Posted by Dinah on April 20, 2010, at 8:31:51
In reply to Re: Unlikeable » Dinah, posted by SLS on April 20, 2010, at 7:05:58
> I forgot to mention that I like you.
Thanks Scott. That actually helps a lot.
I'm tempted to pass this off as a purely physical thing, like a panic attack or a shame attack. The intensity of how it hit me felt physical.
But if I look back over the past few months, I've definitely reversed my trend of taking chances and reaching out to people. The unfortunate truth is that people often *don't* like me, stretching back to middle school. A chance remark, one that my husband said wasn't meant as I feared it was, has me reluctant to go to Sunday School. A sense that my son is embarrassed of me (natural enough at his age) has me feeling like I'm nothing but a social burden to him and my husband and I ought to hide at home. I'm popping back into my shell. It's hard to overcome a lifetime of feeling like an unwelcome outsider.
I hadn't really put everything together though, and realized what I was doing. I suppose I'd better start addressing the issue. Just how to address it I'm not sure, since I think objectively that I am a social burden.
Thank you for making me think.
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