Posted by Deneb on September 19, 2010, at 21:39:01
In reply to Wake up call, posted by Deneb on September 19, 2010, at 17:43:44
It's not as bad as yesterday. I think I'm up to 1700 kcal now, but still, my goal was 1200 to 1300! I hate this! I'm a fat pig! Pdoc is going to weigh me in a week and I'm eating too much! I want to go back to restricting and having self control!
I think I need to fast tomorrow. If I can even fast! I need to gain control again! I'm so fat. I think I gained the 5 pounds I lost this weekend.
I'm going on a green tea fast for 24 hours. Then I will let myself eat for 2 hours then fast for another 24 hours.
Ahhhh! What if that just makes my binging worse?
I don't know what to do. :-(
I just want to be thin and live a long life.
I think I need to read my CR books again for inspiration. Somehow I have gotten it into my mind that eating ad lib is OK. Eating ad lib is not OK! I need to control myself!
I'm going to try the fasting for a bit, just to get my appetite under control again. Green tea! I need to remember to drinks lots and lots of green tea!
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