Posted by rjlockhart37 on August 11, 2014, at 1:49:21
hey hey....it's me, just had some thoughts, this place has been here since 1998, i wrote messages all the way to 03, and it's really a epiphany that i can read things i posted all the way back then....some i do not want to read too....
but maybe tying to get a goal into everything, just my random thought for tonight....people [including me] can talk about coping skills with problems, but this is how i see it, i've been in self help, rehab's, outpatient facilites and thery all discuss problems "hi, im xxx. i suffer from anxiety and rejection" see there's nother wrong with it, justthere was a person who had the same story years, that was her whole current life was talking about her past.... being not wanted, ...but i have been hurt badly in the past, and i have intense pain inside me from from the past, simple have my alone time to get the emotions out, and relieve myself of it and move on....there has to be some way to remove the cords of sorrow and misery, find a new enlightenment, find god, a new way of thinking, to rid the mind's memories of the playground....
that movie called the hours, the guy that was in it, he jumped out of a window, he had pills of xanax all over the place mixing it with ritilin....it's "illness" because it's distant from everyone else, living in memories....thinking of all the good times that where in the past, or the sorrow, and live in that memory for the feeling of it.....mmm and yes i will do that at times at night, yet im only 27 and i have long long time to make new....but i'm not sure if you have heard of this paticular bible teacher, Joyce Meyer, she started preaching in her 50's and moved into a well known author and she's in her 70's, she is the most strong willed person to be strong and not give up at the end of road and lose energy
simple thought to improve miserable feelings, and get comfort in staying in misery....talking about the same thing over and over again, like some therpay groups who say the same thing for years.....coping mechanisms that are like platues....they don't move up....
so....that's all, and if i don't live up to my own words of what i write, hyprocrite
make an online status update on goals....i'm really looking for a new way of life.....
always look for new things, don't drift in the water and float and comfort self and say i'm living fine.....work work work and get that innertube moving to land
not a scholar but understand distress.....
"unheard pain, is the told through good company"
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