned it.
But can I learn to be a good-enough student? Or will a B send me plunging into depression as it once did. I just as well failed as obtained a B. There was literally no difference to me. That's always been true since first grade.
This is one reason I think going back to school might be unwise. I'm older, but am I more balanced now?