Posted by floatingbridge on June 15, 2011, at 12:54:18
In reply to Violence trigger, dream stuff, posted by sleepygirl2 on June 12, 2011, at 9:19:06
So you are the dream and the dreamer. If I talk about it, I'm projecting. All that said....
> This time I was in prison, which happened to be in the same building as my grammar school, so I knew the exits, and could get out. They were being picky about releasing me. They were waiting to release me to some sort of
governmental agents. They could've released me to my sister, but she had forgotten to pick me up. It was winter and the middle of the night.
You were like your teen self or if grammar school, then an time inclusive self?
> They said, as I pleaded for my release that "listen, we just don't know if you are just some narcissist.".
Narcissistic just begs for interpretation.
Did you participate in the thread on narcissism? Also, just me here, but there was something greatly shameful or pejorative about practicing self health esteem without a school sanctioned liscence. I recall ego battles w/instructors.
> An angry man was brought into the jail, a violent guy. I knew I had to avoid contact with him, but I needed my wallet which was next to him. I needed to make phone calls for people to pick me up. I managed to get it. Sometime after that he went around shooting people. I managed to avoid him.
Angry man, your own anger at being there? He was by your wallet and by extension your point of departure.
> I walked carefully, checking each room
for those who might've been shot, but were alive and needed help. One half paralyzed woman wanted help getting her legs on the bed, a bed only of metal
wires, without a mattress. I helped her
and gave her some candy, which is what she wanted.
I think how intact we might be after schooling requires an assessment.
> I was undercover as a grammar school
student, but I couldn't take the 14 hour classes. Some kids had to go to the
nurse, but we had strict criteria for that. I had to sneak out.
You had to sneak out. Could you lie, shoot it up, meet lengthy exit requirements? (Methinks no.)
> We were riding a train which came to a
break in the tracks, over water. One child was pushed into the water and almost drowned. I had to do CPR on her, and she was fragile after that.
Sweet pea, I'm so sorry. But you got your little girl after she was almost murdered. She's a little frail in this dream, but you have her :)
Thanks for letting me paw your dream.
* and whoever gazes at the stars will never again be quite alone...
c-ptsd & attendant health concerns